[ i have to be strong! ]

[ i hope to be strong! ]

woke up VERY EARLY today.. at around 8am ba! hais! my holidays are ENDING soon! and i dont get to sleep well! sobx! SAD! met my itesd peeps and spsd peeps for the skit preparation.. today is our LAST rehearsal.. and tomorrow is the actual performance.. so NERVOUS! though narrator never see face BUT i also SCARED! after all, it's still a performance and at such GRAND event!

today is a REALLY DRAMATIC day! Sheng long got the place wrongly.. instead of hearing TSC (at tampines safra), he heard TBSC (telok blangah)! then he was LATE and somemore hear the wrong place! GOSH! this is what Bing Yuan said, "sansho shima" attack! ended up, he has to FORK OUT money to take cab down.. lolx! and while deciding on the props we need, we really had created lots of JOKES! for Mr Toda, we would need a moustache! and that Jialiang and Bingyuan, super BAD! say want to cut my hair to make the moustache!! cause it's rebonded and straight enough! lolx! then i replied: " then i should lots of GOOD FORTUNE!" hahaz!

then.. when everyone arrived.. we were chased away cause they say we arent supposed to use the space at the 3rd level when we didnt book any room.. so, we seriously think that sansho shima is working on us! so, we went downstairs and chanted for about 20minutes.. after which, we decided to use the open space at the lobby area! BUT, we are chased away AGAIN! oh my god! BUT, they asked us to use the space at the 3rd level as it is QUIETER! WOOHOO!~ prayers are answered! at least we are given a better place for our LAST rehearsal which is like crucial for us!

was meeting Stella for lunch so i have to leave at 12pm.. then when Jialiang heard that, he said: " 12again? that day also leave at 12, you really like Cinderalla lehz!" then i replied: " ya, even at night, i must be home before 12am de!".. then Jialiang said: " wah, indeed a modern Cinderalla!" no choice! parents are strict BUT i also believe i want a disciplined life.. NOT one that is HAVOC! i know i am going to MISS out lots of "FUN"! BUT, life isnt all about playing.. there's many things we need to fulfill..

and after thinking so much recently, i know i have to be STRONG! whatever type of life i want in future, i have to WORK HARD NOW! as " the present you is based on what you did in the past, and the future will be based on what you do in the present!" so, i will learn to know when to play, when to study, when to relax, when to work hard.. and learn to face and accept facts, learn to forgive and forget, learn to be understanding, learn to be patient, learn to hold on to my beliefs! my DESTINY is in my own hands.. not in others...

saw my children!! very HAPPY to see them after so long! ya, mummy still LOVE you guys yup! hahaz! saw Melvin (tan) at tsc before i left.. and i asked him a really STUPID question till he has something to fight back.. i asked: " hey, why you here?" and he said: " i'm from tampines east chapter lehz, here's my territory ma.." lolx.. had a short chat with him.. but was good lahz.. and got to know that he had quited his current job and taking up another job.. well, wish you GOOD LUCK!

lunch was at kfc! seriously, i really PROTEST and ANTI fastfood NOW! just have too much fastfood recently.. ya, and Willie said i slim down today! so, it's MOTIVATION to work hard.. maybe recently too STRESS ba! will feel like eating, but when the food comes, my appetite is not there.. i also dont know why.. BUT, it's also GOOD lahz! can lose weight! hahaz! after lunch, the rest of them went to ice-skate.. and i decided to go for my mom.. on the way there, i just treat everyone as transparent.. SORRY about that! too ENGROSSED with my storybook - "Think Big"! hahaz!

and i had a HAIR-CUT today! almost wanted to cut my hair SHORT! ya, i mean REALLY SHORT! BUT, scare i will look ROUNDER! so, better NOT! hahaz! i still LOVE my LONG HAIR! had a dinner with my family! though really not a proper one.. BUT, i'm happy! cause 4 of us! (me, my mom, dad and bro) are eating dinner together! 姨婆(my grandma's sister) called mom.. and as usual lahz.. telling my mom what my grandma said to her.. and said about me attending my uncle's ROM.. one of my aunty's husband, my 姨丈 said, i should not go as my maternal grandma just passed away! YOU! SHUT your @&%/# up!! you're JUST JEALOUS! please DONT FORGET! i'm the OLDEST grandchildren in the Loh's family.. i bear the surname LOH! your children DONT okie?

hais! why people just LOVE to BAD-MOUTH!? even if they are MATURED ADULTS? why have to be SO PETTY over small stuffs like that? hais! i guess i REALLY have to be STRONG to SHUT those SMELLY MOUTHS up! see my POWER on this WEDNESDAY ba! i make sure i show my SARCASTISM to YOU! see the reason why i HATE my paternal family side so MUCH? cause they are just PLAIN GROUP of people who GOSSIPS, BAD-MOUTH, BACKSTAB and ARE PETTY over small issues!

tomorrow is going to be a LONG day! sd kensyu from 9-6pm! and dinner with Yvonner Erjie!!! woohoo! shall update more tomorrow! lights off!!! ^-^

a song i like NOW! very OLD le!!

by 梁朝伟 title: 你是如此难以忘记

早已知道爱情是难舍难离
早已知道爱一个人不该死心塌地
早已不再相信所谓天长地久的结局
所以我习惯了一个人的孤寂
所以我习惯在人来人去中保持清醒
所以我习惯戴上面具
不再为谁付出真心
但为何还是把你藏在心里
为什么还是等着你的消息
我怎能告诉自己说我一点都不在意
你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
你的笑容你的一动一举
都是我所有的记忆
你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
改变自己需要多少勇气
翻腾的心情该如何平息

and... HAPPY BIRTHDAY Xiu Juan jie!!!!!~