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well.. it's wednesday.. so fast.. about 8weeks has passed.. yupz.. and i'm gonna be having my revision week next week to prepare myself for my exams.. yupz.. it's this sickening big word that turn my life upside down.. EXAMS... well.. i know it's time i do something to my studies.. i'm been doing quite well in my theory test paper.. but arent really do that well in my practical.. especially during my second phase test which took place last tuesday.. yeah.. i was sick.. and quite sick till my class advisor also chasing me home..

but what's e point of crying over spilled milk?? it's meaningless, Jessica Loh.. i was having a terrible backache after the hyper-pyrexia.. and was having cold sweat.. and all these come just to "right" time.. in the midst of my test.. well.. let's not talk about it.. now is time to have some rescue work.. yupz... rescue work.. need to do my VERY VERY BEST in my exam so that i can pull up my GPA.. YES.. I WANT AN "A" PLEASE.............. will it just drop from sky?? dont day-dream le, Ms Loh.. it's not gonna happen...

as usual.. all lesson today was on nursing studies.. 8am - 10am, we had SIM training.. ya.. bad mouth of me and Nad.. we were saying that we havent been chosen to be the nurse before.. so.. so LUCKY of us.. both of us got our WISH granted!!!! haiz.. but it wasnt a good turn out.. i practically screw everything.. Nad oso.. the teacher even shouted at her.. she was just so upset and angry over it!! but what to do?? luckily, she cheered up after a while.. if not, me and Farhan sure become EMO kids..

after which.. from 10am to 12pm.. it was nursing studies theory.. poor Mdm Qian waited for the class to set in SLOWLY as we were dismissed 10minutes late from class and waited for them to cat walk in SLOWLY.. then.. here comes her scolding.. well.. i tink somehow we need that to be waken up with our purpose of coming into this course.. yesterday.. 7students were absented from class.. and 1 return home after attending 2hrs lesson.. cos she vomited.. among 7students who are absent.. many were good friends.. and i think many of them had menstruction and had menstrual cramps.. so they didnt go for doctor consultation.. just have panadol and stay home to rest..

somehow.. this is the most ridiculous excuse you can ever heard of.. menstrual cramp.. what so big deal about it?? girls have it every month.. i agreed to the fullest to what Mdm Qian had said.. she said: "Everytime you have your period and develop menstrual cramp, you must take MC to rest.. Are you going to do that when you go for attachment?? Are you going to do that when you become an enrolled nurse?? then who's gonna take care my patients??" i think she really sound rationale and reasonable huh.. it's not a big deal.. just learn how to prevent it.. or at least reduce the pain.. drink less cold drinks.. take less spicy or sour food.. eat panadol maybe before your period gonna come.. or simply apply hot pain to your abdominal areas to reduce the pain..

well.. well.. well.. BWG!! after our break.. we had combined lecture for nursing studies at the MLT.. didnt see yuan around.. and found out later that he was sick.. hmm.. what's e least i can do?? help him copy notes lohz.. his classmates are just so inconsiderate bunch of people.. they dont care how people who absent can cope with lessons they missed.. all they care is whether they themselves can promote to a higher level, whether they can do well in their studies or not.. yes.. i know it's not my problem.. he isnt my classmate.. just a normal friend.. but he's my peer study friend.. so, i wont allow myself to dump my friend when i myself can cope with my studies.. i want to help.. help as much as i can.. and that's me!!

after which.. was PE lesson.. oh.. should say SW (sports and wellness).. sound more high-class... wahahaz(o^.^o).. i'm supposed to retake my NAFA test today de.. but.. seeing my condition now.. i dont really want to worsen it.. my injuried leg is still swollen!! after 3weeks.... and my turn lohz.. having stomach cramp.. and backache.. i didnt bring the appropriate shoe wear also.. so... the teacher didnt let me take the 2.4km run!!! YES YES YES!!! luckily dont need to run..

Nad accompany me to go buy water.. and i drank cold milo.. feel like dying faster.. got stomach cramp still taking cold drinks.. really deserve to die faster.. but who cares!?! the weather is hot.. and i'm WARM!! hahaz.. and was having some causal talk with Nad.. somehow our topic always revolve around that "problem".. and Nad actually commented that it's really heartless.. haiz.. wat to do??!?? i just have to face it and gradually accept it.. meanwhile.. let me be the emo kid!!!!!

well.. some things just cannot be forced.. we just have to understand this simple logic.. i think i'm still surviving and coping on it.. yupz.. i'm still ALIVE.. that's what my friends should be happy about.. the bubbly jessica never die.. just having a hard time.. my life is now black and white!! someone!!! please get it COLOURED!!!!

went home straight after the SW lesson ended.. yupz.. mom's home today.. i had a cold shower today.. not really because the weather is hot.. i just want to waken my brain cells with the cold feeling.. yes!! please dont be dead!! all my brain cells seems to be dying after the cells in my heart died last week.. die die die.. soon.. i'll be a dead person huh.. CANNOT!! i know very clearly i mustnt let this happen.. AWAKEN ME PLEASE!!~

" What's the point of going to sleep when there's no point in waking up??"