[ emo kid ]~*

[ emo kid ]~*

emo kid... i'm just being a emotional freak recently.. i dont know what went wrong with me actually.. i know i cant carry on like that.. but i just cant help myself up.. i just cant stop being like that.. where has the happy-go-lucky jessica gone to?? where has the cheerful jessica gone to?? where?? somebody please call her back can?? why??

was chanting in front of the gohonzon just now.. was praying hard that i can stop thinking of what has happened.. but i just cant.. i cant stuck my ears with music.. my tears will start flowing out.. i cried.. cried in front of the gohonzon.. how?? how am i going to accept this?? why has things turn out to be like that?? it isnt the way i want it to be!! how come things just cant go the way i want it to be???

i thought my life in ite will just be gone in 2 years time peacefully and quietly.. i want to keep a low profile.. but somehow.. i didnt make it through.. thank you.. thank you for coming into my life.. but somehow.. my life is upside down now.. i have lost the energy to stand on my feets once again.. people.. leave me alone for the moment.. i want the peaceful side of me now.. please dont force me to smile.. please dont force me to laugh.. please dont think of cheering me up... it wont helps.. i just want to stay quiet.. and think through thoroughly..

PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!