[ somewhere over the RAINBOW!! ]

[ somewhere over the RAINBOW!! ]

it's FRIDAY!! and we dont have school today!!! yupz.. it's self study given by the nursing department.. oh no!! counting down!!! 3days more to final exams.... seriously.. we dont have much time left to revise.. yupz.. every single second is important.. BUT.. i dont really cherish it seriously.. cause i just did too many STUPID things today.. and blogging here is a waste of time.. BUT.. i have the NEED to blog.. to express my feelings now...

early morning.. i woke up at 7.45am.. my phone's alaram clock rang for quite a long time before i can hear it.. luckily, my brother didnt wake up and suffocate me because of the noise pollution i'm causing early in the morning.. yupz.. i need to wake up to meet Nad and Farhan to study and revise for our exams.. change of venue in our study again.. this time round it's at toa poyah.. cause, in the afternoon, Farhan and me supposed to attend a workshop because of the intergration camp we are attending on the 28th.. had my shower as usual and did my morning prayers too.. my stomach kind of giving me problem early in the morning.. i also dont know why.. i didnt eat anything in the morning.. the worse thing is... i didnt even take dinner last night..

well.. left home at 8.45am.. walked real slowly all the way to yishun mrt.. i'm supposed to meet Nad and Farhan at 9.30am at toa poyah mrt control.. that blur Nad and Farhan actually took the wrong mrt when wanting to tranfer at cityhall.. *diaoz* BUT.. they are just so luckily.. reach toa poyah at 9.30am SHARP!! and dont have to face the punishment of treating me lunch.. *evil laugh* we went to BK and got ourselves settled down.. want to eat so much.. BUT.. just want to wait till lunch hours at 11am.. like that can save money eating the breakfast and cut down the amount of food taken in.. *wink*

had mushroom swiss single meal at the cost of $3.95!! yupz.. it's STUDENT MEAL!! who else will have this good priority?? *evil laugh* ya.. i doing sinful thing today again.. i ate FASTFOOD!! oh man!! mugging and mugging at BK.. mug till 1plus.. and the crazy us started to pose for the camera.. wahahaz.. *kawaii ne* after which.. we left for the workshop.. i feeling *sad*.. i'm not in the same group as farhan.. oh man!! will die.. saw emo gel.. and i was so excitied that i say "EMO GEL" right in front of him.. lolx.. Nad and Farhan laughed they really got muscle cramp.. kekez.. *blur me* i didnt even realised i said it though Nad's expression changes!!! kekez.. OOPS!! a bit crappy on the things we going to do during the camp.. kind of regret why i sign up for it..

after the briefing.. i called him.. want to pass him the past year paper i have in my hands.. hoping that it can help him in his revision also.. he lied to me.. he said he's still at his training.. but actually.. he's on his way back already.. maybe in the cab with the girl again ba.. i boarded bus 8 to tampines.. the bus only travelled 10mins away from toa poyah and he messaged and said that he's at his void deck already.. what is this?? it's a LIE!!! seriously a LIE!! am i that irritating?? he asked me to throw it into his letter box.. end up he say, his letter box is locked.. i just sms and want to confirm his unit no.. cause i remember is 7th storey but he told me is 6th storey.. end up.. he used "aiya" this word in his reply.. got irritated?? feel fustrated??

cant you just feel a bit more grateful to the way i am treating you now, for more appreciative towards things i have done for you?? i am doing this and SERIOUSLY NOT asking anything in RETURN from you!!! YET, i get this kind of treatment.. haiz.. he told me to sms him when i reach.. when i was at tampines safra waiting for bus to go to simei.. We (Farhan, Nad and me) saw RAINBOW.. "somewhere over the RAINBOW"...... a full RAINBOW.. is a BLESSING in return.. BUT.. things didnt turn out good.. he sms.. saying that he's not free to meet me to take the paper and ask me to go home.. ya.. i travelled all my way from toa poyah to simei with my poor friends and you ask me to go home?? what shit is that??

he cant even spare that 2minutes to come to his void deck to take the paper.. and said if i really want to come, throw it into his corridor's window then.. he's at home.. busy somemore.. why must it be window?? why cant you even open the door?? the only CONCLUSION i can JUMP to is that you dont even want to SEE me in person.. thanks huh!! haiz.. Nad and Farhan got real ANGRY.. till Nad feel like calling him and scold him and Farhan used vulguarities on him.. he almost replied the sms on behalf of me.. luckily he didnt.. *haiz*.. i'm real DISAPPOINTED this time round.. and find myself being real real STUPID all this while!!!!

Jessica Loh, can you dont repeatedly be SO STUPID?? stop all ties with him!! you should NOT be doing things for him anymore.. just listen to Nad, to Farhan, to Xueyun, to all your friends' words.. you have ENDURED one week.. not talking to him, not doing things for him, not sms-ing him.. you SHOULD continue this way!!! haiz.. i BROKE that CHAIN.. now, everything gonna START ALL OVER AGAIN!!!

told xueyun da jie what happened.. was on the phone with her just now.. i was talking and only her breathing through out the first 15minutes.. she so DAMN ANGRY.. angry for him doing this to me.. angry with me still doing things for me.. she even commanded me to delete his pictures from my friendster, his sms from my handphone, change my msn nick to something not regarding him and dump anything that he has given me.. i just cannot be so heartless.. i cant bring myself to be like that.. those who know me for really long should know me well inside.. i'm a SUPER EMOTIONAL person.. the thing i'm afraid to do the most is to be heartless.. really........