[ unforgivable sinner!! ]

[ unforgivable sinner!! ]

it's another day of school today.. Han bought me and Nad sandwiches for breakfast.. thanks Han... though i dont really feel like eating.. but because i know you and Nad really cares for me.. so eat and live for your sake.. starting off the day is the bioscience combined lecture at the MLT.. ya.. heard his voice early morning outside the lecture hall.. when i crying and thinking with Nad and Farhan's company.. i just pretend.. Nad held my hands tight.. and pad on my shoulder.. telling me to be strong.. i cant.. cant stop thinking.. cant stop crying.. especially when i'm alone.. especially when i'm school.. my heart just sanks...

today lecture was conducted by Ms Doris Lim.. one of my favourite teacher.. she's just so pretty.. i just feel bad.. and so uncomfortable.. after crying.. i hate the feeling of having headache.. Red cross also had a powerpoint presentation after our lecture ended.. they actually shows us a slide show.. playing the song : superman.. i almost flood MLT because of that.. when they actually played the song.. when you're sad, the thing you cant do is to listen to music.. all songs will all a sudden turn you emotional and tears will be flowing like tap water...

after bioscience combined lecture.. okie it's bioscience again.. it supposed to be PIE lesson de.. but because it's revision week.. all PIE and SW lessons are taken over either by Ms Tan or Mdm Qian for revision.. i just miss PIE lesson.. i really miss attending Ms Hazel Tay's lesson.. simply love her... you have lightened up class C's life.. i guess it's easy to meet such a great teacher right?? that's real good fortune... ya.. bioscience extra lesson was conducted in PIE classroom.. and it's real BORING.. cause Ms Tan is repeating and repeating on microbiology.. chain of infection.. i close my eyes also can write liao..

but it's her efforts.. cause Hafiz been sick for quite long.. and he missed the lessons.. it's the benefit of the doubt.. well.. she's right.. i want the whole JN0704C to graduate together.. i dont wish to see anyone being left behind.. everyone look so stressed.. especially those who really want to do well.. after lunch was nursing studies theory.. while waiting for Mdm Qian to come.. Hazel recommended this song by Lene Marlin... name of the song is unforgivable sinner.. it's a real nice song.. for those who want to listen.. can tag me.. and i'll send you a softcopy of it.. got the saddening feeling again.. how many times must it arise in a day?? countless.....

3-5pm.. nursing studies practical.. we were asked to don 3M mask.. those used during SARS period.. quite fun actually.. and got an easy dimissal.. yupz.. finally.. on monday somemore.. but i dont get to go home early.. yupz.. i'm going for a meeting.. at jurong kaikan.. so.. me and dougles actually took mrt together.. we walked to simei and took mrt.. along the way.. poor him.. listen to all my grumbles.. now.. i reall know who are my true.. i really have a great bunch of friends.. thanks for being there for me always.. dougles is right.. sometimes we just have to be more cautious with who we make friends with..

BUT.... i'm the STUPID type.. i think everyone i meet will be the greatest people on earth.. and believe innocently that everyone has a good heart.. especially my friends.. BUT.. i was wrong.. and it's been many incidents that proved that my thinking is wrong.. HOWEVER.. i just cant make myself to believe it.. i believe in treating everyone with a true heart.. not even doubting his/her motive of making friends with me.. i'm sure that friends i met dont come into my life coincidentally.. we are destined to be friends.. and cherish every single of them..

ya.. meet shirley at boon lay for dinner before we go for the meeting.. yupz.. i had Long John Silver for dinner.. OH MAN!!! it's so fattening.. well.. going to cut down my food for tomorrow after eating so much oily food today.. haiz.. sinful!! *sobx sobx* ya.. we chatted and ate our dinner.. i know it's not a good habit.. cause later our larynx never close then we will get choke.. cause the food goes into out airway.. wahahaz.. bioscience revision in my blog.. heez=]

was pretty tired but still managed to conquer over my sansho shima and come for the meeting.. saw many friends when i was at the lobby area in the centre.. yupz.. most excitied to see xueyun da jie.. yeah.. she said i really slim down a bit.. and ask me to jiayou!! YES!! i will de!! dont worry.. that's one of my short term goal! saw auntie nancy, auntie sherley too.. all of them are real happy to see me.. after MIA-ing for more than 2 months i guess.. wahahaz.. yup.. and i went for the meeting in nursing uniform.. all of them commented that i looked great in that.. thanks for all the compliments!!

after the meeting, mom and dad suggested to take a cab home.. yupz.. at reach home at 10pm sharp.. real tired.. tomorrow is another long day.. *yawn*