[ 也许时间是一种解药... ]

[ 也许时间是一种解药... ]

i'm just so BAD luck.. especially yesterday.. almost forgetten to say.. i wake up and when i'm about to leave my house to my grandma's house, i knocked my small toe against my bed.. and it really HURTS!!!! and when i was trying to cross the road yesterday.. i almost sprain my ankle because there's a hole there and i didnt see it.. the worse thing is i'm wearing heels!!!

and i had a bad stomach cramp since yesterday! and it HURTS the whole night.. and in the middle of the night, some a**ho** neighbour i have is DRUNK!! and he stays above my floor.. 1.30am liao still making some commerical!! and he's beating his wife, slamming the door.. so, my brother cant stand it and rang the police.. i just kept quiet and continue to sleep.. i'm just TIRED and just dont wish to be AWAKE! cause once i am awake, i know i wont get to sleep again.. at least when i sleep, i dont think about it..

i just dont wish to think about it.. and dont want to face anything.. maybe it sounds as though i'm 自欺欺人 but least this way, it might makes me feel BETTER.. had my favourite 厨前一丁cup noodles... BUT, i dont know why, after eating for 2mouths, i just feel i dont have the appetite to continue eating.. maybe it's my MOOD that is affecting me ba.. BUT, i still FORCED myself to finish it cause i was having stomach cramp and at the same time, i'm having gastric pain!! 天啊，可以不以不要对我那么残忍？我就快要崩溃了!

told Nadiah about it today.. Thanks Nad! thanks for being concern to me.. and thanks for constantly asking if i'm okie and asking how was it everytime you see me.. Maybe Junyuan was right.. this is the WRONG timing.. cause school is reopening soon.. and will sure AFFECT my MOOD.. BUT, at least i'm out campus.. i dont have to face it.. BUT, patients' safety is in my hands.. just hope that i still can continue to bring them joy.. and bring laughter to my friends around me AGAIN!

went out of my house at about 4pm.. going to Shaw to remove the sensor tag from the Puma bag.. ya.. got to do it fast before Stephanie (lee)'s birthday is coming.. after which, i went to Bugis to meet Seeleng jie.. she was busy with her work.. and so while waiting for her, i went to shop around.. and had ICE-CREAM!! BELGIUM CHOCOLATE!! was my favourite.. BUT, i cant finish it.. it has a combination of sweet and bitter taste of chocolate.. BUT, when i eat it, i just feel that it so BITTER that i cant put it into my mouth.. so, i only finished half a scoop and i dumped it.
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dinner was Pastamania.. and we sat at the place we seated the other round during Wuihou's birthday celebration.. i had my favourite - Creamy Chicken.. BUT, i only had 1/3 of it.. like Seeleng jie say, it's NORMAL to have NO APPETITE now.. after dinner, we went shopping around.. i'm like so SIANZ.. so MOODY.. just cant cheer myself up no matter what.. was craving to grab some stuff to make myself HAPPY.. and i bought a BAG! was HAPPY for a moment.. BUT, it just cant bring my PAIN away.. after which, went to West mall with Seeleng jie.. just dont wish to go home and face the 4walls..

remember that day i mentioned about that friend on his point of view about relationship? he GAVE UP and broke off with his girlfriend.. like i say, time will change will a person's point of view of looking at things.. he didnt have a good talk with her and so problems isnt solved and he even choose to give up.. well, a person who dont know how to cherish and treasure, what rights do you have to love? i dont know if it hurts YOU, but i'm sure the GIRL is HURTED.. i know how it feels........

maybe it's destiny ba.. it's NOT the right time yet.. by meeting many WRONG ones will actually help you to learn to cherish when the RIGHT one really comes.. "WOUNDS will HEAL and leaving SCARS behind to make us REMEMBER.." 长痛不如短痛! at least, the PAIN is NOT dragged.. and thus the wound caused isnt that big.. i'm NOT going to do anything.. NOTHING will change this ENDING anymore.. so, let this PAIN be SWEPT away slowly ba......


i know my stand still hasnt change. BUT, you changed...