一个人的日子我正在努力的走...

一个人的日子我正在努力的走...

on morning shift today.. and was QUITE BUSY i can say.. as i start to know my patients better, the trust of the nurses start to develop.. did quite a number of things today.. BUT, i must say something.. i seriously DISLIKE my AN.. hais! it's NOT because she's NEW.. BUT, because she simply DONT DO THINGS the correct way.. HAIS! and i was asked to feed an unconsicous patient today.. and i got scolded by Ms Chow because of that.. hais!

and when i'm bathing a patient.. she wheeled another patient in and left her on the commode outside the shower room! how can she compromised patient's safety? hais! and worse still.. she left me alone to do changing for a patient who's on spinal nursing.. my godness! i just had a HARD TIME..i just dont know how am i going to work with her.... had spoken to Ms Chow regarding that.. BUT, all she said that i must be brave enough to voice out to that AN if we think that she's not doing the right thing.. hais.. my purpose telling her is hope that she can speak to the Nursing Officer (NO) and do something about it.. NOT ask me to be BRAVE.. i am BRAVE enough i feel..

just MISS Ms Emily so much.. though many students dont like her.. BUT i LOVE her.. she's ABLE to UNDERSTAND me very WELL till i feel very COMFORTABLE talking to her even on personal issues.. i really MISS her! sobx! how am i going to do well this term? i seriously have NO CONFIDENT! my A's.. Hope it dont FLOAT away.........

saw one of Pinwen's wushu's friend's dad hospitalised in the ward i'm working now.. and i told Pinwen.. he had a hard time guessing who the guy is.. lolx.. just so FUNNY..went home at around 3pm.. and saw Hafiz waiting for his girlfriend.. and heard he's going back to school tomorrow.. hopes he can do well and find his purpose of getting into this course.. was raining quite heavily when i'm on my way home.. and think i'm too TIRED till i feel that my miagrain problem is coming back again...i'm seriously TIRED.. BUT mom's HOME.. at least home-cooked food can help me to take away my stress..

Bro's home today.. he's on leave purposely cause mom's home.. and mom brew my FAVOURITE soup today - 莲藕汤！and had fried veggies and steamed fish too! but i had little rice to cut down on my carbohydrate intake.. feel so DEPRESSED about my attachment actually.. got a case study and project work due next week.. HAIS! i got NO SPARE TIME to read patients' case notes at all.. how am i going to finish it? and i'm the leader for my group.. got to handle some IRRITATING SPECIMEN who loves changing breaks and deal with IRRITATING SPECIMEN who can tell you that their cubicle got nothing to do all the time... hais.. really DISLIKE working with people who are not self-disciplined and self-motivated...

regarding that incident.. i think i am coping well.. though i can say i still feel SAD when my friends asked about it or when friends who already know asked about me coping.. what to do? just have to ADAPT.. Miao miao jie came to speak to me yesterday in msn.. and asked me how i was recently.. she said she read my blog and saw my msn nick.. and feels that i dont look good but i didnt approach her to talk about.. hais.. this kind of thing.. how to voice out? i wont blame anybody.. 是我自己的命不好，我又能怨谁呢？只能怪自己那么软弱！一个人的日子我正在努力的走... i dont know what struggles, what challenges will be ahead of me.. BUT, i know my friends will SUPPORT me till the end...


weekends, please come faster......on afternoon shift tomorrow.. MORE SLEEP TONIGHT!!