[ 其实你没有那么爱他..... ]

其实你没有那么爱他.....

on afternoon shift today again! VERY TIRED! and i'm still sneezing.. i kept forgetting that i have to finish the antibiotic.. so till now, i cant finish the full course of that medicine.. and seriously.. though i'm a nurse, i really HATE to eat medicine! hahaZ! what kind of NURSE is that! i'm HAPPY!! cause 2 of my patients are DISCHARGING TODAY!! feel happy for them cause they can be HOME! reach the hospital quite EARLY today.. 12.30pm and i'm already READY for work..

sent one of my patient, Ah fen jie down when she's discharged.. and she gave me her number.. and ask me to get in touch with her when i'm free.. and Ah fen jie's husband actually TEASED me again about his nephew and even his nephew in front of me and ask me to speak to him.. i'm like so PAISEH.. then, he gave me his number and ask for mine and my email.. well, it's GOOD to know another friend too! ^-^ NO HARM..

today as usual, will be in the team 1 with SN Cailian and SAN Halimah.. hais! sianz! had a new admit at around 6plus today.. BUT, i already finished my completancy for this skill, so give this chance for Ashiqa to do.. QUITE TIRED today! fed patient and stuff and one of my patient's relatives kept asking information about her mom's condition.. i understand how is it like to see your loved ones really ill and lying on this sick bed..

and did changing.. only managed to finish it at around 8.30.. time like pass so FAST today.. and saw one my patient's condition really like my decreased ah ma.. everytime i see her, i just get so EMOTIONAL.. i even dropped TEARS today.. hais! so fast.. this friday, it will be the 49th day ah ma left us.. and i cant be there for the ceremony.. cause it will be my LAST day in this ward and Ms Chow dont allow me to take leave for such reason.. if it's Ms Emily i think she will be KIND enough to understand.. hais! never mind.. i understand.. tomorrow, will be on morning shift! think i'll be like ZOMBIE tomorrow!

this is song below has helped to STRAIGHTEN my THOUGHTS! think i'm REALLY WALKING out of it! though i cried while listening to this song.. Title: 没那么爱他 by Fan Wei Qi...

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话你就放得下

我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话你就放得下

深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话你就放得下