[ 我怀念的.... ]

我怀念的....

woke up at 10.30 today.. REALLY very TIRED.. my will power wasnt STRONG enough.. i heard voices telling me that i should not go for the meeting and rest at home.. and another voice tell me i should go.. lolx! and i still decided to go.. had nasi lemak and ice milo as breakfast.. then sat down to watch tv.. then around 12.40, i left home to take mrt..

on the way there.. i saw the SN working at ttsh.. cant remember her name.. then saw Ann nee and Eric too! Ann nee was reminding of the CNY itesd gathering.. then headed to the mrt station.. took train too Boon Lay mrt.. on the way there.. actually wanted to close my eyes and sleep awhile.. BUT, cant sleep.. so took out my story book and read.. the "Think Big" till now i havent read finish.. lolx!

reached SCC and saw Francis.. he's on duty today.. and so BLUR of me.. Huiqian want to meet me at 3pm but i thought is 2pm.. hais! then i sha sha sit there till 3pm lohz.. sianz! then got to know Zhiwei's sister also, Shan Shan.. nice name.. and went up for the meeting at 4pm.. chanted for 30minutes and did our evening gongyo.. then started with the introduction of everyone..

i can say i learnt a lot today.. about homevisiting and calling members and stuff.. i just hope my will power can be stronger.. and be more convinced to do more for my members and the organisation.. i think i have been sleeping for too long.. and stagnant for too long.. guess it's time to wake up le.. lolx.. meeting supposed to end at 6 but it dragged till 6.45.. then i took 172 to CCK.. then passed away where Ah ma is staying now.. hope she rest in peace..

kind of miss her till i dropped tears secretly.. really MISS you a lot Ah ma.. Xueyun da jie called and she need help to wrap presents tomorrow.. i know she really help so i smsed Cliff and Aunty Helen to tell them i might not be able to go for the planning tomorrow.. feel so SORRY.. cause i was the one who cant make it on Monday cause i'm on afternoon shift and requested to change the planning to Sunday.. yet, i cant make it again tomorrow.. so SORRY especially to Cliff... so SORRY!

nice song by Stefanie Sun/ Title: 我怀念的

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你
已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说