[ 不放心还是不甘心? ]

不放心还是不甘心?

on morning shift today.. went to work alone today again cause Ninie different shift from me.. reached the ward at about 6.20am and saw one of my bed in my cubicle is empty.. i had a BAD feeling.. yes, i guess correctly.. shall not elaborate what happened.. but, i didnt wish it was like that.. team 1 with SN Keng Li and SAN Halimah today.. but Halimah was asked to send patient to SGH.. so Letchumi came to take female side today..

fed my patient and bathe too! cause she's going to AMKCH for rehab today! like finally.. hopes she get well soon!! spent 45minutes sauna-ing with her in the shower room.. and changed her into her home clothes.. she really SLIM down a lot.. poor aunty.. and she commented that my mom must be very PRETTY.. so i asked her why she will think my mom is pretty.. then she said.. cause...... i am PRETTY!! hahaz! was a bit paiseh when i heard it! BUT, i was HAPPY!!! hahaz!^-^

feel so HAPPY that even how difficult my patients are or my patients' relatives are.. i can still managed to handle them myself and they would even praise me for the care i have given to the patients.. the SATISFACTION keeps me going.. i will LOVE this career more and more.. and deeper and deeper.... but i think i still get a bit EMO when i heard bad results coming out from patients' scan and stuff.. think i need to improve in the controlling my emotions part.. i have lost my loved ones.. so i know how it feels..

HUIWEN came to our ward today.. so HAPPY to see her.. nearer and nearer to her dreams.. feel so HAPPY for her.. hopes she do well in her final posting.. Rosaline suggested to go for k-session together! yupz! my favourite.. and longed to watch a movie!!!! finished work at 3pm today.. last day tomorrow.. think i'll be SUPER sad cause i dont know how my fate would be like in my medical posting.. HOPE it will be as good... headed home and boy is home.. he never work today.. was so tired.. bathe and slept till 6.30pm.. just TOO TIRED to work morning shift.. tomorrow's ah ma's 49th day.. and i cant attend cause i'm working tomorrow.. hais! i really miss her alot!! think mom too..

off to sleep.. morning shift tomorrow...miss NAD and SHIFFA lots!!!