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[ the story has come to an end.. THE END! ]

i had the greatest SHOCK of my life this morning.. i REGRETTED waking up to see the time and read my sms.. this was the WORSE NIGHTMARE i ever had.. waking up at 5.33am and i just cant get back to sleep anymore.. i cried and cried.. and played puzzle bobble just to divert my attention and hopes it will makes my eyes tired so i can fall asleep without realising.. BUT, NOTHING seems to work..

get out of bed at around 7.15am.. YES, i am going to SMILE today.. for uncle peter's sake.. it's his ROM today! congrats! finally you're MARRIED!! reached grandma's house at around 9.30am.. should say i'm quite EARLY.. slacked around and started playing my puzzle bobble game AGAIN! i'm just STUCK to it..

sms Xianyun, Stella, Stephanie (lam), Xueyun and Seeleng jie.. they have the right to know.. all this while, if not because of them staying by my side.. i think i wont be able to HOLD ON till NOW.. if not because of them, i might have ended my life.. they straighten my thoughts and makes me know that how important i am to them as a sister.. thanks girls for everything! some personal words to them..

Xianyun - yun, thanks for everything! almost 6years of friendship. i know nothing is more important than our friendship. dont worry about me. i'll be okie. and dont so evil le.. you're just happy over that. maybe you're right. 我终于解脱了. i will stand on my feet again. wait and see ba my sister!

Stella - stella, thanks for everything! you have always been there to lend me a listening ear. be it my sorrow, my happiness, my nag, my sadness, you have never missed any of them. i know you have sent me prayers. thanks for that. Jessica will be cheerful again.

Stephanie (lam) - steph, thanks for everything! you are my dearest comrade and soulmate. you have never fail to encourage me. the one with the most compassionate heart among us. thanks for the listening ear. you will not be forgetten. i will be okie.

Xueyun - dajie, you're always the one who giving me a helping hand. thank you dajie. i know you're glad that everything is over. continue to stay by me worz. i still you around for my healing process.

Seeleng jie - jie, though we only get close 2weeks back but it seems that we have been sisters for long.. thanks for not failing to encourage me even in your blog. thanks for lending me your listening ear and making sure i'm okie.. i'll be okie. dont worry.

this 5 heroines played an IMPORTANT part in the past few weeks in my life.. they will just talk about this issue to me when they see me.. thanks for never failing to give up on this STUBBORN girl.. i should have listen to you guys. BUT, i never REGRET not listening.. after all, it served as a period of acceptance to me.. i more or less got myself prepared mentally for it.. if not, i wont be so CALM now.. though i'm still tearing, i will get well.. wont flood singapore de.. dont worry!

like i said.. my resolution for 2008 is to be a strong girl.. i will stay strong and i will..... and not forgetten the rest.. Nadiah, Shiffa, Joyce, Daphne, Farhan, Yeow Chong.. people who really helped me alot along the way.. thank you so much.. i wont forget all the help given to me..

a song to recommend.. by: 周杰伦 title: 彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我

能不能把我的愿望还给我

为什么天这么安静

所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我

释怀说了太多就成真不了

也许时间是一种解药

也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着

你的身影这么近我却抱不到

没有地球太阳还是会绕

没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单

你说依赖是我们的阻碍

就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱

当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑

要我怎么睡得着你

的身影这么近我却抱不到

没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕

没有理由我也能自己走掉

是我说了太多就成真不了

也许时间是一种解药解药

也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单

你说依赖是我们的阻碍

就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱

当作我最后才明白