* x'mas eve ..... all i wan 4 x'mas is u ..... *

[ * x'mas eve ..... all i wan 4 x'mas is u ..... * ]

* lolx.. finally can update my blog.. sorrie 4 frenz 4 alwaz visit my blog.. nt i dun wanna update.. nt i veri busi.. but is bcos my didi alwaz uses e com .. playin his maple game.. lolx.. tat's y i nv got a chance 2 update lahz.. kekez.. 2dae.. finally got chance 2dae le.. hahaz.. otherwise benny wanna complain le.. sae i ask him update but i nv update.. lolx.. 2005 cumin 2 an end soon le.. so fast.. yr 2005.. i realli gone thru a lot tis yr.. start 2 work on e 26th of nov last yr.. till now.. 1 yr plus le.. finished my o'lvl.. then start workin..

then had an operation on e 24th jan tis yr.. back 2 work.. then.. urine got blood.. gone 2 mani specialist.. now okie le.. but did 1 thingy more scary than injection.. colonoscopy.. oh gosh.. tat almost wanted my life.. hav 2 stop my consumption of food on tat dae.. n drink a veri yucky thingy 2 make mi clear my large intestine in order 2 scope.. aiyoz.. tat's terrible.. though got sedation.. but it dun works at all de.. i'm clear of my surrounding.. so damn painful.. lolx.. after which.. in aug.. mi n him broke off le.. now.. he's attached again.. congrats him.. anw.. dun tok abt him.. will spoilt my mood..

i oso whether tis yr is a fulfillin yr 4 mi not... lolx.. but i noe a lot of new frenz.. at work.. n of cos noe more soka frenz as well.. lolx.. n tis yr.. so happi.. durin my bdae.. i got my frenz n family wif mi.. had steamboat wif my parents on my bdae itself.. though tis yr there's lots of unhappi moments.. i still appreciate tat i'm given a chance 2 live again.. lolx.. i wun purposely 4get wat had happened.. be it happi or sae.. it's all my memories.. lolx.. on my bdae.. i oso got 2 noe tat actually kor realli cares 4 mi a lot.. realli grateful.. i alwaz tot he jus dun care abt mi.. xmas.. i nv realli celebrate lahz.. jus take it as a chance 2 rest lohz.. lolx.. hahaz.. sundae is xmas ma.. so mondae oso public holidae ar.. so got 1 more dae 2 rest lohz.. great!!!!! hahaz..

from a book tat i read.. i got 2 realised 1 thingy.. [[ LOVE IS NOT 2 PEOPLE GAZING AT ONE ANOTHER.. BUT TWO PEOPLE LOOKING AT E SAME DIRECTION ]] hmmm.. dun bcum each other ban jiao shi.. lolx.. those involved in relationship.. tat's a quote 4 u.. hehez.. it's veri easy 2 fall in lurve.. but.. 2 maintain a relation.. is veri veri difficult de.. 2 respect n understand one another.. veri difficult oso.. e mi.. 2wards relationship.. courage = 0%.. confidence = 0%.. gan hai gan hen de jessica is alread died.. let's not tok abt tis anymore..

hey.. anw.. guys.. merry x'mas.. hohoho..

* early celebration 4 mi *

[ * early celebration 4 mi * ]

hmmm.. jus ended my early bdae celebration at 12 yester.. i got hm jus in time at 12am tis mornin.. lolx.. jus lyk cinderalla.. lolx..hahaz.. i hav 2 thankie my soka frenz here.. thankie stephy jie.. my bro-in-law jiafeng, e "cute" benny n of cos our army boi melvin.. hahaz.. we went 4 our sd(student division) meetin at tbsc(telok blangah soka centre) yester.. hmmm.. had spend 2 hrs of our time there 4 a realli wonderful meetin.. my 1st time attendin sd meeting.. but is fine.. got puppet show summore.. nice dance n nice singing.. got pple sing : " can u feel e love tonight" .. oh no... so touching.. n guang liang's tong hua oso.. lolx.. soka pple so talented.. *fainted* (@.@)

i promise.. u will c mi more in gakkai activities.. was at taka seoul yester.. so great.. had my favourite mango juice n mango ice-cream yester.. though i spoke put lotsa of my sad stories out.. yet.. n surprising i didnt cry ar.. lolx.. crybaby grow up le.. i'll control my tears.. i wun cry 4 pple tat dun worth mi contributin my tears le.. u arent ard 4 my bdae.. i dun care le.. i noe u r wif her.. congrats.. i wish u n her will b happi 4eva.. n get out of my life.. it's my life.. my new life wifout u.. u lurve her 4 5 yrs.. now finally 2gether.. should b grateful.. i mus sae sorrie 2 u.. sorrie.. i obstruct u 4 1 yr plus.. sorrie 4 wastin all ur precious time on mi..

stupid ger.. sae dun cry.. now tears oso droppin le.. sobx sobx(T.T).. was walkin ard at orchard.. realli had a great time.. n sayin lotsa of time " i'm tired".. physcially n mentally tired(x.x).. but i noe i got a bunch of frenz supportin mi.. i'm satisfied.. n thankie 4 e strawberry cake.. tat's veri sweet n yummy.. kekez(>.<).. n thankie 4 e present n cake.. i'll learnt my gongyo.. dun worry.. hahaz.. lurve u guys.. lolx(^O^).. it's been so long no 1 bought mi a cake 4 my bdae.. i realli eaten my strawberry cake wif satisfation yester.. realli.. gtg le.. gonna pom pom n go out.. lolx.. take care guys.. lurve u guys lotsa~

* EVERYTHINGY U SAE R LIES ------- U"RE A LIAR ------- DUN EVEN TINK I'LL 4GIVE U *

[ EVERYTHINGY U SAE R LIES --- U"RE A LIAR --- DUN EVEN TINK I'LL 4GIVE U ]

why?? why lie 2 mi?? is so hurtin.. i hav been cheated 4 so long.. i jus nv tot tat i'll b cheated by u.. u sae u dun lyk her anymore.. now wat happens?? congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!! u r wif her now.. like her 4 5 yrs.. from sec 1 till now?? exactly 5 yrs.. wat abt e times u wif mi?? LIAR.. i hate u.. i will nv 4give u.. wat hav i done wrong?? y mus u cheat mi?? so wonderful of u.. n so stupid of mi.. i dun expect u still love mi.. but.. i nv expect u will cheat mi.. dun let mi jiang zhong wat i'm tinkin now.. nvm.. i can live beta wifout u.. ya.. mayb god is rite.. u 2 r more compatible.. wif e same type of pattern.. closer character.. she wun control ur movement.. but tag along.. n she can give everythingy u wan 2 u.. i'm not so wonderful.. 2 mi.. u're a television set n i'm e remote control.. u shld not go beyond my control.. i control ur movement..

u got ur freedom u wan.. cos u love tat ger.. wat else can i sae.. i jus blame myself 4 bein stupid 4 e 2 yrs i noe u.. i noe tis dae will cum.. u can tell her u used 2 hav feelings 4 her in front of mi.. wat else u cant do?? i'm not stupid.. i hav no sae.. all i can is 2 voice out my unhappiness here.. dun worry.. i dun hav any more feelings 2wards a person lyk u.. i noe one dae u 2 will b 2gether.. mayb i'm jus a spare tyre 4 u.. or should sae a float tat floats by when u r e deep blue sea.. now tat high tide is over n u reaches e shore.. i'm useless.. she is e coconut tree by e seaside.. she can provide u shade,n coconut wif juicy flesh n water.. she will determine ur survival.. wif out her u will jus die.. so i'll cheng quan u n her.. otherwise u will die.. love is blind.. is beyond words.. n feelings developed.. it doesnt mean tat person is ur god sis, god daughter, god bro or god son or wateva u guys wun fall 4 one another..

i do lurve sum1..but is no longer u..


[[cheng quan ]] -liu ruo ying

kan jian ni he ta zao dao wo mian jian
wei shao de dui wo shou sheng
hao jiu bu jian
ru huo dang chu mei you wo de cheng quan
shi bu shi jin tian hai zai yuan di pan xuan
bu wei le mian qiang ke shao de zun yan
suo you de bei shang diu zai
fen shou na tian
wei bi yong yuan cai suan ai de wan quan
yi ge ren de cheng quan
hao huo san ge ren de jiu jian
wo dui ni fu chu de qing chun zhe mo duo nian
huan lai le yi ju
xie xie ni de cheng yuan
cheng quan le ni de shao sha yu mao xian
cheng quan le wo de bi hai lan tian
ta xu ni de hai shi san meng mi yi tian yan
wo zhi you yi ju
bu huo hui de cheng quan
cheng quan le ni de jin tian yu ming tian
cheng quan le wo de xia ge xia tian

* it's jus unfair *

[ it's jus unfair ]

* b4 u start readin tis entry.. be prepare 2 hear all my grumble, my complains..

things around us jus cant b fair at all times de.. jus like my manager ba.. he alwaz favour my leader.. onli my leader is prefect.. onli noe how 2 bs.. haiz.. he is alwaz pointin his finger on mi n my sista..wateva we do.. we r kpo.. wateva we do is nt rite.. onli wateva my leader do is rite.. so wat tat my leader's bears my manager's surname.. nvm.. i ren.. "ba ren cheng jin".. one dae.. when my manager retires.. e truth will soon b seen.. i believe my leader will not survive wifout my manager around.. if she is tat gd.. e custom wun ban her from cumin in2 spore.. nvm..

my leader.. how 2 describe her.. she veri selfish.. onli help-out wif our stuff de..onli noe how 2 do her own thingy.. n tat's wat my manager likes abt her..mind her own business.. she is in charge of e cutters from malaysia.. so she wun bother abt local cutters if she has her msia cutters 2 check.. even if e cutters arent urgent.. she will jus stand at e profile projector n check her cutters.. selfish.. jus like last time.. b4 we hav a cleanliness chart.. from e veri 1st dae i start workin in e company i nv c her sweepin e floor.. now got duty roster le.. she got no choice but 2 do it.. wateva lahz.. i gonna chant more.. tat's my karma.. i noe i cant avoid.. i hav 2 face it..

recently.. old illness cum again le.. stomach alwaz pain pain.. i'm alwaz nt obedient.. alwaz drink cold drinks despite e pain.. mayb is e old wound tat is givin mi prob ba.. it's been botherin mi a lot tis few daes.. my aunt.. she bad mouth mi in front of my brother.. how can she do such a thingy?? i alread stop goin 2 my pateral grandparents hse le.. cos of my granny n my aunt bad-mouthin mi.. how can they do such a thingy?? i'm their onli grand-daughter ar.. haiz.. 4get it.. i wun visit them anymore.. i c no point le.. from young.. all my aunts n granny alwaz bad-mouth my mom in front of my didi n mi.. i feel so bad on behalf of my mom.. their onli daughter-in-law.. n my didi n mi r onli 2 grand children.. yet.. we r given tis kinda of treatment.. wat is tis?? y my pateral side relatives all like tat de??? so pathetic.. even my dad.. he's beyond hope..

i onli lurve my mom.. n my onli didi.. wo men hui xiang yi wei ming ...

* life's like vapour tat evaporates every sec *

[ life's like vapour tat evaporates every sec ]

* evaporation takes place every sec.. when there's water.. evaporation will take place.. jus dunoe y.. i tink quite a lot tis few weeks.. realli c thru lotsa thingys liao le.. my best bud.. she got mental illnesses.. i dun even not though i now her 4 alread 3 or 4 yrs?? haiz.. if is not my mom who told mi.. i wun even noe.. she broke off wif her bf who's much younger than her.. cos her bf jus cant 4get his ex.. wat's this?? y so irresponsible?? when u r startin a new relation, u mus let go e past rite?? if u'r nt ready 2 let go ur past, dun ever let e new relation take place.. *wei he zhi dao shi bei ju you ren bei ju fa sheng ne?* y mus tat guy be so irresponsible?? dun they noe he needs 2 pay 4 e effect tat he has cause.. cause n effect.. love sumone is not a crime.. but.. hurtin sumone u used 2 love or u love is so sinful.. wif her illness, ur family probz, ur relation, how can she not break down?? realli pity her.. we can chant 4 her.. we can pray 4 her.. but is realli up 2 her 2 pull herself thru all those probz alread..

as 4 mi.. "kan dan le" .. hav or dun hav oso nvm.. i feel satisfied.. i feel contented can le.. who cares so much.. *wink* kekez.. i'm happi wif who i am.. wat i hav.. tat's enough.. u will nv live happi if u nv tink happily.. u mus feel satisfied, contented n grateful wif u hav.. u will definitely live carefully n feel happi.. trust mi.. let bygones b bygones.. u dun hav 2 purposely 4get e thingys tat happened in e past.. b it happi or sad.. treat them as memories.. treat them as experiences.. treat them lessons given 2 u.. n make sure history wun repeat..

got fren from china came last week n went back le.. her name is jia yao.. her dad sae got e wrong name 4 her.. yao ar yao.. makin e whole family shaking wif her.. lolx.. she is younger than mi by 3 yrs i tink.. quite a pretti ger.. got take neo print wif her.. but no scanner.. will find sum1 help mi scan n upload them.. *wink* she stay in zhu hai china.. her life there is jus so much much diff frm us.. i realli feel grateful 2 gohonzon 2 let mi b born in spore.. though my family isnt tat rich.. but we r contented.. my studies although not so gd.. but i got a great job.. noe lotsa of great pple.. like my kor.. my jie.. i'm veri happi le.. my boss n her wife oso nice pple.. if not 4 him who paid my mom's air ticket, she will nv b able 2 travel 2 hongkong n china last yr wif them 4 holidae.. n my dad.. he's goin cambodia next yr.. n mi 2 germany.. 4 at least 2 weeks ba.. i wun disappoint u de uncle roger,auntie winnie n of cos, my mummy n daddy..

[ hao xin fen shou ] -candy lo n wang lee hom

Si fau hun ging nga, gong but chuet suet wah
Muet chor aw si suet, nei seung fun sau ma
Chang kup nei soon fook dou, jau jeung min yueng
Hor gaai wui faan ngaau nei yut ha, nei ji ma

Ye xu gai fan xing, bu ying zai shuo hua
Bei fang qi de wo, ying you ci bao ma
Ruo guo wo ceng shi ge, huai mu yang ren
Neng fou zai rang wo, shi yi xia, bao yi xia

hui tau mong, buen nei jau
chung loi mei chang hang fook gwor
Hen tai duo, mei jie guo
wang shi zhong ti shi zhe mo
Ha buen sang, pui ju lei waai
yi faai lok ya but dor
Bei wo shang, rang ni tong

Hou sum yut jou fong hoi aw
Chung tau lou lik ya hum hor
Tung tung but yiu hou gwor
Wei he chang zhe zhe shou ge
Wei yuan hen er fen shou
Wen ni shi fou yuan liang wo
Yuek ju ding yau yut dim fu chor
But yu ji gei chan sau got por

Hui tou ba, bu yao zou
Bu yao zhe yang li kai wo
Hen tai duo, mei jie guo
Wang shi zhong ti shi zhe mo
Ha buen sang, pui ju nei
Waai yi faai lok ya but dor
Muet yau sum, bit joi tor

Hou sum yut jou fong hoi aw
Chung tau lou lik ya hum hor
Tung tung but yiu hou gwor
Wei he chang zhe zhe shou ge
Wei yuan hen er fen shou
Wen ni shi fou yuan liang wo
Yuek min keung ya fun dou but dor
But yu sum more ya sui por

La La La Hao xin fen shou mei tian bo,

Hoh ji goh je ya noi hoh
Naan ngaai jau mou wai jou tor

Hou sum yut jou fong hoi aw
Chung tau lou lik ya hum hor
Tung tung but yiu hou gwor
Wei he chang zhe zhe shou ge
Wei yuan hen er fen shou,
Wen ni shi fou yuan liang wo
Yuek ju ding yau yut dim fu chor
But yu ji gei chan sau got por

[[ is a nice song.. go find it.. *wink* ]]

* kai po hong chen *

[ kai po hong chen ]

* dunoe y.. jus got tis feelings now.. i see thru everythingy de..nothingy much 2 worry abt.. i jus wanna live carefreely.. live carefreely.. n dun tink too much abt e past.. exams goin 2 finished le.. freedom goin 2 cum back le.. but goin 2 start work again n goin 2 busi again le..mus go learn german.. oh no.. headache ar.. alamak..

haiz.. i'm goin germany le.. realli hope i'm not comin 2 cum back here again.. but there's sum1 i need 2 care 4 now.. my cousin.. my mission now is 2 shakubuku him 2 chant.. lolx.. a big big mission.. gonna change him.. cos i noe he will listen 2 mi ar.. i wan him 2 change 4 e beta.. hmmm.. fren from china come spore..tml gonna show her around..n she mite be studyin in spore.. great.. lolx.. jus like got a younger sista le.. lolx..oso dunoe wat 2 sae..i used 2 b talkative n filled wif ideas.. now i got lost of words sumtimes n stared in2 air oso.. tat's not e real mi.. tat's not mi.. y am i like tat?? sobx sobx.. can sum1 find back e real mi?

gtg le frenz.. take care n tag mi often..

i m h e r e b lo g g i n g

[ i m h e r e b lo g g i n g ]

lolx.. gonna b a bit more funny tis time wrong.. i'm here blogging.. after so long.. heez(>.<).. but yun.. u wont be able 2 see it till 3 mths ltr.. guess wat?? yester jus meet yun at tiong.. ate kfc at such a hot n warm weather.. saw wei min oso.. she nw stayin at marsling.. n studyin at dover.. gosh!!!~ onli rentin 4 3 mths lahz.. movin 2 serangoon.. tat's far too.. guess wat nw?? i'm sick.. after goin yun hse n find e zhou chuan xiong cd 4 my mom.. cos i borrow her 4 1 yr le.. tilll nw she haven return ma.. then my mom chasin.. so i bo bian.. mus got find 4 her.. yun she throw mi alone go c movie wif her frenz at tiong cinema.. though sick..

did went 2 wk 2dae.. cos got double pay ma.. so wanna earn more.. plus i got lotsa lotsa lotsa wk 2 do.. haiz~ jus hope i get sum peace.. *wink* went 2 get stephy bdae present.. celebratin bdae 4 her tml cos her bdae falls on e same dae as my dad.. 17th aug..n bought myself a braclet.. n 2 rings.. 1 wearin on e last finger on e rite.. pple sae avoid xiao ren.. hahaz(=.=!!) .. anw.. let's give it a try.. though i'm nt supersitious type.. n my dear.. slpin n slpin.. nv even wanna tok 2 mi .. i sae i'll call him back..but when i intend 2 call him.. he sae he wanna go slp le.. u see pale 2 our realation le rite?? i jus wan an ans.. a " yes " or a " no " .. tat's easy rite?? do u still lurve mi?? down wif flu n sore throat.. sneezing all dae long.. v tired le..

in almost everythingy actuall.. i jus wanna find back e hope, determination, courage n confindence i shld hav.. gohonzon plz bless mi.. i noe u do.. p e a c e ~~~~~~~~~

08062005 - colonoscopy [part 1] + [part 2]

08062005 - colonoscopy [part 1]

guess wat.. i wakey at 6.20am tis mornin though i'm nt wkin..cos i ahv 2 eat breakfast b4 7am n start my medi frm 7am onwards..hav 2 clear my large intestine..clear all those wastes b4 goin 2 scope which is in e afternoon ard 3pm lyk tat lohz.. haiyo.. nw.. i'm alread weak le after goin in n out of e toilet 4 more than 6 times.. gosh!!! guess i'll b slimmer after clearin those unneccessary thingy.. n yet..i cant eat lunch.. dunoe how am i gonna walk ltr.. oh man!!! i jus dunoe y i so unlucky tis yr.. wat 2 do.. i mus b strong.. tat's wat kor kor sae de.. jus wonderin how is e situation nw in e company.. they mus b veri busi.. alamak.. if i nt feelin well tml.. am i still able 2 go wk?? dad went overseas le.. onli will b back durin e wkend..

courageous is e word.. i'm old enough.. so mus force all e probz myself.. rite?? i noe gohonzon is there wif mi.. i noe all my family n frenz r wif mi.. i noe hubby u r oso wif hu.. i will b strong.. even if i down wif sum illness.. i'll will face it.. tat's life.. no matter wat happens.. i noe even if i'm left wif 3 mths life.. i mus cherish tis period n do wat ever i lyk n fuifilled wat i hav yet 2 fuifill.. guess life is lyk tat.. everythingy is fated.. but wif e determination n courage.. nth is impossible.. life is filled wif mircale.. tat's wat i believe in.. it seems lyk mi kan kai a lot le.. even my so called "enemies".. nw i treat them as frenz..

i jus wanna sae sumthingy 2 all those out there.. i'm sorrie if i hav once offended u guys.. jus afraid got no chance 2 sae it anymore.. nth cums easy.. so cherish wat u hav.. grab it tite when opportunity r given.. wat ever u wanna do, go ahead n do it provided is e rite thingy.. dun hestiate.. tat's wat i believe..


# Everythingy that happenes to us has a meaning.
Even if you're sad and filled with pain and feel
like you can't go on, as long as you keep going
and pressing forward bravely,
living your life without being defeated,
you will come to see the meaning of that suffering and pain.

This is the power of FAITH.
It is also the essence of life.
The word KARMA is Sanskrit for ACTION.
All of our actions - what we think,
what we say,
and wat we actually do - are engraved in our life.
When our actions are good,
we will receive positive effects that will make us happy.
When our actions are bad,
we will receive negative effects that make us unhappy.
It all eventually comes back to us. #

#Daisaku Ikeda#


08062005 - colonoscopy [part 2]

guess at e moment nw.. i'm okie.. nt serious prob.. but i'm jus still worried abt myself.. seeing e colonorectal surgery specialist on e 23rd again.. sianz sia.. mom still nt wkin.. dad nw in thailand.. haiz.. guess we will face probz again.. so i'm hav no choice but 2 pay 4 my own medical fees.. n spend less on unneccessary thingys le.. anw.. dun worry frenz.. i'm fine (>.<)!!!! hehez.. relation wif hubby gettin beta than b4.. guess we alread understands how 2 give in 2 one another on different situation.. though in e past oso got mani sweet moments.. guess we will jus save them as our memories?? yeah..

anw.. realli tired after scoping.. e sedation haven even go in2 my bodi 2 make mi slp then e nurses start alread.. luckily.. i met a v handsum doctor.. standin by my side.. e doc onli help put sedation.. then e nurses will do e endoscopy.. i jus feel e pain.. wah.. tell u sumthingy.. i scare till i grab e doc hand so tite.. lolx.. anw.. still feelin giddi n uncomfortable nw.. gtg le..

[ sentosa trip with hubby!!! ]

Sentosa trip with hubby.....

I'm gonna wk again.. guess i'll b more busi again.. anna trainin 2 b a QC nw le.. left wif onli one packer onli.. hav 2 pack stock, standard cutters , clean cutters n mani mani thingys.. realli tired n busi.. summore elvina dun let anna clean cutters.. oh gosh.. busi lyk siao.. alamak.. haiz.. at least can go back early 2dae.. nt mani wk actuall.. hahaz(>.<)..

guess wat.. meetin hubby 2dae.. we r goin 2 sentosa.. hehez (=.=).. 4 amost a yr 2gether.. we hav nv been 2 sentosa 2gether.. is our 1st time.. hehez(^o^).. so happi(=O=).. hmmm.. guess i wun b able 2 step in2 e water.. onli stay by e seaside of palawan n siloso beach.. nvm.. still got time 2 go again.. hahaz.. hubby got swim.. but i nv.. when we were on e way back.. guess wat.. we stroll down e seaside of e siloso beach.. high tide.. so coolin tat e water reaches ur leg..

hahaz.. intent 2 play a little noti.. kick e water 2wards hubby's leg.. guess wat.. gana punish lohz.. he spilled so much water on mi.. my short, t-shirt n hair half wet le.. luo tang ji.. hahaz.. but is fun.. then summore got e wat balloon festival de.. got quite a no of schools performin there.. got st joseph lahz.. st hilda's, commonwealth sec n mani more..

we oso bought slipper.. hahaz.. mi chose a pink one.. then hubby choose a orange one.. we promise 2 buy another colour e next time we visit sentosa.. hahaz.. was quite enjoyable actuall.. after we reach e visitors' departure centre.. we walk out 2 harbourfront instead of walkin 4 e bus.. so mani pple sia.. mayb bcos wkend ba.. hahaz(>.<).. actuall hubby hurt his ankle de.. but he wanna go i oso dare nt sae reject.. dun wanna spoil his mood.. guess it's a pity tat we didnt wanna stay 4 e sunset.. nvm still got chance.. i try nt 2 tink too much abt my illness nw.. still waitin 4 e colonoscopy on e 8th.. dad goin thailand 4 wk on e 7th..

guess left wif my mom 2 pei mi le.. jus hope dun hospitalised again le.. haiz(#.#).. dun tink much.. i cherish wat i hav nw.. hehez (=.=).. havin diarrohoea oso.. dunoe y.. but guess i satified wif myself 4 nt bein shaken by tat.. otherwise hubby n mi wun b able 2 go sentosa n hav wif us a great moment nw.. kekez(^0^)..

after which.. we took bus 188 2 imm.. shop shop.. need 2 help xiujuan n xiao jun buy cushion.. promised them 4 long le.. hahaz.. guess is time 2 fuifill it.. hehez.. saw bevan at imm.. he went there repair spectacles.. hahaz.. so long nv c him.. still so slim.. alamak.. lolx.. then went 2 interchange take bus 51 hm lohz.. but mi n hubby tok n tok.. board e wrong bus.. board bus 78 instead.. until reach pandan reservior then we realised it.. hubby oso stupid.. hahaz.. he knew we board wrong bus but he tot i wanna take 78 so he nv voice out.. lame.. then in e end.. drop liao cross over e rd then took bus 143 hm.. alamak..

then went walk walk ard e pasamalum at my hse there.. bought 2 precious moments's puzzles.. one is 1000 pieces de.. e other is 500 de.. tat's a misson 4 hubby.. actuall i told him v long i wan puzzles made by him le.. nw.. is e time 4 him e fuifill wat he promises.. hahaz(>.<).. realli tired 2dae.. but guess is enjoyable..

yun gonna b christian tml le..i jus bless her.. wish she's happi wif wat she hav chosen n decided on.. anw.. frenz shld nt b seperated jus bcos they shared different religion.. they shld gather more 2 share different experiences they had in their own "special" religion.. rite?? hahaz.. yun jiayou!!! i lurve all my frenz n family.. n of cos u.. my hubby!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY IT TURN OUT LYK TIS???

why it turns out like this?

*guess i jus been thru so mani thru out tis mth.. those "illnesses" tat r botherin mi.. they r yet 2 b known.. i jus wanna wk harder 2 support myself.. my medical fees.. my mom currently nt wkin ar.. is diff 4 e family.. yet dad.. jus got e " lost of words" feelin when i mention dad.. was asked out by yun.. at 1st i didnt noe wat's goin on..was told or shld sae booked by her onli.. until tat dae itself..which is todae..i knew tat we r goin 4 bowlin n steamboat.. i told him abt it.. he sound disappointed 2 mi.. i realli wk too hard tat i got no time 4 him..

was quite a miserable dae early mornin.. was feelin nt realli happi over wk yester.. guess i feel beta after i met them.. was late 4 bowlin.. cos onli manage 2 clear sum wk stuff onli at 3pm.. guess my nco warriors 03/04 will simply understand mi well.. lolx (>.<).. i didnt bowl actuall.. guess my abdominal pain r realli givin mi headache.. so i choose nt 2 make it worse.. though i realli feel lyk bowlin [ i dun realli noe how 2 ].. jus feel tat i'm filled wif all those big n small probz tat i hav yet 2 solve.. i noe by draggin it will make thingys worse.. but i'm realli exhausted.. he jus dun understand mi at all.. i hav changed.. so do u.. if u realli lurve mi.. plz.. accept e mi nw.. steamboat.. was realli upset when yun ask mi wat had gone wrong btw us.. mths again..we actuall faced e same thingys alread.. we had lost of words when we cum smsin or tokin on fone.. i knew sum how sumthingy will happened btw us..

guess 2005 was a bad yr 4 mi.. haiz.. we walked towards marina south.. instead of takin 400 bus.. thru out.. we had been discussin wat had happened btw mi n him.. at tat point of time.. i held on 2 my tears.. i noe sumthing bad is cumin my way.. haiz.. go there.. eat zheng fa steamboat.. actuall okie lahz.. jus tat i realli nt in e mood 2 eat ar.. but still force myself 2 b strong in front of my frenz..eat n eat.. they ate prawns oso.. live ones summore.. can c them jumpin.. haiz.. i'm stupid.. go ask him whether he still lurve mi nt.. in e end.. he finall voice out le.. all a sudden.. my tears jus flow out.. i tink i mus hav scare all of them.. mayb we r fated 2 end tis way ba.. wat 2 do.. haiz.. we broke up le.. you yuan neng zai xiang yu.. almost 11 mths le.. 3 more daes onli.. chang tong bu ru duan tong.. end le oso gd.. he sound so calm 2 mi.. isnt he sad lyk mi do?? i cried n cried non-stop.. till nw i still cryin.. anw.. u r in my heart 4ever..

* i wan e peace i longed 4 nw *

[ i wan e peace i longed 4 nw ]

* i jus need peace.. tat's all.. i dun wan anythingy else.. jus feel dae after dae of misery.. haiz.. i oso dunoe y.. mayb i'm jus worried.. guess as wat wei dong sae.. dun worry too much.. dun mouth sae nt worry but heart worries.. but is hard.. but was wat my uncle sae abt mi.. wo shi gan si dui.. i'm nt afraid 2 die.. but i'm afraid tat my families n frenz would suffer bcoz of mi ar.. if die wifout illnesses.. at least ur families n frenz didnt suffer wif u.. even if die, oso can die peaceful.. haiz.. mayb i shld do wat i wanna die b4 is too late.. hahaz.. i still can laugh.. dun worry.. i'm nt tat worried actuall..

lyk my studies.. pri 4 streamin i heng heng pass.. sec 2 streamin oso.. sec 4 o'level i tot i oso will heng heng get thru.. but i didnt.. when i was pri 4.. 4 almost 1 mth, i got difficulty walkin.. whenever i stands down, i will hav probz getting up.. tat time doc tot i got bone cancer.. but luckily i didnt.. in jan.. i got appendix op.. my appendix almost took away my life.. i oso heng heng go thru e hell gate n make a u-turn back.. tis 3rd time.. will it b jus lyk my o'level xams?? i believe i cant b so lucky all e time..

its been a wk plus le.. though i under control nw wif medication.. but i realli wanna noe wat realli happenes 2 mi.. bleedin in motion n urination.. tat serious frm wat i noe.. actuall i didnt wanna let my parents noe.. coz it happened on e 7th.. n on e 8th is mothers dae.. but e 2nd ae which is on e 8th, e situation got worse.. it started frm motion.. then urination oso hav.. haiz.. tat time i force myself 2 tell my mom.. she was so worried.. though she kept scoldin mi 4 nt takin care of my bodi.. i noe she is worried.. she jus scold mi 2 hide away all her fear.. u r my mom.. i'm ur daughter.. hu noes u beta then mi?? frm young, mom alwaz tell mi abt her probz.. therefore, it develops a telepathy btw e both of us.. mani a times, when i wanna eat sumthingy, i was hav 2 tink, mom would seems 2 noe wat i wan 4 my meals.. i'm sure 4 so mani times, it isnt coincidence rite??

keep takin antibiote.. pple sae take too much antibiode will drop hair de.. my hairs r droppin too.. haiz.. on e 31st may.. i'm goin 4 ultrasound scan 2 check on my kidneys at sgh.. is 1415hr.. e doc afraid got kidney stones or tuberculosis.. which is TB.. dun keep pesterin abt e report.. it needs time 2 b out.. n on e 8th of june.. i supposed 2 go 4 colonoscopy.. is a specalised examination tat allows e doc 2 look inside my large intestine usin a tube wif a video cam..e colonoscopy can b quite dangerous.. if doc nv do properly.. mite even tear my intestine wall.. summore.. on e 7th.. i support 2 eat fish ball noodles or fish porriage onli.. on e 8th itself.. i'm supposed 2 wakey at 6am.. eat onli 2 slices of plain white breads n tea-o or kipo-o onli.. cannot drink milk..even milo oso cannot.. frm 7am to 9am.. i suppose 2 fill 2 litres of plain water n pour e oral colonic lavage powder given by e doc.. then drop finished within e 2hrs.. after which will start 2 go toilet.. mus clear all e motion.. otherwise scope will onli c motion.. lolx.. e appointment is 1445hr on 8th june.. got sedation.. make mi slp.. otherwise sure pain lyk hell..

after which.. hav 2 wait 4 report cum out.. then will go back c Dr Lee.. e colorectal surgery specialist.. on e 14th june.. hav 2 c endocrinology specialist.. haiz.. so mani specialist thingy n tat.. realli b sick in n out of hospital.. luckily dun need hospitalised yet.. otherwise even worse.. mom will b even more busi.. didi still seein his hand at nuh.. n mi at sgh.. haiz.. jus hope n c ba.. gtg le.. need 2 eat medi again.. n is slpin time !!!!!!!!!! ~


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# Everythingy that happenes to us has a meaning.
Even if you're sad and filled with pain and feel
like you can't go on, as long as you keep going
and pressing forward bravely, living your life
without being defeated, you will come to see the
meaning of that suffering and pain.

This is the power of FAITH.
It is also the essence of life.
The word KARMA is Sanskrit for ACTION.
All of our actions - what we think, what we say,
and wat we actually do - are engraved in our life.
When our actions are good, we will receive positive
effects that will make us happy. When our actions
are bad, we will receive negative effects that make
us unhappy.
It all eventually comes back to us. #

Daisaku Ikeda ( President of Soka Gakkai International SGI )
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* feelin blank nw *

[ feelin blank nw ]

*i jus dunoe wat happened.. i'm down wif all these stupid thingy yet no bodi understands mi.. even my bf..he isnt by my side 2 comfort mi.. y?? haiz.. i jus dunoe oso lahz.. haiz.. he dun understands mi yet he blames mi 4 nt goin out wif him.. i'm sick.. i'm sick yet i hav 2 wk so hard 4 my medical fees.. mom nt wkin nw.. so i hav 2 pay my own fees.. u pple shld noe c specialist veri expensive de.. onli c one dae.. i spent almost 200 over le.. still goin 4 e colonoscopy which mite cause mi almost 400 bucks.. n e ultrasound scan.. is 55.. it isnt cheap over.. i still lookin 4 nitez classes or tuition 4 my o'level.. yet.. i dare nt go 4 enrolement.. i dunoe whether i'm able 2 take exam not.. n dunoe whether i can make it till e end..i'm mentally n physically weak 2 even tink..haiz.. my hand.. feelin numb.. shivers .. my bodi oso.. i feel giddy..

frenz.. i need ur courage.. give mi sum plz..

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# True happiness is not the absence of suffering:
You cannot have day after day of clear skies.
True happiness lies in building a self that stands
dignified and indomitable. Happiness doesn't
having a life free from all difficulties but that
whatever difficulties arise, without being shaken
in the least, you can summon up the unflinching
courage and conviction to fight and overcome them. #

Daisaku Ikeda ( President of Soka Gakkai International )

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* good bye my frenz !!!!! *

[ good bye my frenz !!!!! ]

*guess i'm gettin tired le.. in n out of hospital.. seein so mani specialists.. will i b so lucky as last time?? i almost die bcoz of my appendix.. it almost burst in my stomach.. is been almost a wk..y?? y lyk tat?? is it my karma?? is tat my fate tat i wun live till 21 yrs old?? realli startin 2 resign 2 my own fate.. e dae b4 went in2 A&E..yester seen urology specialist..n colorectal surgery specialist..was arranged 2 do a ultrasound scan on e 31st of may n colonoscopy on e 8th may.. after e report cums out..i'm goin back 2 e colorectal surgery specialist dr lee..on e 14th june, i'm seeing endocrinology specialist.. been takin blood tests.. realli scared by those needle-like thingy tat r pockin on2 my hands..tat scope i'm doin..still mus fast n do lotsa thingys..

nw i'm currently on medication..guess i realli gave mom a bad mothers' dae tis yr..haiz..y my motion n urination will hav blood..y?? i'm afraid tat's internal bleedin..haiz.. wat shld i do??

i prayed!!!!!!

* happi chinese new yr *

[ happi chinese new yr ]

*hmmm..new yr..is another festive season where families gather 2gether..as pernormal..chu yi..which is on e 09th..early mornin..oso nt early lahz..i wakey at ard 10++..lolx..then bath liao changed n went 2 my po po hse..my pateral grandparents stay above my flat onli..so went there 1st b4 my family n i set off 2 anywhere..then..eat mian xian..every yr oso mus eat de..pple eat mian xian wif chicken n hard boiled egg..but due 2 my operation..my granny make sum other soup wif pig stomach 4 mi..lolx..although cannot even eat it wif chilli..i still feel satified tat i can eat mian xian..

then at ard 1++..went 2 uncle roger's hse..at sembawang..we took a taxi there..mi n dad pay half half 4 e taxi fare..l0lx(>.<)..tat stupid dad of mine..drop off at e wrong point then hai us walk quite a distance..haiz..e weather is so hot..aiyo..cant stand it..went uncle roger hse..nv eat anythingy..cos quite full le..plus those food he called all got chilli..i cannot eat..sobx(*_*;)..no choice lohz..at ard 3++..mi,mom n didi went 2 hail a cab n set off 2 my ah ma hse..guess hu i c there..hahaz..my cousin lohz..v long nv c him le..got at least 5 yrs?? mayb ba..kekez(^O^)..he changed quite a lot..dyed his hair..grow tall le..slim down liao oso..n 1 more thingy..he smokes..haiyoz..my mom so angry..then scolded him lohz..haiz..noti boi worz..then nite time..my uncle send mi hm..then went back my po po hse..take hong bao frm uncle n aunts..

chu er..early mornin..gana wakey by my grandparents..ask mi go bai nian..v tired lehz..bad ache sia..kekez..end up go lohz..abt 2++ then cum hm..4++ go out again..went 2 telok blangah kaikan..go pray awhile..then went imm..ate long john silver..onli can eat fish sia..sianz diao..then go hang ten buy pants..rubber type de..lyk sports pants lyk tat..cos got a period of time wun b able 2 wear jeans cos of e wound..haiz..go shop shop..go best dekki c thingys..saw tat creative zen sell 400+++..almost 500 le..diaoz..so ex sia..but liao oso nt sae v gd kinda de..i still lurve my discman..saw sum hp oso..will buy a beta one when i realli cum out 4 wk..nw tempoary use tis lohz..oso nt sae cannot call or sms..saw sum laptop too..will invent 1 when i'm in poly..then make it wireless connection 4 internet..then wun hav 2 fight over e pc wif my i d i o t brother le..lolx..went 2 giant..intend 2 but sushi..end up..all those cucumber ones onli..cos e rest 1 cannot eat..haiz..so sad ar..had a big fight wif my bro oso..so angry..argh~

2dae chu san..stay hm lohz..lolx..cos v tired..haiz..back bone achin..but 2dae oso wakey quite late..11++ then wakey..had my breakfast cum lunch at 12..lolx..then went supermarket buy vege..wah..so mani pple sia..lyk no need money de..kekez(>.<)..hmmm..tml will b a beta dae~

* my sunrise n sunset is in ur hands ------ cherish it *

[ my sunrise n sunset is in ur hands ------ cherish it ]

*haiz..new yr is round e corner le..actuall tot 2dae can go back wk..but my boss ask mi rest more..so slack at hm till after new yr lohz..haiz..cannot even go back n c my kor b4 he goes back malaysia 4 his new yr holidae..so saddddddddddd sia..sobx..doin nth at hm..eat play com slp onli..nth much sia..wah kaoz a..wanna go out..but tat stupid monkey..his mom at hm..i hintin him by askin whether his mom at hm..he oso no reaction de..onli tink of slp..nw i can pei u go out..u slpin at hm..when u wanna ask mi out..then i'll b slpin at hm let u dulan..humphx..

sianz ar..i'm goin 2 bore 2 death le..sianz..sianz..sianz..wanna go mustafa centre..go look at e hp..c whether cheap or nt..my didi..tat stubborn idiot wanna buy..haiz..but tat stupid monkey slpin at hm..no 1 pei mi go..serangoon tat area so dangerous..i dare nt go alone..lolx..dear..study harder..n wk harder 4 my sake..if nt 4 my sake..4 ur own sake too...plz..i realli dun hav e energy 2 alwaz scold n nag at u..frm nw on..i will onli sae thingys once..if u dun listen..then tat's ur probz..lyk wat ah ma sae..u hav 2 wk hard..u cant request mi 2 suffer wif u..

i'm willin..my parents r nt..it isnt fair even 4 ur children..if i'm nt e ger in ur life..u cant expect ur future wife 2 suffer wif u too..u sae u will wk hard..is thru action..nt thru mouth dear..by sayin..no use de..haiz..dun make mi worry too much 4 u..b more matured in ur tinkin..dun alwaz act so childish..haiz..tink 4 urself..wat r ur goals in life..wat u wanna b in future..wat type of life u wan..everythingys in ur hands..even my sunrise..my sunset..plz cherish it..if u dun wish 2 lose it..show sum action..

i dun wan u alwaz engrossed urself in computer games..they r of no contribution 2 u de..haiz..plz listen..4 once plz..i dun wanna quarrel wif u abt those stupid thingy..i'm gettin sick of it..plz..listen 2 my advice..since u waitin 4 ur postin..go wk..dun slack at hm n ask money frm ur parents..they will b unhappi de..

anw..gtg le..tired..wanna rest~*

* BORED . BORED . BORED *

[ BORED . BORED . BORED ]

*is jus bored bored bored..borin!!!!!!! aiyo..v borin at hm sia..doc give mi mc until 11th feb..nw is jus a few daes n i cant stand it le..aiyoz..cannot go out..cannot eat wat i lyk..cannot tis cannot tat..lolx..i cannot eat seafood..oh no..no seoul garden..i cannot eat tonkichi..e steam egg got prawn de..i realli misses e potato salad at tonkichi..wanna eat!!!! i wanna eat chicken rice.. i wan spring chicken wif lotsa fries..i wan fish n chip..i wan kfc..i wan macdonald..i wan mac spicy double..i wan i wan i wan..i wan laksa..mayb i shld list out ltr..lolx..

sobx..but cannot..operation operation operation..y durin sumwhere it is near new yr..cannot wear high heels..no jeans..aiyo..then wear wat??..next time even figure gd..no bikini..cos operation got scar..sobx sobx..so ke lian of mi..sobx sobx..stuck at hm..hm..hm..1st is hospital..hopin 4 hm..nw is hm..hopin 4 food..ltr is wk..then hopin 4 rest..y pple simply cant get grateful abt thingys god had given n arranged?? aiyoz..is jus lyk men can nv understand women n women can nv noe men well..mars v.s. venus..

after e operation..i hav learnt 2 b more gratefull..i cherish wat i had nw..realli thkful 4 frenz relatives n family hu r ard 4 mi when i realli need tat..if nt 4 my mom hu called hm durin wk 2 check on mi..i'll b dead le..tat's how serious it can b..dun tink appendix operation onli a minor operation..is realli depeneds on e condition wif ur illnesses..my appendix is filled wif paste..if it boom!!! tat's e end..jus in time..my appendix n all those intestines r alread swollen when i had my xray..cant realli imagine wat will happened..wat will it b lyk when i realli cannot b cured n hav 2 rise 2 heaven?? aiyoz..choi!! touchwood sia..

i tink i'll b lost..so is my family..my relatives..my frenz..my dear of cos.."da nan bu si bi you hou fu" ..lolx..pple..cherish wat u hav..dun take it 4 granted..dun alwaz tink tat thingy cum as u wish..no..it dun..dun alwaz tink tat thingy happened 2 make u suffer..it came 4 a reason..it came 2 make u grow n learn frm it..it came 2 mature ur tinkin..ur mindset..dun alwaz grumble tat ur life sucks..e more n more complain..e more bad karma u will accumulate..create gd fortune by doin gd deeds..even wat u sae n wat u tink will harm u..dun complain..when probz cum..face it wif ur courage,ur determination..n hav e mindset 2 get it solve..instead of wastin time complaining..use tat precious time 2 pray..2 tink of solution 2 get ur probz solved..lolx..

gtg le..take care guys..muackz~

* OPERATION *

[ OPERATION ]

*haiz..nv even expect tat i'll land in e hospital..i tot mayb next give birth need lahz..lolx..but nt nw..but too bad..dun wan oso landed liao le..summore discharged liao le..haiz..e story starts lyk tat..

on e 15th..which is a saturdae..i started 2 experience pain..in my back..then..at 1st i tot is jus a sign tat i'm overwk n over tired..i decided 2 go c doc..which was on e 17th nitez..doc sae nth much..jus gave mi so painkillers..then e pain spread frm onli e left side of e back 2 thru out e back..haiz..i didnt wanna go 4 xray cos scare go liao nth on then waste money..if got sumthingy on then oso waste money cure...on e 19th nitez..my mom accompany go c doc again..doc oso sae nth on..then onli gave mi sum stronger painkillers..haiz..

e pain grows dae by dae..more n more painful..on e sundae mornin [23rd]..at ard 5 in e mornin..i experienced gastric pain..tis gastric pain wasnt e same kinda pain as b4..v v v v v painful..i was supposed 2 go shoppin wif yun n attend my religion stuff on tat dae..i wasnt able 2..i vomitted..vomitted 4 3 hrs++... i struggled till 8.30am..till e clinic is opened..e doc gave mi a jab..n as usual..sum gastric pills..tis time.. sumthingy is wrong..e jab didnt cure my pain as it did b4..my face is pale..my bodi even dehydrated..i didnt eat..jus 2 to 3 mouth of porriage.. n i'm shivering n havin high fever.. but i kept tis from my parents cos i dun wan them 2 worry..

on mondae..which was e 24th..my fever goes off.. so i tot i'll b okie.. so my mom bought mi kui diao mi fishball soup..i cant eat..jus 2 mouth again..she went 2 wk in e afternoon..dear came 2 c mi in e afternoon.. i started 2 shiver n hav high fever again.. i wanna rest so i chase him hm at 4.30.. he keep starin at mi i cannot slp..then at ard 5.30..i wakey n watch tv..a sudden pain attacked mi..v v v v v v v v v pain till i cannot describe..

my mom called at 6pm..jus in time 2 rescue mi..i cried..cryin in pain..then my aunt came n fetch mi 2 her hse..then send mi 2 hospital..then rush mi 2 A&E lohz..go in..1st thingy...take i tink 5 or 6 tubes of blood..i oso cannot rmb..cos alread v pain le..then..nurse ask mi go take urine test..but cant urinate..mayb too pain liao le..then go xray..after which..go observation ward slp..then put drip oso..haiz..

2hrs++ later..finally..hospitalised liao le..when reach ward..doc doc sae xray cum out can c tat my appendix tat area all swollen..95% shld b appendix probz..mus go operation..at tat time was alread slightly past midnite liao le..haiz..12++ lyk tat went in2 operation theatre..OPERATION..wah..tell u sumthingy...e doc v shuai..lolx..kekez..c him alread hao yi ban le..lolx..

thkz 2 gohonzon..i'm back hm after sum sufferin at e hospital..but e nurses n doc i met all v gd..thkz..i'm blessed.. even my dear oso visit mi everydae..my parents n grandparents oso..gtg le..wanna rest~*

* i wan my past back *

[ i want my PAST back.... ]

*haiz..i dunoe wat can sae beside sayin i'm sad..mi n lazyboi nwadaes got so much probz sia..alwaz quarrellin n arguin 4 no valid reasons de..haiz..frm small thingy lyk nt callin him or smsin him 2 big thingys lyk cheatin n hidin secrets..haiz..our times simply dun meet de..wheneva i wanna ask him out..he will b busi slpin or wif his frenz playin bball..wheneva he wanna ask mi out..

i'll b busi restin or goin out wif my soka frenz or sch frenz..wheneva i tried tellin him those probz i faced in e company i'm wkin..he will b givin mi those kinda of bhl attitude..he jus cant b bother my condition at wk..n wheneva he starts tokin abt his thingys..he will b sayin abt his "mei"..wat sae is tat man?? although i oso got tok abt my kor..is jus bcos i'm angry abt him..so i wanna make him jealous..haiz..

wat r we doin 2 1 another?? wat can we do 2 brin us back 2 those sweet moments we used 2 had?? haiz..we used b so en ai..yester went 2 hospital 2 visit a pri sch fren hu is hospitalised..she's contractin cancer..haiz..although e alread remove e affected area le..is still a long period 4 her 2 struggle..c her bf everydae go hospital pei her..c them so en ai..let mi tot of mi n lazyboi..we used 2 b lyk tat oso..haiz..make mi so envy 2 c them lyk tat..

we used 2 b lyk tat..pple alwaz envy us de..nw..y mus i envy other pple??i cannot 4get..i cannot 4get e incident where u lied 2 mi..i cant..i realli cannot..wheneva i'm alone..tis incident will appear in my mind..is jus lyk a movie repeatin its episode of stories..haiz..tell mi..tell mi wat shld i do 2 allow myself 2 4get tis?? how?? plz heal my wound..is hurtin mi..i'm afraid i will suffocate cos of tis..haiz..

i wan those sweet moments..i wan those happi times..plz give mi back wat i deserve 2..plz!!!!!!~

* tonkichi . neoprint . gungfu hustle *

[ * tonkichi . neoprint . gungfu hustle * ]

*muahahaz..2dae is e dae i relax myself after wkin so hard 4 sooooooooooooooooooooooo long..lolx..frenz got difficulties dating mi oso..lolx..kekez..2dae mi, yun n anna went 2 isetan tonkichi 2 eat..lolx..eat until so shiok sia..potato salad, chawhamushi..lolx..n a lot more lahz..lolx..eat until 90++ sia..lolx..summore mi n yun half half treat anna eat..cos she alwaz treat us ma..lolx..

then went 2 far east take neo print n look at clothes lohz..cos new yr cumin le ma..lolx..haiz..no time 4 my dear oso..sobx sobx..so sorrie..haiz..oh ya..after takin neoprint..rush back 2 isetan lido watch gungfu hustle..actuall feel lyk watchin wif my dear de..but yester ask him out he sae his mum dun let..so 2dae i abandon him go watch wif my fren lohz..

wah..veri tired ar..feel lyk slpin le..*yawn*..hmmm..gtg le..take care worz!!~

* lazying ard at hm *

[ lazying around at home!.... ]

*finally got a chance 2 rest 4 2 daes..hahaz..at last..my sundae is free..hmmm..but oso v tired lehz..kaoz..having bad ache sia..sorrie ar dear..mus hav made u angry on e 31st of dec..last dae of e yr i still make u dulan..sorrie worz..nt i dun wanna go countdown..but i dun feel lyk..feel v tired n havin flu ma..dun wish 2 trouble u send mi hm oso..dun hav mi ard u can dun need troubled tat i cannot take it ma..lolx..2dae..a special dae..mi n dear 2gether 4 half a yr le..so fast sia..6 mths over liao le..hahaz..lurve u dear..n onli u..

dun make mi angry le..i dun lyk pple lie 2 mi de..so..dun hurt mi by lyin 2 mi again le..otherwise i can confirm tat i wun 4give u anymore..nw at wk place..got a super gd kor n a jie..closer 2 kor than jie..i oso dunoe y..mayb kor more frenly ba..lolx..hahaz(^_^")..feel tat wkin isnt an easy task worz..v tiring de..n mus face those stupid pple hu backstab pple..jie i jus hope u stop hanging ard wif her..she's such a bitch 2 mi..oops..so long nv use tis word le..i oso nv de zui her..siao cha bo..haiz..dun tok abt it le..make mi dulan n will lose appetize sia..haiz..

kor u v gd..xiao mei will rmb u de..even when i resign 2 go study..i will rmb u de..go back malaysia mus tell mi worz..xiao mei will go ur hmtown visit u de..hahaz..beta find mi a sao sao b4 i kopi go find 1 4 u..hahaz..i wun de..i believe tat true lurve mus patiently wait de..hahaz..anw..is a new yr..a new beginnin..wish every1 in tis world can live harmoniously 2gether wif no war n disaster..4 those hu perish in e tsunami disaster..may all e unfortunate rest in peace..take care guys(^.^)*