[ the mugging session starts TODAY! ]

the mugging session starts TODAY!


[ the girls! ]


[ farhan, ramlan, me, sya, daffy, nad, small & sufiyan! ]


[ the PERFECT pic! ]

woke up at 9am today.. feeling really TIRED and WEAK-WILLED to get out of bed.. BUT, i FORCED myself to.. cause i know i have to study and mug on my revision for exams.. left home at about 10am.. headed to Nad's place at boon lay.. and when i reached cck, i start to realise that the sky is getting darker and darker.. then who knows when i reach Chinese Garden, it started to rain cats and dogs..

then poor Nad.. have to come fetch me from boon lay despite raining so BIG.. so when we met up, we went to Banquet to buy lunch.. i ate indo food and nad had chicken rice.. then we also headed to NTUC to buy some tibits and drinks for them! poor 2 girls.. have to carry SO MANY things and walking under the rain..

reached Nad's place.. was already soaking from the bottom.. totally drained.. ate lunch first and started studying while waiting for others to call.. all of them coincidentally came at the same timing.. and it saved lots of our efforts of making many trips.. studied with Nad, Daffy, Siti small, Ramlan, Farhan, Sya and Sufiyan..

was kind of NOISY at times.. cause BIG group there's a HIGH tendency of side-tracking.. most of them was chionging for their PCA.. and i was sitting at the table myself doing my Bio with mp3 on.. studied until 9plus.. and we took lots of pics before we head home.. Mom called and HORN at me.. well, she's just being UNREASONABLE and acts like a KID at times..

Supposed to meet Medy today to pass him the posters.. but because i studied till too late so i didnt sms him.. he called me at 9plus and i was taking pictures with my clinque.. so i told him i'll call him back in 2minutes time.. BUT.. it took me 20minutes to return his call.. FEEL so BAD when he told me he waited for my sms till he fall asleep.. saying that he was waiting for my sms from 2plus until 6 like that then he fall asleep.. i only sms him when it was like almost 7 or 7plus.. HAIS! so SORRY MEDY! my apology!!....

very TIRED! going to sleep!!...

[ you are such an IRRITATING SPECIMEN!!! ]

you are such an IRRITATING SPECIMEN!!!

today.. was the "self declared" last day in school.. the official day is on monday.. BUT.. from today.. there's at least 10people who are absent from class.. had a revision session with Mrs Tang today during Bioscience.. took picture with Mrs Tang today too! =]


JR0704C with Mrs Tang....

and some EDUCATED BARBARIANs actually TRIGGERS my CLINQUE..

STOP being so HYPOCRITE.. and i'm SORRY to DECLARE that you dont belongs to our CLINQUE.. it's OKIE to be sooooooooo UNGRATEFUL after getting so much help from us! heard of "CAUSE and EFFECT"? it will bear the effect of what you caused.. STOP DREAMING that you will get any help from US anymore.. if others want to help you, it's okie.. BUT, i can say is DONT EXPECT any help from ME! YOU're the WORSE person i ever see.... GO AWAY and stay out of my SIGHT!... i just hate people do not appreciate things...

share something HAPPY.. ate at Popeye T1 today with Nad, Daffy, Han, Lan, Shif, Small, Sya, Izzah and Rahmah... had a great session today!!

Will miss them BADLY!...

took pic with Ms Yeo and Mdm Heng too!

tomorrow.. going study with Nad, Daphne, Farhan and Rahmah.....

[ 相逢恨晚.... ]

相逢恨晚.....

The NTU Blood Drive have came to AN END.. BUT... Through this event, I have learnt a lot and grown a lot.. Not forgetting that i have made lots of GREAT FRIENDS... Medy, Woanlan, Simin, Ferry, Ben Ben, Hooi Ying, JJ, Sin ling... Really thankful for what you guys have given me..

Many things have been troubling me recently.. beside the school work, projects, tests and cca.. it is "this problem".. I'm thankful that i have met YOU.. cause when i am with YOU, i realised that my life is always filled with laughters and happiness.. and that i can feel myself SMILING deep from my heart..

BUT i know i have to stay away from YOU before the feelings gets deeper.. this period, our friendship really strengthen a lot and got more and more closer.. Maybe it's just the emptiness in me that i longed for someone's love ba.. it really breaks my heart when YOU always try match-making me with someone else.. God, please dont let this feeling be revealed.. Being your friend is good enough....


“爱情是自私的。而自私让人变得丑陋，也让人变得心狠手辣。而我却因为不想介入你和她之间选择退出。或许你们会觉得我想让人觉得我伟大，所以才选择退出。我何尝不想坦然地去爱，去努力争取属于自己的爱情。错就错在我们相遇的太迟，有缘无份吧。退出是唯一的办法，就因为我不想伤害她，也就只有这样才能以朋友的身份把你留在我身边。”

someone teach me what to do.....

[ my special thanks! ]

my special thanks!


TO ALL NTU VB COMMITTEE...

I do not know what to say.. just have a sudden loss of words upon reading the email Woanlan have sent out to all.. I must really thank all of us for making me feel WELCOME despite that this event itself beings to NTU.. and making me feel so PROUD that we contributed to the success of this event..

Woanlan - Thank you for getting me involved in this event. Without you, i wont know great people from NTU.. And thanks for giving up your comfortable bed to sleep when i need a place to shelter for.. even though it's just ONE night, i know how terrible it is sleeping on the hard floor when it rains.. And thanks for making sure that i am doing okie and that i am not neglected.. i'll never forget YOU, sister! =]

Medy - Thanks for your kindness for showing me around during my one night stay in NTU and letting me so welcome.. Your words on sunday CONTRIBUTED to my tears that day! i'm really TOUCHED by your words.. it really makes me feel that my hardwork and sacrifices all this while is paid off! and thanks for all the jokes you said! it really makes me SMILE from my heart!

Ferry (Mr RUBBISH) - Thanks for all the updates sent to me when i'm not able to involved in the planning.. Without your emails, i guess i know NONE about the drive.. though I really developed a FEAR seeing your email!! hahaz! =) BUT thanks for all the laughters and jokes you created! it really BRIGHTENS my days...

Simin - my IMPRESSION of you only started from Awareness Day.. cause the emails were always from Ferry.. BUT, i will never YOU! i cant believe i'm older than you! thanks for taking care of my volunteers especially during the Awareness Day at DB.. really thankful ALOT! =] i wont forget how i tease you and *****! hahaz! and thanks for the hug when i cried!

Ben Ben - though we only know each other during the 2nd training, hmmm.. and thanks for saying i looked FIERCE! BUT, i guess our FRIENDSHIP really strengthen in such a short time.. I myself also cant believe it.. Thanks for all the laughter and jokes! it really BRIGHTENS my days! especially how we missed the stops when we went home and the joke about forgetting the poster! and how you tease me over the special someone! i will remember you! i know you will! cause i'm your FOC consultant! and guess you will remember me! after getting scolding from me especially when you are sick.. Really thankful for your concern when i was unwell.. and making sure my safety when i return home late! you're my BEST bud! =]

Calvin - Thanks for taking care of my volunteers especially during the Awareness Day at DB! thanks for guiding them along when i was not around and making sure they ate! thank you so much!!! =]

JJ - thanks for all the laughters you created! especially over the chickenpox vaccination and the barney car! hahaz! and thanks for being so encouraging during the drive asking us to JIAYOU! =]

Hooi ying - thanks for picking up from Woanlan's place! and the flying kisses! you contributed to my laughter! and thanks for the hug when i cried!! =]

Sin Ling - Thanks for keeping me occupied at the registration booth! i wont forget the jokes we had!! =]

It's through this drive that i have experienced a lot and learnt really a lot.. Although i'm sad to know that my results have dropped due to the committment in this event, BUT.. i seriously did not regret involving.. cause what i GAINED was far MORE than what i contributed.. the Friendship.. the experience.. the laughters.. the happy moments.. i will NEVER forget this! for those people i really dont know well.. I must still say a BIG 'THANK YOU' to all of you! cause you guys did a part in adding on colours to my life..

Feel kind of LOST this few days.. maybe because TOO FREE? hahaz! a sudden loss of direction because this drive have come to an end.. BUT, this friendship with NTU will NEVER end.....

[ waiting for someone to fulfill my heart..... ]

waiting for someone to fulfill my heart.....

today.. have went to the doctor and rested at home.. was really very busy for the past 1 week.. everyday after school will be meeting with either Ms Chow or Mdm Qian.. earliest i can go home is like 8pm.. then when i come home, will be dumping my homework aside and do my red cross things first.. Mom has been really unhappy with me.. BUT, i got NO CHOICE! just can pray that she can understand me that i am doing this because of my future.. and i know she knows me well.. she knows i love to help people, love to make a difference in others' lives.. that's why i have chosen red cross as my cca..

FRIDAY - was excuse from class at 4pm.. went home to shower and get my things packed up.. cause there will be a pre-drive meeting and after which, i'll stay overnight at Woanlan's hostel.. met Ben Ben at 7.30pm at Boon Lay.. and then we took 179 from Boon Lay Interchange to NTU.. my FIRST time visiting NTU.. to me, it's a total UNFAMILIAR place.. and that Ben Ben.. SUPER IRRITATING.. know that i very TIMID still tease and scare me despite that he's really SICK.. the meeting took us about 2hours.. although it's a really important and meant to be serious meeting, we didnt forget about cracking jokes and releasing our LAUGHING gas! hahaz!

Ben Ben had offered a bed for me in his room.. BUT, he didnt bring his lappy.. and i got to arrange the shift for my ITE volunteers.. so, i didnt go over to his place.. and that guy.. Ms Chan offered him a ride, so he dumped me in Woanlan's hands.. Medy suggested to go for supper cause i havent take my dinner too.. so, Medy, Woanlan, Ferry and JJ brought me for dinner.. asking 2others along too.. we had supper at a coffeeshop.. the few of them.. sometimes, they really makes my BLOOD BOILS when they mentioned about the special "someone"!! but i know they were just joking! =] OMG!~ after supper, they brought me for EXERCISE! to Nanyang House.. it was indeed a FUN night.. just so SAD that Ben Ben cant join us! sobx!(T.T)

back into Woanlan's room, i had a shower and started to do up the list for the manpower allocation tomorrow.. only managed to finish everything at 3am.. and i woke up at 6am to prepare myself for the blood drive.. Really very TIRED..


SATURAY - was a REALLY long day.. early morning.. my BLOOD boils non-stop.. trying to settle the volunteers.. briefing them what to do.. the liase with NTU side.. and yet.. despite my information of reporting time was clear.. i still have more than half the strength was LATE!.. didnt had the time to have lunch.. after settling my volunteers' food and stuff.. i went to help out with the registration side.. so was PRETTY busy.. really had GASTRIC PAIN till i cannot take it.. and no choice.. got to forsake the blood donation and take the antacid..

last donor of the day was at around 7.20pm.. managed to clear up the place at around 8pm.. and had a debrief session.. 1st day results was GOOD.. had 280plus donors.. with 170plus 1st time donors.. it was really a PAID OFF for us to have such results on the 1st day.. dinner was at vivo city.. really very TIRED.. home with Ben Ben.. but halfway through, his gf boarded the bus.. so.. didnt really talk much with him on the way home.. BUT.. he was really KIND.. so TIRED liao reach home still sms and ask me to rest well..

SUNDAY - the last day of the Blood Drive event.. was really ANGRY in the morning.. cause many volunteers didnt turn up and didnt bother to even call me.. i was really thinking.. how can you be a nurse when you are so IRRESPONSIBLE? well.. think back.. i felt that i have no rights to judge them.. as different people have different perception and have different thinking regarding things they do.. i might think it's important, but others didnt have to agree with you.. started off with a bad day.. everyone in the main com knows that we are expecting a late NIGHT today.. with the packing up and debriefing and stuff..

and somehow.. my will power of going to class tomorrow is really LOW.. i arent feeling that well.. after the gastric pain strike me yesterday.. i feel much weaker and feel really lethargic.. thanks to Isabella.. i look really NICE today.. although Ben Ben say i look like a CHINA GIRL and kept asking me to behave like my age.. lolx.. I just DONT CARE! i just LOVE the HAIRSTYLE!... had lunch with my volunteers today.. well.. though i have a bad start in the morning.. people around me will always find a way to make me laugh.. especially Ben Ben.. and people like Woanlan, Medy, Ferry, JJ and Simin.. their funny actions will really BRIGHTEN my days..

the counter was open for registration at around 11plus.. the first 3hours was really BAD.. only had 80donors.. and everyone started to PANIC that we cant HIT our target.. BUT.. i just tell Ben Ben and Medy that i STRONGLY believe that we can HIT our target this time round.. cause i did pray for the success of this event.. was really TIRED at about 4plus.. and Ben Ben triggers me at the wrong timing.. and because of what he said.. the past few hours was HELL to him.. cause i practically IGNORED him when he tried to make me talked to him and stuff.. that's the consquence he has to bear for making me ANGRY.. after packing up, saw Ben Ben feeling really not well, so i went to talk to him..

we managed to hit our TARGET!! yeah yeah! and it really NICE to see the heart of life filled up! briefing started at 8plus.. and it drags and drags and drags...... everyone started shooting one another.... pointing their fingers at each other and finding faults.. it's really SADDENING that the event ended this way.. Ben Ben and me just couldnt take it.. and when Medy speaks.. i cried.. really broke down... when he mentioned about what i did for this event.. i dont feel that i have done much.. seriously.. but i know i sacrified a lot of my personal time.. even during weekends.. i'm doing red cross thing..

skipping school.. falling ill.. staying over at NTU.. bla bla bla... feel so TOUCHED over what he said.. and felt that my hardwork all this while have been paid off.. just because i know people do appreciated my efforts.. and thanks to Ben Ben.. thanks for giving me a pat.. and being there for me as a friend.. listening to my grumbles and shared my happiness.. and thanks medy for that hug when you saw me crying!!

me and Ben Ben went home together.. cause the rest are heading back to hostel to eat.. so left with me and Ben Ben only.. we took taxi to Yishun and ate at S11.. it's more like a supper than dinner.. then he walked me home from yishun central.. thank god that he sent me home.. cause we actually meet with a siao siao person under my block.. managed to get home at 12am.... tired..

going to sleep already.......

[ it's been MONTHS........ ]

it's been MONTHS........

it's been quite some time since i last blog.. almost one month liao and my blog is turning RUSTY!... i'm SORRY people for not being able to blog.. beside having some spare time to check my email.. i really got NO TIME at all to update my blog.. from the first day of school which is 14th april till now.. i have been busy with school works, tests, project and my RED CROSS events.. i think it really CONSUMES lots of my time away.. BUT, in the midst of being so BUSY, i have made many GREAT people.. especially the weekend i had... it was GREAT to have spend 3full days with the NTU main com at the Awareness Day for Vibrant blood..

I do admit that my volunteers have given me problems.. i have met with moments i almost CRIED.. BUT, i have also encountered moments that i just cant STOP LAUGHING! i really ENVY the NTU main com a lot.. for having such a strong bonding with one another.. they can even know clearly who will eat what at KFC etc.. my GOODNESS! i longed for such bonding.. think beside assisting them with manpower for the event, i guess what i am thankful was they had BRIGHTEN my days! there's NOT even one moment they will let me feel left out.. even when they are going for dinner, they will think of me.. forsaking having dinner at JP but have it at vivo so that i dont have to travel up and down..

really thankful for that.. and remember how me and Ben Ben had those funny encounters of getting down at the wrong stops while taking bus and mrt.. and forgetting about the posters.. and how he suan me for doing my homework there.. and Woanlan, Medy, Simin, Ferry and Ben Ben for teasing me about the "special" someone.. i guess it's more like a "shocking" someone.. i have never expect things will turn out this way.. who wont be SHOCKED when someone date u out in front of so many people? and it's someone a person younger than you.. my goodness..

and how Victor tease and irritate me.. and how i struggled with my gastric pain on sunday.. i really feel so HAPPY that everyone that sees me were really CONCERN about me.. especially Ben Ben.. thank you for asking me whether i'm okie everytime i walked past u... this Vibrant Blood experience will be unforgettable.. i will never forget.. i'm so WORRIED about sat and sun.. after the actual day.. this 08 vibrant blood will come to an end.. but dont forget to ask me out for gatherings!.....

despite being TIRED this few days, but, i think i have strengthen my bond with many people.. from strangers to really close NOW.. this gift from the gohonzon will be treasured..........