[ it's been tough on you... and tough on me.. ]
it's been tough on you for the past few weeks.. from fever/flu to stomach flu to over exertation to virus infection.. i know it's tough on you.. really tough on you.. 5days of school.. yuan wasnt in school from monday to thursday.. he was down from fever.. got virus infection.. he simply physically and mentally weak now.. i guess he really feel pressurized.. i just dont understand why that guys usually wont feel comfortable talking to their loved ones their problems.. is it because they are afraid to lose face?? isnt it better to talk someone who understand you the best your problems?? why is it so important whether you will lose face or not??
recently.. he seems to very cold to me.. very cold at times.. that yuan i know dont seems to be one i know at first.. his sms is short and dont really want to talk to me at times.. is it because you think you're a burden to me?? or everything i can think of is only my wild guessing?? wo ye heng tong ku!! do you know that??
i was down from fever yesterday.. i'm supposed to go school for the meet-e-parents session.. end up.. i didnt go.. my fever rise from 38.3deg C to almost 40deg C.. i almost feel tat i'm dying le.. mayb i jus over exert myself too much recently ba.. plus inadquate amount of rest.. well.. i'm jus tired..
- will there be a day i will lose my smile ?? -
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
[ i lost e "bet" !!! ]
[ i lost e "bet" !!! ]
ahhhh.... a week have just passed... test after test.. i'm getting a bit tired.. *exhausted* well.. bear with it!!!!! i tolerant!!!!! *TOLERANCE*... let's have a progress report on e past 1 week.. it's really happening....
MONDAY - hmmm.. early morning.. we had our very 1st bioscience test in e MLT... can u imagine that i dreamt of the questions?? lolx.. i just dreamt a little.. dreamt that i must study on my functions of skeletal system.. i dreamt about the examples of long bones..and e questions really came out.. oh man!!! i got a shocked of my entire life.. well.. this paper is considered quite an easy paper.. if i never do well, oh man!!! i'll go knock the wall... Junyuan ended school at 3pm.. so he went home before me.. i had my lessons till 5pm.. well.. he wants to come meet me for dinner.. but he had a terrible headache.. so he stayed at home instead... and then.... i had a terrible incident.. as usual.. bus31 is forever packed.. so i'll always spend some time to walk to another bus stop nearby to take bus10..
well.. monday blues huh.. monday is the start of the day.. yet a terrible day for me.. because.. all my buddies have interact club lohz.. Nad, Farhan, Shiffa and Ramlan... somemore that Mr.Tan end school so early.. end up... I will have to go back alone lohz.. no choice!!!! *sobx* oh man!!! i was happily sitting alone in the upper deck of the bus.. and happily giving way to those who wants to get down first.. and sadly.. "hao ren mei hao bao" ((good people never have good outcome))..... i templed down two steps.. oh man!! so embarrassing.. luckily never fall down.. just aching and my leg into an elephant leg in spilt seconds!!! luckily Junyuan not around.. if not, it will be more EMBARRASSING sia.. it's very embarrassing to fall in front of a guy or in front of someone you like.. GIRLS out there!!! AGREED?!?
i just dare not rub.. i scare it will get worse.. so all i did was to limp all the way home.. and told him what happened.. thanks for volunteering to rub for me.. but i think i'll cry sia.. wahahaz...
TUESDAY - well.. my leg was pretty swollen and red.. but.. i limped all the way to school.. it took me 15mins to walk to the bus-stop instead of the usual 5mins.. big different huh.. no choice.. and i know clearly tat Junyuan will feel like killing me.. cause I have already promised him that if my leg still swell, i'll go see a doctor and stay home to rest.. yup.. i know clearly that i will get a scolding.. so the clever me actually think through how to fight back.. hahaz.. my reason will be "i hurted my leg, but my brain"... kekez.. how stupid it can be.. no choice lahz.. i dont want to miss any of the lessons if possible.. cause it will never be easy to get replacement lessons.. Mdm Qian was shocked to see me limping all the way to her office early morning when she called upon requesting to see me.. the first thing she said was to ask me go home rest.. but insisted on staying in school..
i have wasted so much energy to limp all the way to school.. it will not be worthwhile if i'm going to limp all the way home again right?? luckily he will be only school at 9am.. and i'll only see him only during lunch hours at 12pm.. lolx.. it will delay the time i gonna get scolding from him.. i msg him and told him i limped all e way in school.. clever move.. let him voice out his anger through sms before getting scolding face to face.. lolx.. i know clearly you wont bear to scold me de.. hahaz(0^.^o).. yupz.. he actually asked me how much it cost to take cab from school to my place.. i know clearly in my heart that he's planning to give me money to take cab home cause he cant send me home because his lessons ends at 6pm..
true enough... when he saw me during lunch hours, the first thing he did was to stuff money into my hand.. i didnt take.. the money was passed here and there and i struggled more than 10mins just to make him keep his money.. i said before.. i'm not a materialised girl... i dont need you to spend money on me de.. thanks for being so SWEET.. yupz.. so he became my walking stick during lunch.. so that Nad can rest.. tired you guys le.. *muackz* he got back his bioscience results also.. he got a A.. *fainted* ... die.. we got a bet between us.. if he do better than i did, he will have to punish.. same for me.. vice versa.. and the person who do badly will have to accept any punishment given by the person who do well.. just pray hard i can do well...
Jenny came to my house today.. cause Dad bought some health products from her.. had a talk with her.. and actually explain to her to stages of pressure ulcer when she show me some pictures of her cilents.. well.. Jenny is my collengue cum soulmate in my office... she knows lots of my stories.. after Dad came back.. i went back into my room... was on the phone with Junyuan.. we actually talked till 11plus like that.. he was simply too happy that he got an A for his bioscience.. and happily waiting to punish me.. *sobx* bad boy right?? somemore can tell me "nan ren bu huai nu ren bu ai" ((men dont be bad women dont love))... what logic sia!?! (=.=!?)
WEDNESDAY - well.. we had nafa today.. early morning.. i just saw someone i wouldnt want to see.. spoilt my mood..... they had a 2.4km run.. and something shocking happened... he had muscle cramp on both side of his legs.. and immediately.. he sat down causing his metabolism to drop.. the PE teacher actually instruct me to go buy 100Plus for him.. but then... when i returned.. he was already unconscious.. he cant bear the pain and he fainted.. *SHOCKED* i really got a shocked of my entire life.. goaty rang Mdm Quek.. and she came down with Mdm Qian.. while Mdm Quek try to call his mother, the ambulance and get to BP set...
Mdm Qian held his acupunture point under his nose.. wheread i'm holding on to the acupunture point at his hand.. i'm so scared.. he simply does not have any hand grip and his hands are freezing cold.. his eye balls involuntaryly rolling up.. can u imagine how scary it can be?? i held my back my tears.. i'm afraid that if he wakes up and see me cry, he will be worried.. Farhan and Nad were the ones supporting me.. asking me to be strong.. everything will be fine.. Do you still remember the horrifying question last saturday?? I'm so scared.. so scared that the question you ask will come true.. luckily... before the ambulance even arrive, Junyuan was awake already...
after he left.. my tears just involuntarily flowed out.. i cried.. telling Nad that if any thing really happened to him, i guess i will not have the courage to stay on his nursing anymore.. luckily.. he still know that i will worried and ring me immediately when he reaches the hospital.. thank you gohonzon.. while holding his hand, i prayed.. i chanted in my heart.. luckily nothing happened to you.. if not, what will happened to me ar? in the evening.. he slipped out of the house.. he insist on accompanying me to the doctor.. he knows clearly that if he dont go with me, i'll never go to the doctor.. thanks a lot.. when i see him, i just feel like hugging and telling him, "you really scare me..." but.. i cant.. cause i'm in the uniform.. representing the nurses.. so must be jian dian a bit... hahaz... yupz.. was quite painful going down the stairs.. see him so exhausted liao still must pei this gong zhu go see doctor.. i really feel so ashamed of myself.. heart aches as well.. no matter what.. please promise me to be there.. never leave me alone ar!!!!
THURDAY - oh well.. he didnt come school today.. his mom insist that he should rest at home for another day.. oh well.. it's thursday again.. for the past 3 weeks.. he has been missing his lessons on thursday.. thursday is e longest day of the whole week.. and so coincidentally.. he misses lessons every thursday.. i also dont know how i managed to survive without him in school.. especially when it's a long day... well.. we only got a period of bioscience in the morning followed by PIE.. after which.. at 3pm.. we have the "meet-the-principal" session.. so we have to miss our bioscience lesson..
after which.. from 5pm to 6pm.. it's ITE Cares.. oh well... it's a session that many will think that it's a waste of time... hahaz.. what ever it is.. it's part of our school time.. no choice.. we have no other alternatives to choose from.. heez.. well.. we almost had a quarrel.. he feels that everyone around him is worried for him.. giving him lots of pressure..asking him not to do this.. not to do that.. i know you dont meant to be so fustrated.. it's okie to pour out your frustration to me.. i guess you will feel better this way.. well.. i guess sometimes crying is a good way of releasing stress.. at least that's what i will do.. when i'm angry n really angry, i'll cry.. when i'm upset, i cry too.. and... i'll force myself to finish a tub of ice-cream.. ya.. i know it's fattening.. but it's a good way.. sometimes.. if i'm at home.. i do housework like mopping the floor.. those things that needs to exert lots of energy.. it's a way to release anger too..
FRIDAY - yupz.. today.. was a crucial day for me and many of those in our class.. we got back our bioscience results.. i got 38.5/50.. yupz.. it's a B.. i wanna aim for an A actually.. jus few more marks needed to achieve an A.. well.. it's my careless mistake.. shiffa, nad and farhan did quite well too.. but ramlan didnt make it.. well.. junyuan got even better results than me.. he got an A actually.. so.. i actually lost the "bet".. now.. he should be thinking of how to punish me i guess.. that's the bet between us actually... well well well... ren ming for this time.. kekez... *hugz*
ahhhh.... a week have just passed... test after test.. i'm getting a bit tired.. *exhausted* well.. bear with it!!!!! i tolerant!!!!! *TOLERANCE*... let's have a progress report on e past 1 week.. it's really happening....
MONDAY - hmmm.. early morning.. we had our very 1st bioscience test in e MLT... can u imagine that i dreamt of the questions?? lolx.. i just dreamt a little.. dreamt that i must study on my functions of skeletal system.. i dreamt about the examples of long bones..and e questions really came out.. oh man!!! i got a shocked of my entire life.. well.. this paper is considered quite an easy paper.. if i never do well, oh man!!! i'll go knock the wall... Junyuan ended school at 3pm.. so he went home before me.. i had my lessons till 5pm.. well.. he wants to come meet me for dinner.. but he had a terrible headache.. so he stayed at home instead... and then.... i had a terrible incident.. as usual.. bus31 is forever packed.. so i'll always spend some time to walk to another bus stop nearby to take bus10..
well.. monday blues huh.. monday is the start of the day.. yet a terrible day for me.. because.. all my buddies have interact club lohz.. Nad, Farhan, Shiffa and Ramlan... somemore that Mr.Tan end school so early.. end up... I will have to go back alone lohz.. no choice!!!! *sobx* oh man!!! i was happily sitting alone in the upper deck of the bus.. and happily giving way to those who wants to get down first.. and sadly.. "hao ren mei hao bao" ((good people never have good outcome))..... i templed down two steps.. oh man!! so embarrassing.. luckily never fall down.. just aching and my leg into an elephant leg in spilt seconds!!! luckily Junyuan not around.. if not, it will be more EMBARRASSING sia.. it's very embarrassing to fall in front of a guy or in front of someone you like.. GIRLS out there!!! AGREED?!?
i just dare not rub.. i scare it will get worse.. so all i did was to limp all the way home.. and told him what happened.. thanks for volunteering to rub for me.. but i think i'll cry sia.. wahahaz...
TUESDAY - well.. my leg was pretty swollen and red.. but.. i limped all the way to school.. it took me 15mins to walk to the bus-stop instead of the usual 5mins.. big different huh.. no choice.. and i know clearly tat Junyuan will feel like killing me.. cause I have already promised him that if my leg still swell, i'll go see a doctor and stay home to rest.. yup.. i know clearly that i will get a scolding.. so the clever me actually think through how to fight back.. hahaz.. my reason will be "i hurted my leg, but my brain"... kekez.. how stupid it can be.. no choice lahz.. i dont want to miss any of the lessons if possible.. cause it will never be easy to get replacement lessons.. Mdm Qian was shocked to see me limping all the way to her office early morning when she called upon requesting to see me.. the first thing she said was to ask me go home rest.. but insisted on staying in school..
i have wasted so much energy to limp all the way to school.. it will not be worthwhile if i'm going to limp all the way home again right?? luckily he will be only school at 9am.. and i'll only see him only during lunch hours at 12pm.. lolx.. it will delay the time i gonna get scolding from him.. i msg him and told him i limped all e way in school.. clever move.. let him voice out his anger through sms before getting scolding face to face.. lolx.. i know clearly you wont bear to scold me de.. hahaz(0^.^o).. yupz.. he actually asked me how much it cost to take cab from school to my place.. i know clearly in my heart that he's planning to give me money to take cab home cause he cant send me home because his lessons ends at 6pm..
true enough... when he saw me during lunch hours, the first thing he did was to stuff money into my hand.. i didnt take.. the money was passed here and there and i struggled more than 10mins just to make him keep his money.. i said before.. i'm not a materialised girl... i dont need you to spend money on me de.. thanks for being so SWEET.. yupz.. so he became my walking stick during lunch.. so that Nad can rest.. tired you guys le.. *muackz* he got back his bioscience results also.. he got a A.. *fainted* ... die.. we got a bet between us.. if he do better than i did, he will have to punish.. same for me.. vice versa.. and the person who do badly will have to accept any punishment given by the person who do well.. just pray hard i can do well...
Jenny came to my house today.. cause Dad bought some health products from her.. had a talk with her.. and actually explain to her to stages of pressure ulcer when she show me some pictures of her cilents.. well.. Jenny is my collengue cum soulmate in my office... she knows lots of my stories.. after Dad came back.. i went back into my room... was on the phone with Junyuan.. we actually talked till 11plus like that.. he was simply too happy that he got an A for his bioscience.. and happily waiting to punish me.. *sobx* bad boy right?? somemore can tell me "nan ren bu huai nu ren bu ai" ((men dont be bad women dont love))... what logic sia!?! (=.=!?)
WEDNESDAY - well.. we had nafa today.. early morning.. i just saw someone i wouldnt want to see.. spoilt my mood..... they had a 2.4km run.. and something shocking happened... he had muscle cramp on both side of his legs.. and immediately.. he sat down causing his metabolism to drop.. the PE teacher actually instruct me to go buy 100Plus for him.. but then... when i returned.. he was already unconscious.. he cant bear the pain and he fainted.. *SHOCKED* i really got a shocked of my entire life.. goaty rang Mdm Quek.. and she came down with Mdm Qian.. while Mdm Quek try to call his mother, the ambulance and get to BP set...
Mdm Qian held his acupunture point under his nose.. wheread i'm holding on to the acupunture point at his hand.. i'm so scared.. he simply does not have any hand grip and his hands are freezing cold.. his eye balls involuntaryly rolling up.. can u imagine how scary it can be?? i held my back my tears.. i'm afraid that if he wakes up and see me cry, he will be worried.. Farhan and Nad were the ones supporting me.. asking me to be strong.. everything will be fine.. Do you still remember the horrifying question last saturday?? I'm so scared.. so scared that the question you ask will come true.. luckily... before the ambulance even arrive, Junyuan was awake already...
after he left.. my tears just involuntarily flowed out.. i cried.. telling Nad that if any thing really happened to him, i guess i will not have the courage to stay on his nursing anymore.. luckily.. he still know that i will worried and ring me immediately when he reaches the hospital.. thank you gohonzon.. while holding his hand, i prayed.. i chanted in my heart.. luckily nothing happened to you.. if not, what will happened to me ar? in the evening.. he slipped out of the house.. he insist on accompanying me to the doctor.. he knows clearly that if he dont go with me, i'll never go to the doctor.. thanks a lot.. when i see him, i just feel like hugging and telling him, "you really scare me..." but.. i cant.. cause i'm in the uniform.. representing the nurses.. so must be jian dian a bit... hahaz... yupz.. was quite painful going down the stairs.. see him so exhausted liao still must pei this gong zhu go see doctor.. i really feel so ashamed of myself.. heart aches as well.. no matter what.. please promise me to be there.. never leave me alone ar!!!!
THURDAY - oh well.. he didnt come school today.. his mom insist that he should rest at home for another day.. oh well.. it's thursday again.. for the past 3 weeks.. he has been missing his lessons on thursday.. thursday is e longest day of the whole week.. and so coincidentally.. he misses lessons every thursday.. i also dont know how i managed to survive without him in school.. especially when it's a long day... well.. we only got a period of bioscience in the morning followed by PIE.. after which.. at 3pm.. we have the "meet-the-principal" session.. so we have to miss our bioscience lesson..
after which.. from 5pm to 6pm.. it's ITE Cares.. oh well... it's a session that many will think that it's a waste of time... hahaz.. what ever it is.. it's part of our school time.. no choice.. we have no other alternatives to choose from.. heez.. well.. we almost had a quarrel.. he feels that everyone around him is worried for him.. giving him lots of pressure..asking him not to do this.. not to do that.. i know you dont meant to be so fustrated.. it's okie to pour out your frustration to me.. i guess you will feel better this way.. well.. i guess sometimes crying is a good way of releasing stress.. at least that's what i will do.. when i'm angry n really angry, i'll cry.. when i'm upset, i cry too.. and... i'll force myself to finish a tub of ice-cream.. ya.. i know it's fattening.. but it's a good way.. sometimes.. if i'm at home.. i do housework like mopping the floor.. those things that needs to exert lots of energy.. it's a way to release anger too..
FRIDAY - yupz.. today.. was a crucial day for me and many of those in our class.. we got back our bioscience results.. i got 38.5/50.. yupz.. it's a B.. i wanna aim for an A actually.. jus few more marks needed to achieve an A.. well.. it's my careless mistake.. shiffa, nad and farhan did quite well too.. but ramlan didnt make it.. well.. junyuan got even better results than me.. he got an A actually.. so.. i actually lost the "bet".. now.. he should be thinking of how to punish me i guess.. that's the bet between us actually... well well well... ren ming for this time.. kekez... *hugz*
Sunday, May 13, 2007
[ i feel so contented!! ]
[ i feel so contented!!]
well.. 4weeks of school has passed.. many things happened.. from small things to BIG things.. from sad things to SWEET things.. ITE life is really filled with lots of excitement.. sometimes i'll get hypotension n sometimes HYPERTENSION.. well.. I just dont know how to put them in words.. well.. all i can say is.. I'm in a GREAT class.. JN0704C, I LOVE YOU!!
we got a change in class leader actually.. Aini has stepped down her post.. and now, Vin is our new class leader.. the rest of the committee members still remains.. I hope with a new class leader, things will get better.. I hope so!!!! well.. I jus gone through my very first phase test on tuesday.. well... good news to share i guess.. I PASSED!!! kekez.. the top student in my class is a GUY.. oh man! kind of disgrace lahz.. cant imagine we girls cant do better.. well.. He's Hadi actually.. Mdm Qian feel so proud of him.. cause he actually joined us another 1week later.. yet, he can do so well!! I'm proud of you too!! hahaz...
well.. tomorrow is our very first Bioscience test.. hmmm.. why am i still online?? i should be mugging on my bioscience huh... i'm having a bad flu actually.. well.. i did studied.. but it's yesterday.. lolx.. i went to study with Junyuan yesterday.. Nad, Shiffa, Farhan and Ramlan are all in school for their Interact club camp.. so left with me and Junyuan to study lohz...
feel quite weird at first.. a bit paiseh also.. hahaz.. but it has been a great experience studying with him.. both of us just feel like dozing off at Mac.. but luckily still managed to study from 3plus to 7pm like that.. he's kind of sad actually.. cos he cant get into the archery competition.. i also dont know how to comfort him.. feel so useless.. haiz.. but luckily he didnt emo through out.. if not, i wont know how to handle the situation.. dont worry Junyuan.. be it what happened, remember, I'll be by your side to suppport you.. "Believe in yourself, cause i Believe in you".... JIAYOU!!!
off to study!!
well.. 4weeks of school has passed.. many things happened.. from small things to BIG things.. from sad things to SWEET things.. ITE life is really filled with lots of excitement.. sometimes i'll get hypotension n sometimes HYPERTENSION.. well.. I just dont know how to put them in words.. well.. all i can say is.. I'm in a GREAT class.. JN0704C, I LOVE YOU!!
we got a change in class leader actually.. Aini has stepped down her post.. and now, Vin is our new class leader.. the rest of the committee members still remains.. I hope with a new class leader, things will get better.. I hope so!!!! well.. I jus gone through my very first phase test on tuesday.. well... good news to share i guess.. I PASSED!!! kekez.. the top student in my class is a GUY.. oh man! kind of disgrace lahz.. cant imagine we girls cant do better.. well.. He's Hadi actually.. Mdm Qian feel so proud of him.. cause he actually joined us another 1week later.. yet, he can do so well!! I'm proud of you too!! hahaz...
well.. tomorrow is our very first Bioscience test.. hmmm.. why am i still online?? i should be mugging on my bioscience huh... i'm having a bad flu actually.. well.. i did studied.. but it's yesterday.. lolx.. i went to study with Junyuan yesterday.. Nad, Shiffa, Farhan and Ramlan are all in school for their Interact club camp.. so left with me and Junyuan to study lohz...
feel quite weird at first.. a bit paiseh also.. hahaz.. but it has been a great experience studying with him.. both of us just feel like dozing off at Mac.. but luckily still managed to study from 3plus to 7pm like that.. he's kind of sad actually.. cos he cant get into the archery competition.. i also dont know how to comfort him.. feel so useless.. haiz.. but luckily he didnt emo through out.. if not, i wont know how to handle the situation.. dont worry Junyuan.. be it what happened, remember, I'll be by your side to suppport you.. "Believe in yourself, cause i Believe in you".... JIAYOU!!!
off to study!!
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