昨天会被今天明天来取代......

昨天会被今天明天来取代....

言承旭:累了不要见外
把我挖起来
吐个痛快
看不惯朋友有难
谁还冷冷的围观
我的手心为你握起来
朱孝天:烦了不要见外
把我找出来
陪你负担
吴建豪:续杯咖啡的温暖
一直暖到你想开
你心情的坑洞让我来填满
朱孝天:昨天会被今天明天来取代
动心的感情不会淘汰
关心常在
全体:就算你我再热闹喧哗中走散
友情会在第一时间赶来
让跳乱的心情平躺下来
重新的呼吸简单
深深的满满的
朋友只要你被孤单压的叫不出来
我第一时间送出关怀
热热的眼神陪你看开
找回那片大自然
为着你抱紧你相信你
朱孝天:我确定
周渝民:累了不要见外
把我挖起来
吐个痛快
看不惯朋友有难
谁还冷冷的围观
我的手心为你握起来
珠孝天:烦了不要见外
把我找出来
陪你负担
续杯咖啡的温暖
一直暖到你想开
你心情的坑洞让我来填满
吴建豪:昨天会被今天明天来取代
动心的感情不会淘汰
关心常在
全体:就算你我再热闹喧哗中走散
友情会在第一时间赶来
让跳乱的心情平躺下来
重新的呼吸简单
深深的满满的
朋友只要你被孤单压的叫不出来
我第一时间送出关怀
热热的眼神陪你看开
找回那片大自然
为着你抱紧你相信你

this few days.. beside having school.. have been busy with school assignments and also attending gakkai activities.. tired but really occupied myself to the fullest.. like today, attended this ywd meeting and heard this song which i used to listen 8years back! really re-flashing my memories! heez!

had a great time doing duty with xueyun! helped to take attendance for the meeting and sell the book!=D we sold a total of 135 books!!! super 有满足感! yes, there's a lot more things i can do with my own ability and capability.. so, dont even dare to look down on me.. i shall let you 跌破眼镜！be prepared ba! haha! just came back with the meet up with one of a very long never see friend cum ex bf of mine, let's call him mr "L"... well, i guess we just cant click well that's why last time will break up.. haha! i need to sleep le.. tomorrow need to wake up at 7am for the training course!=D

心里突然觉得很不舒服！我快爆炸了！

心里突然觉得很不舒服！我快爆炸了！

started class 4 days already.. and every friday is a break! NO CLASS!! like i mentioned in my previous entry, i thought 19th april would be a terrible day for me.. but i gone through it safely...

but today.. i don't know why.. suddenly i just feel so upset.. hais.. and cried badly.. i really want to be STRONG.. i really want to..

BELIEVE in YOURSELF!=D

BELIEVE in YOURSELF!=D

didn't know where this courage came from.. i guess probably it's my IPOD TOUCH!=D yes, it's been months since i sync my ipod touch liao.. cause it has always been not my job.. i don't know much things about computer and devices.. but yesterday, i tried.. download all the songs that are used to be in my ipod one by one till this morning about 5am then i sleep.. and when i got up at 1pm this afternoon.. i continue to mingle with my ipod till i get it sync with the songs i want inside!

i didn't know how i did it.. but it's definitely, purely just TRIAL and ERROR.. i always thought, without you, there's many things i cant do.. without you, i cant stand on my own.. BUT..... the fact is that, I CAN! it's just that i didn't try hard enough to do so.. i didn't try hard enough to STAND ON MY OWN.. i got all your photos kept away from my wallet, and i removed the ring that i have been wearing for the past 1 year off my finger..

from now, i will accept that you won't be here anymore.. and we are just pure friends.. pure normal friends.. although i don't know things will be like in future, but for now.. this is what we will be.. i am trying my best not to keep in touch with you that often... and that i will NEVER and NOT let you know how terrible i am living.. i will ONLY let you know that without you, i can STAND ON MY OWN... without you, i am living just like how i was before you came into my life and made a mess of it..

i don't blame you, i won't hate you.. i do cherish and treasure those happy moments you gave me.. whether or not you cherish it or not, i am okie... but for me, i do cherish it.. and thanks for giving me a chance to learn and i will treat this relationship as a learning experience for me.. thanks.. thanks for everything.. make sure you will be HAPPY.. make sure you show me that you made a right decision by dumping me.. make sure you do....

早知今日，何必当初？

早知今日，何必当初？

well.. today got up and saw 卓文's sms.. he seems super polite till i feel like i am a stranger to him.. he asked me if i am free today for a meet up.. cause he want to get his things back from me.. just happened that i am going to Clementi for a meeting.. i suggested to him to meet at Clementi.. instead of meeting me early, he requested to meet me after my meeting..

well it's for his own convenience.. not for my sake.. met up at MOS burger then sat down and chit-chatted for an hour plus.. before we headed home in a train.. well, just pure catching up.. talking about school work and his application for job etc.. and his plans.. he seems much much happier than before.. maybe it's a good thing he let me go.. probably he feels that i won't be happy with him ba.. and he don't feel happy with me too.. well, i don't know if he's really happy.. but i would hope he is.. cause no matter what, he still holds an important place in my heart.. i want the best to be his..

i don't know what will happened to me and him in years to come.. but for now.. just pure friends.. like we were before.. and i want to walk out of this mess, and enjoy the happy moments i have now.. i don't know who is the next person who will come and make a mess of my life, but for now, i just want to concentrate of what i have now.. and cherish and treasure it, before it leaves me AGAIN..

Ben going to be away for an exchange program from May- July.. and he's preparing his exams now.. even if i am not okie, i know i wont want him to worry.. so..... i will try my best to get over it.. and not do things that will hurt myself.. and school reopening on monday.. i guess i'll be probably very affected that day.. cause it's supposed to be our anniversary.. SUPPOSED TO BE... so ya.. just hope things go well.. well, i shall stay positive about it=D

真心希望你真的快乐！=D

你是因为害怕才把我推开吗？

你是因为害怕才把我推开吗？

meet up with yong ming yesterday.. it's been almost 9months plus since we last met each other.. well, it was great catching up with him.. met him at DG and from DG, we walked to Suntec.. along the way, we shared some of our nursing encounters with each other..

headed to Suntec cause there's a wider variety of food for us to choose from.. and we had Pepper Lunch!=] had my favourite Beef Pepper Rice.. then.. we continued to chat with each other.. after finishing our meals, we headed to Coffee Bean.. had a drink there.. and chit-chatted.. then, we met one of his friends.. nothing much.. just pure catching up.. and really thankful to him..

did talked some sense to me regarding me and 卓文.. cause he seen 卓文 before during last year's Vibrant blood drive.. well, many thought we are still together and will be ever lasting.. BUT.. the fact is that.. many don't know that we did have many disputes and unhappiness for the almost one year of time together.. maybe letting each other go is a relieve from all these ba.. maybe, only through this, can we be truly happy..

i don't know about him.. but to me.. it seems that he's been doing well.. and i am the ONLY ONE being AFFECTED BADLY.. i know it's not worth dwelling in it for so long but somehow rather, i just can't help it.. i really don't know what should i do to get myself out of these mess..

slept at 3am this morning.. and i couldn't wake up at 630am for the morning gongyo session at Senja.. have to A380 peishan because i can't get up.. and was struggling with my STUPID gastric pain.. so, i went back to sleep.. for the whole day.. just stayed at home and watch videos, play games etc.. and i finished watching 下一站，幸福 and 海派甜心! actually both shows also watched half way and stop a bit here and there.. it did enlightened me in some ways but it did sadden me a lot as well..

like what Ben tells me.. there's no turning back between us liao.. and i don't want to HOPE for anything.. cause i know once i HOPE, DEVASTATION will come and knock HOPE down again.. so, let's just let nature takes its course.. and most importantly now is my education and my work in future.. and i think it applies to him as well?:D 加油，李卓文！要让我的牺牲更有意义，就好好的把自己的生活打点好，努力完成你的梦想！

找不到命中注定在一起的那个人........

找不到命中注定在一起的那个人.............

找不到人说 心里的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那个人
很多人都像我 一个人过生活

爱 只有简单笔画 却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人 也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱 是不可数的吗 为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人 在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
用不完身边 泛滥的自由
开始怕孤单 是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人 为何在天黑以后
还是 宁愿回到 爱情那个枷锁
告诉我爱不单行相信它

a song from the show - 海派甜心 by 罗志祥，爱不单行.. it's been days since i last updated.. got myself a laptop today!!!:D thanks for your help.. thanks for helping me look at the specs.. it took me quite some time to decide if i should buy this laptop.. cause i know it clearly in my heart that once i get this laptop, i wont have anything to do with you anymore.. i don't want this to come.. but i know i should..

i have been disappointing those who really cares for me.. especially Benjamin.. I'm really sorry.. really.. 1 more week to school reopen.. i must do something.. to help myself get over it.. but in my heart, i know it well.. i really love you.. i really don't know how to get on.. meet up with Xueyun da jie few days back.. had a great time catching up with her.. and met Cliff also.. thanks for analyzing all the problems for me.. thank you so much..

i need a break badly.. don't know why.. these 2 days i aren't feeling that well.. keep having fainting spells.. i think i need a rest badly.. hasn't been sleeping well... according to my mom, i had nightmares! well well well, i just need to rest!=D

不管我愿不愿意改变，一切都已经改变了.....

不管我愿不愿意改变，一切都已经改变了.....

it's been days since i updated.. well, my friend still trying to get over that guy.. cause he already starting to avoid her.. and there's nothing she can do.. from replying her a few times to disappearing completely now.. really PITY her! jiayou! faster get over it yup!! he's not worth your energy!

had days of fun this few days.. went to bowl with 秀娟姐 and gang on Good Friday.. and watched Clash of the Titans too! NICE SHOW=D then went to 扫墓 yesterday.. wake up super early and went to 3places.. CCK columbarium, CCK chinese cemetery and 咖啡山 at thomson there.. then went to eat at JE Zai Shun Seafood.. then headed hom..

very very tired these 2 days.. and now, i am at home resting.. keep on sneezing.. and these 2 days, my nose starts to bleed.. the wound still hurts badly.. argh! i am so BORED! 2 more weeks of holidays! going to chiong for drama shows!=]

a song by 林俊杰, 背对背拥抱

话总说不清楚 该怎么明了
一字一句像圈套
旧帐总翻不完 谁无理取闹
你的双手甩开刚好的微妙
然后战火再燃烧

我们背对背拥抱
滥用沉默在咆哮
爱情来不及变老
葬送在烽火的玩笑

我们背对背拥抱
真话兜着圈子乱乱绕
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道 这警告
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道 爱的警告
只是想让你知道 爱的警告

我不要一直到 形同陌路变成自找
既然可以拥抱 就不要轻易放掉