[ boring ]

boring.....

it's wednesday!! i'm left with about one week plus left before i start my attachment!! oh man! was pretty tired after yesterday's bbq at east coast park.. mom's only home in the morning.. she will be going to work in the afternoon.. no home-cooked food despite it being a wednesday.. cause mom's working..

went to meet xianyun at vivo.. i left home around 2pm and took bus 855 to vivo city.. reached just on the dot.. was pretty tired actually.. but she say she didnt want to go home after school.. so she suggested to meet up to grab a bite or go shop shop around.. we went to the kopitium at vivo and grab something to eat.. she ate fried hokkien noodles and i had pig stomach soup..

after which.. we went to superdog and bought a spicy bacon meal with a ice lemon tea and beef fries.. well.. it's quite nice actually... just that it's a bit too expensive.. we sat down and xianyun took out the birthday card she bought for marvin.. and told me to write my greetings to him.. was like kind of dont know what to do.. though i know marvin since secondary school.. i didnt really know him in depth.. so writing him a card is so DIFFICULT!! lolx.. was thinking, pausing and writing.. and xianyun actually laughed at me..

she asked me to think through how i get to know him.. seriously.. i dont remember!! hahaz.. kind of having STM!! short-term memory.. wahahaz.. so lucky.. managed to write something.. at least.. hahaz.. was feeling a bit cold so we went out and xianyun say she want to go to supermarket there.. hmmm.. was looking through what she should get for saturday's steamboat session at her house.. i'll be having study meeting that night!! OH MAN!! i just hope i can go!! if not, xianyun will KILL me!! hahaz..

then went to buy ice-cream.. xianyun had lemon ice-cream and i had mango ice-cream... hmmm.. it isnt as nice as it seems to be.. the one at novena square is still a BETTER choice.. i will eat it more often when i got for my attachment at ttsh!! wahahaz! will definitely grow FATTER.. oh man!! not any further.. seriously NOT!

was having a bit of sore throat.. think it's because of the bbq food yesterday.. oh no! i dont want to fall sick.. it will be a waste of time to fall sick during holidays.. will have lesser time to PLAY.. hahaz..at around 6pm, i went to work and xianyun went to orchard to meet marvin.. went back from work at around 8pm... was having miagraine.. and i couldnt concentrate.. only managed to get one appointment that night.. but zhi hao kor kor say it's very good already.. cause i wasnt feeling well.. so NICE of him.. jeslyn jie not around.. he actually sent me down from the office.. thank you!

called mom and meet her yishun mrt.. she's also on her way home after work.. well, it's just another TIRING day!

[JN0704C class gathering!!]

JN0704C class gathering!!

today... as usual.. woke up at 10plus.. actually was awaken at 5plus.. didi go to school... 6plus.. mom go to work.. then 7plus again.. dad left for work.. then called daryl also.. he going to school.. then i happily still sleeping in my cosy bed.. woke up... did my morning prayers and had my shower.. after which.. went to brother's room to use the com and on the tv...

went out of the house at around 12pm.. meeting Douglas and Farhan at Bedok mrt control at 1pm to go to Joyce house.. me and Douglas were a bit late.. and poor Farhan.. have to wait for us there.. SORRY! after which, we took bus 222 to her house.. lazy her.. didnt even want to come to the bus stop to pick us.. called her and she asked us to just go up her flat ourselves.. luckily, i still know the way.. didnt walk with her blindly yesterday.. if not, she sure have to come down.. hahaz.. went to her house.. and survey her house a bit before we left her house for East Coast Park.. we are expecting that Nad and Hazwan will definitely be late.. so the EARLY us just slack a bit..

with both our hands OCCUPIED.. we went down from her house to hire a cab.. cant AFFORD to take bus.. everything is so heavy.. 10 bottles of 1.5litres's soft drinks.. potato salad.. tibits and stuff.. and many many more..... we dropped at car park C and walked to all the way to our pitch - 27C... the weather is TERRIBLY HOT!!! when we reached the bbq pitch, me and Joyce set off to Parkway Parade to get the ice box and Hadi's birthday cake.. the wather is so HOT.. i mean WARM!! hahaz... it took us about half an hour to walk to Parkway Parade.. along the way.. we chatted..

reached Parkway market and bought my favourite peppermint milk tea.. and Joyce bought peach green tea for herself.. helped Farhan and Douglas to buy their bubble tea too!! after which.. we went to Parkway Parade shopping centre to shop and hunt for Hadi's birthday cake.. after much consideration, we bought a cake at black forest cake from Breadtalk with a 40% discount.. hahaz.. great budget! after which, we went to get the icebox and some plates and satay sticks with the nearby NTUC.. luckily Douglas sms just in time to ask us to buy.. if not we'll be walking into the underpass already..

went back there and went to find place to put the cake.. we are so LUCKY.. managed to freeze our cake at Mac cafe.. the guys there are so KIND.. hahaz.. and went to GANG 5kg ice.. was kind of ANGRY.. cause the guys arent helping much! was carrying the 5kg ice and nad called to ask if need to buy ice not.. saying tat vin can helped.. i was like kind of angry.. i only 2more steps away from the pitch then say got people willing to help.. is it a bit too late?? feel so bad for Joyce.. i made her so TIRED.. cause was asking her to help me with many stuffs.. SORRY huh!

many people didnt turned up.. and somemore are the ONES who DEMANDED for a class gathering.. well, it might be the first and the last time class committee going to come up with a gathering.. we OVER-SPENT our BUDGET.. cause TOO MANY PEOPLE didnt turn up.. and MANY unexpected ones turned up instead.. some of the girls brought their boyfriends along with them without informing us before hand.. maybe we should make CLEAR something.. it's a CLASS GATHERING!!! but their boyfriends all quite OKIE.. just ONLY one NOT REALLY OKIE de..

really SPOILT my MOOD further.. i almost SLAP him at ECP... i dont want to name out who he is.. and who's boyfriend is that.. people are present should know.. cause, it really makes me CATCH FIRE!! i almost JUMP into the SEA to MIAN DIAO the fire!! hahaz.. and shakinah.. her fiance really very nice.. he insisted on paying for the food though i say dont need.. cause the rest of the girls.. their boyfriends.. super not intiative.. think everything also free.. we dont have FEW MILLIONS inside our class fund okie! .. yupz.. but it's really SO NICE OF HIM.. feel so happy for shakinah to have such a NICE husband in FUTURE!! kekez..

we left the pitch at around 8.15pm.. we managed to CONQUER all the food prepared.. except for the bee hoon nad's mom fried.. it's NICE.. but just cant finished all.. but really thanks nad and her mom a lot.. for SPONSORING the bee hoon!! took 196 with joyce and farhan to bedok.. then at bedok.. taking 67 to tampines.. it's so nice of joyce to wait for the bus with us.. think we spent about 20mins waiting for bus 67.. farhan dropped at tampines safra and walked home.. i went on to tampines.. at tampines interchange.. i spent about 30mins waiting for bus 969..

oh man!! want my life sia... i got no choice to board the bus though it's like so packed.. i STAND all my way home.. sobx(T.T)! managed to get home at 10.30pm.. and mom nagged at me cause it's like a bit too LATE liao..anyway.. really have lots of fun today!! i'm TIRED.. off to sleep~

[sheng siong trip]

sheng siong trip

woke up quite early.. was awaken by his call.. yupz.. he start school today liao.. think he's pretty upset with it.. cause we wont be able to spend much time playing and meeting up le.. hahaz.. dont be sad about it lahz.. kekez.. we can always try to plan and work more time for each other de.. meeting the class committee at bedok to buy all the neccessarities for tomorrow's bqq.. i was slightly a bit late... was having lunch with him before i went to meet them at bedok... we took 969 to tampines and from tampines, we took mrt to bedok.. i dropped off and he went on to travel home.. passed by simei ite.. kind of miss school seriously.. wishing that i'll be going back to campus on the 16th instead of to the polyclinic.. yupz.. actually polyclinic not so scary.. it's the 2nd week that will bring me nightmares.. oh man!!

people presented were : Nadiah, Hazwan, Farhan, Joyce and me..... we waited for Joyce to come and we went to the sheng siong supermarket at the bedok interchange.. it was really CROWDED.. and somehow, we just look as though we are 5 country bumpkins going to the supermarket for the first time.. talking really loud and screaming and shouting.. wahahaz...but it's really FUN!! FIRST time go MARKETING with them.. hahaz.. we really VERY AUNTIE!! everything also BUDGET.. everything also find the CHEAPEST!! hahaz...

spend about 40bucks on the necessarites.. then.. we took bus222 to joyce's house.. going to DEPOSIT some dry items at her place.. it's the nearest place to East Coast Park we can find.. THANKS JOYCE!! after which,, we went back to Bedok central.. wanted to grab a bite.. everyone is HUNGRY!! hahaz.. had Long John Silver... after which.. we went on shop shop around.. Hazwan bought a pair of slippers... after which.. we went walking around to hunt a CAKE for Hadi's birthday.. it's TOMORROW.. same day as our BBQ.. just feel a bit MEANINGLESS and UPSET cause Mdm Qian wont be back in Singapore to join us for the bbq.. SOBX (T.T)..

after that.. Nad went to meet her boyfriend and Farhan headed back home.. i accompany Joyce to NTUC to buy some groceries.. she's making POTATO SALAD for us TOMORROW!!! MY FAVOURITE!! *saliva flowing* hahaz.. sound so DISGUSTING of me.. after which.. i took the mrt to tanjong pagar and went to work.. kind of TIRED.. but. no choice.. have to go work.. cause i wont be going tomorrow.. will be meeting them quite early to get the things done before they come... oh man!!.......

[ssa 40th anniversary]

ssa 40th anniversary

today is SSA's 40th anniversary.. year 1967 till now.. 40years has passed by so fast.. time waits for no man!! woke up and went to the market with mom and didi.. went to the dry market to get some groceries.. and went to coffeeshop to have our breakfast.. and guess what we saw?? people putting their bets for illegal 4D.. oh man!! i have yet to call the police.. think this is not the first time already.. and.. people just dont know how to read the sign "NO SMOKING".. in coffeeshop.. seats at the corner is smoking area..whereas those inside or right in front is NO SMOKING area.. i'm happy EATING and in front of me.. few of those uncilivised uncles are smoking!! oh man!! not afraid lung cancer... ARGH!~

went home and had my shower and did my morning prayers.. after which, i took bus 851 to bugis.. going to work.. but somehow, the traffic at thomson and novena area isnt moving that smoothly.. and i'm LATE!! sms-ed Jeslyn jie to tell her i'll be late for work.. and so coincidentally.. she just finished her appointment with her cilent and is at bugis TOO! so, she waited for me and the bus stop i'm alighting.. when i'm alighting, bus 145 is just right behind.. thank godness.. we dont have to wait for bus..

both of us are really pretty tired! think i PLAYED too much nowadays and she WORKED too hard.. hahaz.. see the difference.. i'm TIRED because i'm spending my days PLAYING!! she's TIRED because she's spending her time WORKING!! was yawning our way throughout.. Jeslyn jie is real cute.. she's a PEEPING TOM!! she peeps into people's newspaper.. hahaz.. at first, i thought what happened.. i realised her head slanting to my shoulder.. i thought she has fallen asleep.. end up.. the reason is because she's looking at the newspaper in front of her.. she's trying to see what's the headline news.. lolx.. so cute of her...

we dropped at the bus stop at amara hotel and decided to grab something to eat and drink.. drinking and eating cure BOREDOM.. hahaz... she brought me to grab some MUFFINS!!! i had double chocolate and cheese muffins.. and a cup of lime juice.. REAL REAL NICE!! must try! Jeslyn jie met some nasty cilents that really spoilt her saturday afternoon.. one minute say free to meet up.. another minute say cannot.. luckily, zhihao kor kor called her.. at least i can see her smiling when talking to her boyfriend..

intend to work till 6pm before i go meet mom and didi at kallang.. BUT..... since Jeslyn jie is leaving at 5pm, i also try to eat snake.. went to tiong to meet daryl to grab a bite.. ate taiwan's oyster mee sian.. then went to walk around before taking the mrt to kallang.. he dropped at lavender.. cause mom and didi already reached kallang le.. didnt want them to knock into each other..

intend to bus11 into SIS (singapore indoor stadium).. BUT.. that stupid bus doesnt seems to come.. luckily we managed to grab a cab.. reached SIS around 7plus.. and saw shanice at the north entrance.. she REBONDED her LONG hair.. NICE NICE.. and went on to proceed to south entrance.. was pretty cold inside the indoor stadium.. saw jiu jian, zhu yong qing and ye li mei.. they sang songs to entertain the audience before the actual performance starts..

lots of lots of speechs by YMD chief, YWD chief, youth chief, GD Ong.... and awards presentation too.. the actual performance started around 8plus.. saw ming liang, pinwen, gilbert, raymond.... they are at the performing ground.. performing wushu.. and there was a march pass session too.. saw many sk kids.. they are REAL CUTE!! with mrs wong, wu lao shi and mrs tay..... and saw eunice jie performing for the ywd mass dance item...

the whole performance ended at around 10plus.. intend to buy the anniversary gift de.. but mom seems to be in a rush.. she want to get home as quickly as possible.. cause she's working tomorrow afternoon.. walked all the way to kallang mrt.. and managed to get a cab there.. the traffic was quite jammed at kallang.. and at CTE area.. maybe because the ndp performance at marina that just ended.. managed to reach home at around 11plus.. and had my dinner.. mom cooked lotus soup.. *yum yum* and ate some rice and veggies.. and ate chicken feet..

suddenly.. i thought of my tai po.. my great grandmother.. if she knows how cold i am towards my mama.. will she be angry?? if she knows how mama treats me, how they bad mouth about me, will she xin teng me?? tai po.. i really miss the days you're still around...........

[my RESULTS]

my RESULTS

it's FRIDAY.. so FAST!! 3rd week of my holidays is almost GONE!! as usual.. woke up at about 9.30am in the morning.. was actually awaken by Nad's sms.. she's asking me if i have check my results... so i woke up and on my com to check my results.. YES!! Nursing A, Bioscience B.. GPA 3.556!!!!! HURRAY!!!

did my morning prayers and again.. on my tv and computer again.. was trying badly to finish blogging.. but somehow, i cant really fulfill it.. got lots of things to blog.. but yet, i doesnt have the will to finish it.. waited till about 12pm and give mom a call.. intend to have lunch together with her.. eating food alone is boring.. i dont really like this kind of feeling.. kekez..

meet mom at Yishun mrt control at around1plus coming to 2.. then.. we took the underpass to Northpoint.. we just need some air-conditioned places to enjoy our meal.. the weather out there is so HOT!! hahaz.. i mean WARM.. heez=] and.. mom suggested to eat KFC.. it's not that i dislike eating KFC but just that.. i'm SERIOUSLY ON DIET.. but i didnt voice out anything and go ahead with mom's idea.. she just want to eat it.. alright mom.. your wishes has come TRUE.. and my GOAL is tarnished! haiz.. back to square.. i'm like so full already.. simply cannot work.. alamak.. after which.. we went home and i took a half an hour break before i had myself showered before i set off to work..

meeting daryl for dinner before i go for work.. will be working at 7pm.. supposed to meet him at 5.30pm.. but he's LATE!! davin will be joining us for dinner TOO!! but somehow, he feel so weird.. i also dont mind liao, you mind wat.. hahaz.. it's like so LONG i never see him liao.. still the same old davin.. took a bus from bugis to maxwell market.. and... we had our dinner there.. i ate the hongkong fried noodles.. hmmm.. not really that nice.. and daryl had curry chicken noodles.. dont look appetizing to me too.. and davin had mian fen guo.. hmm.. looks quite okie.. hahaz.. he has something really common with daryl.. both of them dont eat vegetables!! no wonder they are BROTHERS!! oh man!! is it because guys usually dont eat veggies??

i drink lime juice.. davin had grass jelly drink and daryl drank soyabean .. i'm pretty full actually.. cannot really finished the food.. actually dont feel like eating de.. just that daryl dont like people dont eat and stare at him eat.. that's why.. after which.. we walked 2 bus-stops to my company at Fuji Xerox Tower.. along the way.. we passed by lots of bridal shops.. and some came up to me and daryl and asked us to take a look.. oh man! i was really EMBARRASSED.. and that stupid daryl.. kept TEASING me.. make me BLUSHED!! *red cheeks*

they dropped me at the lobby area of my company and went back home.. thanks so much! thanks for sending me to work.. so SWEET!! worked till 10plus before returning home with jeslyn and zhihao.. tired!~

[ cycling trip ]

cycling trip

woke up at 9plus today.. and Daryl called saying that he's on his way to my house already.. so I quickly go brush my teeths, did my morning prayers and went to shower.. after which, went to meet Daryl at the bus stop.. we went to North point to have our breakfast.. have Big Breakfast with milo today.. *yum yum*.. it's kind of long I havent eat big breakfast.. hahaz.. was eating the hashbrown.. while eating it, i thought of yuan.. he was the one who love to eat hashbrown a lot.. just like me.. Ms Doris Lim call him hashbrown.. lolx.. but that is really a cute nick..

after we had our breakfast, we went to the bus interchange and took bus 854 to bedok interchange.. the waiting time for the bus is really long.. I think we waited for more than 20mins.. wanted my life.. and i was like so damn full after the Mac breakfast.. it's like so long i havent been taking breakfast so early.. lolx.. we took bus to bedok interchange and took 196 from there to east coast park.. it's like so long ago since i last cycled at east coast.. since secondary3 till now.. almost 4years liao i guess..

it was kind of warm and hot when we reached east coast park.. so we decided to sit at the bench and enjoy the breeze first.. wait till it's not so hot before we got cycling.. the cycling itself is $5 an hour and free one hour.. but.. we only managed to cycle for about 45mins only.. really exhausted... somemore my leg and knee cap is so painful... after which.. and around 3plus.. we left east coast park.. we took bus 196 all the way from east coast to clementi.. then.. we took 173 to bukit timah.. goin to beauty world hawker to eat.. the western food there is real nice.. deyun biao ge brought me there to eat before.. nice nice..

after which, we went to bukit batok to buy mom portuguese egg tarts.. managed to reach the cake shop and about 8plus.. BUT.. dont managed to buy it.. OUT OF STOCK.. OH MAN! end up.. we bought mom 6 pieces of dou sha bing.. that's her favourite too.. after which, we took 852 home.. was really tired.. how i wish mom can know my situation now.. so it will be no more hiding......

[ let everything start afresh ]

let everything start afresh

mom's home today.. supposed wanted to guai guai stay home.. end up.. Daryl sms and said he dont want to stay at home.. ask me if i can go out or not.. end up.. we decided to meet and go for a movie.. choosing a movie is so difficult.. we keep discussing over the phone which movie to watch.. end up.. we watched DIE HARD 4.0 at plaza singapura golden village.. supposed to meet him at 2pm.. end up.. i was slightly late.. SORRY!! we bought the tickets and was still quite early..

actually he haven eat anything yet.. but i ate already.. so he say.. he dont want to eat.. cause i will end up seeing eat.. that's what he never like.. we went walking round and round PS.. feel kind of weird.. we used to be couple.. so it's like kind of weird as friends now.. our show started at 3pm.. before that, we went to buy Nacho combo and popcorn.. he thought me how to dip the popcorn into the cheese.. *nice nice*.. was kind of feeling cold when i stepped into the cinema... i didnt bring my sweater.. and it's so SWEET of him.. he brought it for ME!! *so touched* .. he know me so well.. if it's last time, he will hug me tight.. make sure i dont feel cold.. but now.. he cant.. so he brought his sweater along.. Le coq de.. nice nice..

it's a real nice show!! never regret watching it!!! and thanks for the treat Daryl!! when the show is coming to an end, he's was blowing hot air to his hands.. he's cold.. so i actually grab and rub his palm to keep him warm.. at that point of time, i feel that he feel like grabbing my hands.. *illusion*.. wake up jessica!! after which.. all a sudden.. he mentioned that he wants to buy portuguese egg tarts.. was thinking real hard where to get it beside bukit batok.. so we walked to taka.. hoping to give it a try.. end up we didnt find it.. even the pineapple tarts i want to buy for mom that time i also cannot find..

so we went to bugis.. hoping to find.. end up.. also dont have.. he brought me to go look for Huiqing's girlfriend again.. *haiz* think back.. i feel so funny why i will like huiqing last time.. his character and my character is at the far two extremes.. lolx.. end up.. we couldnt get the egg tarts and we went back.. he actually sent me back to yishun.. we took bus851 together.. we were practically quiet through out the journey.. just listening to my mp3.. he seems to be in his thoughts..

reached home.. he sent me to my void deck area.. and he called me.. after about 5mins i got home.. he saw my dad at my void deck.. oh man!! think my dad recognised him.. he sms-ed and asked me.. is 2years too late?? i was kind of blur.. dont really know what is he refering to.. at first.. he pondered.. so i told him.. if you dont say what you want to say, then dont regret.. end up.. he asked.. he asked if he has a chance to start afresh with me.. was kind of "dont know" what to do.. got online and luckily saw xianyun online.. so i asked xianyun for her opinion and advice..

i'm kind of worried that it's really unfair for him.. yes.. i never forget him all these while.. but there's another person who came and left my life recently only.. and.. our issue also not really settled yet.. i asked Daryl.. are you sure you dont mind?? he said he dont mind, and wants me to put that incident behind.. thank you! thank you for all your understanding.. and thank you for not forgetting me......

let everything start afresh.....

[regrets]

regrets

woke up today at 9am.. want to update my blog and gonna meet JN0704C class committee for a meeting at bugis.. supposed to meet them at 1pm.. end up.. the time changed and changed.. Hazwan couldnt make it for the meeting.. he having diarrohoea and fever.. Farhan cant make it too.. got some family matters to settle.. and Nad has to make a trip to NUH to visit her uncle.. so.. the time changed from 1pm to 1.30pm... ask Joyce along too.. since only left with me, Nad and Vin.. was quite worried the 3 of us cannot think of anything.. took 851 to bugis.. and reached around 1.15pm..

YES.. i'm early! and die.. i know they will be late.. luckily.. i still have JOYCE!! she reached around 1.25pm.. and DEFINITELY not late.. we went to pay my hp bill at 7-eleven and went to Bugis Mac and take a seat while waiting for Nad and Vin.. we ate Mcnuggets Student meal.. YES.. who else has that privilege to do so?? ONLY WE STUDENTS!! hahaz.. supposed to meet Daryl later to eat.. but was kind of hungry also.. plus.. i havent eat anything much since last night..

was feeling so terrible the whole night.. having gastric pain.. was bearing with the pain the whole night.. luckily didnt vomit or anything.. just afraid that i will vomit for hours like last time again.. *paranoid*.. Vin sms-ed and said he will reached by 2pm..we WAITED and WAITED.. real PATIENTLY.. but still didnt see HIM.. and Nad.. just left the hospital at 2pm... and reached around 2.30pm... i supposed to meet Daryl at 3pm.. end up.. must make him wait.. feel so BAD.. sorry! we ended our discussion at around 3.30pm.. Douglas came to look for Joyce also.. they want to go get Hadi's birthday present..

finally met Daryl at 3.30pm.. we went to Bugis Street to go take a look at how's Huiqing's girlfriend look like.. *kpo me* kekez.. and that Daryl.. cannot stand him.. ask him where he want to go eat.. he kept repeating: "you boss, you decide..." AIYOZ! *dont treat me too good,i'm afraid i will fall for you again*.. actually, i cant really forget him as well.. he was the best boyfriend i ever had.. we really gone through lots of thick and thin together.. from parents' objection to friends' problems to our studies to my operation.. we conquered them one by one.. but somehow, we are just too immatured that time.. didnt know how to think for our own future...

we went so many places.. from bugis junction to bugis street to beach road.. then took bus100 to queensway.. then from queensway took bus14 to orchard..from lucky plaza walked till cenileisure to PS.. to cathay back to ceni there take bus 16 to tiong.. from tiong to henderson road, Huiqing's house.. then take bus 63 to bugis again..then from bugis i tool bus851 home.. i really feel that Daryl still like me a lot.. actually, what my mom said is right.. i cant really put behind this past relationship with him.. i have always compared him with other of my boyfriends after him..

you're my GREATEST REGRET!!

[ struggling with a fight inside ]

struggling with a fight inside

it's YOUTH DAY today.. ya.. but makes not much different to me.. cause.. i'm having my HOLIDAYS now.. and i dont think youth day is public holiday for ite students also.. didi is home.. having his one day holidays.. woke up at about 9plus.. did my morning prayers and then on the tv.. FINALLY.. i get to OCCUPY the tv set.. watch 幸福星期六 repeat.. it's a real nice show.. channel 56.. at around 12plus.. i went to buy my breakfast cum lunch... ate shredded chicken guo tian and 2chicken wings.. *yum yum*

after which.. i got online... saw him online also.. *woaini -holdmyhand*... how terrible can it go?? not any FURTHER!! it's always so COINCIDENTAL that he changes his nick everytime i'm online.. PURPOSELY de ma?? PURPOSELY want to let me see de ma?? i dont believe it's always so COINCIDENTAL all the time..

was online for few hours.. intend to change my blogskin.. FINALLY.. managed to get an idea one after changing and changing.. the html really driving me crazy... at around 4.15.. left for work.. will be working from 6pm to 10pm today.. *sianz*.. again.. took 851 to bugis and take another bus.. so tired.. i slept on the bus.. real real tired.. also dont know why.. reached amara hotel at about 5.30pm.. went into edo sushi and bought some sushi.. ya.. that's gonna be my DINNER..

first day of the week.. and i'm hoping that weekend can come faster.. cause.. this saturday.. it will be 07072007... it will be a very BIG day.. SSA will be celebrating our 40th anniversary at Singapore Indoor Stadium.. it gonna be a real GRAND event.. i'm looking forward to it!!! this time round.. going to be audience..

will be meeting JN0704C class committee members tomorrow.. have to come up with the neccessary planning for our bbq next tuesday!!! we gonna have a GATHERING.. but .. so sad.. think Mdm Qian cant join us.. her dad is terminally ill in hongkong.. think she wont be able to come back.. will be meeting Daryl tomorrow too!!.. so EXCITED.. it's been 2years we never see each other!! oh man!! *pumping heart*.. he told me.. once again.. that he regretted letting me go for no reason .. and said few months back.. he was thinking to patch up with me.. *shocking* i was damn SHOCKED till my heart almost fall out.... tomorrow... please come FASTER!!!!!

got a nice song to recommend.. it's by wang xin lin.. title is 第一次爱的人


灰色的天你的脸
爱过也哭过笑过痛过之后只剩再见
我的眼泪湿了脸
失去第一次爱的人竟然是这种感觉

总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away

我看着你走过街
还穿着去年夏天我送你的那双球鞋
银色手炼还耀眼
你的世界似乎一点也没有因此改变

总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away

总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away

有一天也许我能把自己治好
再一次想起来应该要怎么笑
第一次爱的人它的坏他的好
却像胸口刺青是永远的记号
跟着我的呼吸直到停止心跳

(( it's a very important today.. it used to be.. me and daryl's anniversary.. but now.. it's no longer important.......... ))

[ milkwalk?? ]

milkwalk ??

yupz.. woke up at 9plus today.. actually i intend to sleep till 10am.. but somehow.. i awaken by all the cling cling clack clack produced my DEAREST mom... she woke up.. and was doing so cleaning up in the kitchen.. did my morning prayers and went to have a shower.. at the same time.. my brother woke up.. was begging him to let me watch the tv programme at 11am.. want to watch wei xiao pasta before i go for the milkrun.. at first.. he didnt really agree.. end up.. i told him.. i will help to get him breakfast.. and he AGREED.. FINALLY.. i just have a feeling i wont get a chance to watch any tv programme in the evening.. dad will be home by then.. he sure will be the one OCCUPYING the tv.. and i guesss i will return home quite late also..

naomi sms and asked me what time i'm reaching zouk for the milkrun.. she didnt bring her running tag.. and asked if i can get it for her.. lolx.. somehow it sounds too impossible.. i'm no longer staying at clementi.. if not, going to holland village (her house) wont be a problem.. but now.. i'm staying at yishun.. meeting xianyun at 2pm at tiong bahru plaza... yupz. she's going for the milkrun too!!! actually i asked her quite last minute also.. only on monday.. and somehow.. to my surprise.. she agreed to take part.. love you lots xianyun!!!

left home at around 12.45.. took bus 851 to tiong.. i'm like practically taking this bus everyday.. cause everytime i go work, i'll take 851 to bugis and transfer to bus80 to tanjong pagar.. so afraid that i will be late.. but luckily.. i didnt.. just reached in time at 2pm.. xianyun was slightly late.. she was having church service.. feel so BAD that i must make her rush here and there.. but thanks for coming.. it's like so few months ago we seen each other.. somehow, beside all the blog entries.. we dont even know how each other is doing in our own respective life..

ya.. indeed.. i didnt do that well.. and things isnt going that well all this while for me.. and practically everyday, i'm repeating my story time and again.. i dont really want to say it.. but i know friends who are concern for me wants to know what really happened to me in order to encourage me.. yupz.. thanks guys!! i really feel so thankful and grateful to have such great friends in life.. the weather is kind of warm today.. and i simply sweat from head to toe even before the run starts.. kenji hurted himself so didnt make it for the milkrun.. but alvin came!! at least he make an effort.. though he is almost late for the event..

the run started at 4plus.. it was a 4km run.. but i think i practically walk through out.. lolx.. my leg is kind of painful all a sudden..maybe because of the fall the other time ba.. 4km.. challenging.. it's like so long i never walked such long distance.. last time.. i remember when me and Daryl are still together.. we once walked from bukit merah back to clementi.. pro right?? i also dont know how we made it.. kekez.. but that was SO LONG ago.. many years back.. saw many familiar faces also.. and hear many familiar voices.. and one of them is mr F.. dont want to mention who's he.. someone i'm afraid to see...

finally.. we made it for the WALK!! hahaz.. back to zouk at around 5plus.. went to queue at the bag deposit counter to claim our bags.. we waited for more than 30mins to get our barang barang back.. oh gosh!! xianyun almost went CRAZY queuing for the bags.. lolx.. after which , we went back to great world to get ourselves washed up... at first, xianyun supposed to meet her family at bugis for steamboat session.. but it will be the 3rd time she eating it if she goes.. end up.. she didnt go.. and we went into 7-eleven to get a drink.. had soya bean milk.. like so long never drink it liao le.. hahaz.. seriously..

after then, we took 51 to bugis.. throughout the journey.. was telling her about yuan.. i think i really makes her blood boiled.. she must be thinking : "yinmun, you're real stupid".. ya.. how stupid can i go ar? i tink not any further ba.. love makes me real stupid somehow.. has Mos burger for dinner.. ebi rice burger.. our favourite!! she was like cursing her way through.. but i dont hate him lehz.. if it's e jessica loh last time.. i'll sure hate him. but i dont.. i also dont know why.. i just believe.. it takes two hands to clap.. i think i must bear the responsiblity.. cant really blame him totally.. it sound so unfair.. jiayou ba!!

saw his msn nick yesterday.. "when will i get the chance to tell you i love you?? -but.. the heartless wind keep blowing in.." i really want to know who's the girl... she has really good ability to capture and lock your heart.. she must be someone real pretty.. real nice.. maybe by knowing, it will make the cells in my heart die faster.. Nad told me it isnt worthwhile.. and pointless to know.. but Joyce encouraged me to go talk to him and find out from him.. i want to.. and dying to.. but.. i know him well enough to confirm that he wont tell me.. who am i to him?? just a NOBODY.. seriously a NOBODY.. if he said and that person isnt me, that's worse.. i'll be like knocking myself against the wall right?? so stupid.. why must use a knife and pierce into your own heart??

xianyun asked me if he were to come back, will i still accept him?? i said i wont.. but xianyun just know me too well, she say i will... ya.. that's what in my mind.. i told her depend what's e reason he gave me... you're such a weakling !! *haiz*... saw him online again.. at 11plus somemore.. was kind of shocked he's online at this hour.. i just wonder he always change his nick purposely when i'm online to let me see ma?? you dont even consider how i feel.. if those words arent meant for me, you know how hurting it will be to see all those msn nicks?? "woaini, hold my hand".... i'm not blind.. seriously, i hope i am now..

hope i am blind.. so that i wont see what you writes.. hope i am deaf.. so that i wont have to hear what my friends are telling me to do... to be haste to him and things and that.. hope i am mute.. so that i wont have to repeat our story time and again.. hope that i can lose my sense of touch.. so that i wont feel the pain i'm bearing now.. grant me my wish!!