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射手座女——如何去爱
射手座的女子是热力四散的，有的时候会热得稍微失去控制，而伤了许多人。她是活泼好动的，虽然她看来是如此文静，可是只要那个开关被打开了，她就会无止尽的令你烦扰不已；别以为只要把开关关掉就行了，那个开关根本就是个坏的。若是运气好的话，你也许可以找到电池，想办法拔掉；但是她又很可能是用插电的。她是相当直接的，不管任何事情。如果你觉得她太不拘小节了，她会觉得你有点奇怪，甚至会认为你不够大胆。
这有什么关系，只不过是挽著你的手而已，又不是要跟你结婚；她也会如此对待她的男性朋友，所以你就别太大惊小怪，这在她认为实在是没什么好值得惊讶的。基本上，她对於双关语是免疫的。
她常会搞错感情，错把友情当作爱情，爱情当友情，这会令她相当困惑。所以你若是喜欢她，并且想和她交往的话，可以不用费尽心思的用委婉的言语来表达，你只要直接的告诉她就行了。然後你可能会听到她发出一阵娇笑，告诉你别开玩笑。或者是露出她美丽的浅笑，豪爽的回答：好啊。好像没什么浪漫可言。她不会喜欢上绵羊型的男人，因为她喜欢那种被保护的感觉，但你可要了解：被保护并不代表可以被左右。她可是相当独立的，而且她像是头野马，要想驯服她，可没那么容易喔！她可不会随随便便就一头冲进热恋之中，除非你一开始就向她证明：你绝不会非要她“定”下来不可！
害怕孤单难耐的代表星座——射手座
射手座女子极度害怕寂寞，所以，她们往往很轻易地就投入爱情，然后又在清醒后后悔，幸亏她们转移注意力的速 度够快！
射手座
向往自由的射手，不希望爱情成为他的束缚，因此你越是管着他，他就会越想往外飞，等到有一天他飞出了你的范 围，就别怪他薄情寡义了。其实你只要稍微放松对他的管理，假装并不那么重视他，对他爱理不理的，他反而会被 你吃得死死的。
this was what Stella post on her blog for me to read! she know me BEST manz.. hahaz.. i just LOVE reading horoscope stuff.. cause sometimes, it just sound so TRUE to me! thanks a lot stella!! please enjoy your holiday!! i'll MISS you lots!!!!:)
today on afternoon shift.. will be getting ready for the party tomorrow as it will be our LAST day in IMH.. i'm gonna MISS the place A LOT!! just hope one day, i can get to work there! hahaz.. maybe wait till i finish my bond with TTSH first:)
going off to work already.. shall post tomorrow about the EXCITING party.. take care people!!=]
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
[ mixture feelings.... ]
mixture feelings....
have been working morning shifts for the past 3 days and it's making me really TIRED.. cause i have to wake up like 4plus 5.. and the WORSE thing is not getting enough sleep and the problem of being not able to sleep makes me really IRRITATED! i just go to work with a real bad mood at times! hais.. i just feel sorry for the patients for irritating me at the wrong time.. sorry patients..
today.. Sook Mun on afternoon shift.. therefore, nobody to fetch me to work.. therefore, have to wake up early and left my house earlier than usual.. my head is still aching and my nose is still sneezing.. i just feel so TIRED.. but thinking of working afternoon shift tomorrow makes me feel a little more HAPPY.. though i will still be on morning on friday..
managed to go for 1st break today.. a little bit happier.. hahaz.. and had my brunch with Lasmmi and Carol.. kind of bored.. cause my 4 bestie (Sook Mun, Huda, Puteri and Harvinder) not around.. cause usually they are the ones who can really make my day!:) back to ward and sleep for about 20minutes.. though it sounds a bit insufficient.. BUT, better than nothing..
then when Amanda came, we had a discussion on the friday's party.. i guess it really makes me so UNHAPPY.. but end up, we still managed to get things going.. we are cilivised people after all.. hahaz.. then saw my favourite SSN.. didnt wanted to talk to him.. but end up, he still talk to me.. just so JEALOUS! after hearing what she said about him.. shall not mention who is the she.. *sad sad*.. some unhappy incident happened to a cp group mate of mine.. just hope she is not traumatise about it..
after work.. went to NTUC and got a handful of things for the party this friday.. it's just so HEAVY till my hands are aching now.. havent start doing the reflection journal for the IMH posting.. i am dead this time round.. got to get it doing during this weekend:)
hasnt hear from Ben Ben for a few days le.. he is away for the FOC camp.. but i guess i will see ALL of them next friday for the VB thank you dinner and watch Olypmics together! *Hurray*!!!!! really looking forward to it.. BAD news.. my 3th week (18th-22nd august) back in ttsh will be scheduled as HOLIDAY! because of the stupid JCI.. and we are asked to replaced it from 6th-10th oct! attachment will finished on the 5th of sept.. then back to school for 2weeks.. therefore, i only got 2weeks holiday!!! really sianz half half! hais.. i am graduating liao still torturing me.. got to go pray and rest and watch tv!:)
tomorrow- will be on afternoon shift...
have been working morning shifts for the past 3 days and it's making me really TIRED.. cause i have to wake up like 4plus 5.. and the WORSE thing is not getting enough sleep and the problem of being not able to sleep makes me really IRRITATED! i just go to work with a real bad mood at times! hais.. i just feel sorry for the patients for irritating me at the wrong time.. sorry patients..
today.. Sook Mun on afternoon shift.. therefore, nobody to fetch me to work.. therefore, have to wake up early and left my house earlier than usual.. my head is still aching and my nose is still sneezing.. i just feel so TIRED.. but thinking of working afternoon shift tomorrow makes me feel a little more HAPPY.. though i will still be on morning on friday..
managed to go for 1st break today.. a little bit happier.. hahaz.. and had my brunch with Lasmmi and Carol.. kind of bored.. cause my 4 bestie (Sook Mun, Huda, Puteri and Harvinder) not around.. cause usually they are the ones who can really make my day!:) back to ward and sleep for about 20minutes.. though it sounds a bit insufficient.. BUT, better than nothing..
then when Amanda came, we had a discussion on the friday's party.. i guess it really makes me so UNHAPPY.. but end up, we still managed to get things going.. we are cilivised people after all.. hahaz.. then saw my favourite SSN.. didnt wanted to talk to him.. but end up, he still talk to me.. just so JEALOUS! after hearing what she said about him.. shall not mention who is the she.. *sad sad*.. some unhappy incident happened to a cp group mate of mine.. just hope she is not traumatise about it..
after work.. went to NTUC and got a handful of things for the party this friday.. it's just so HEAVY till my hands are aching now.. havent start doing the reflection journal for the IMH posting.. i am dead this time round.. got to get it doing during this weekend:)
hasnt hear from Ben Ben for a few days le.. he is away for the FOC camp.. but i guess i will see ALL of them next friday for the VB thank you dinner and watch Olypmics together! *Hurray*!!!!! really looking forward to it.. BAD news.. my 3th week (18th-22nd august) back in ttsh will be scheduled as HOLIDAY! because of the stupid JCI.. and we are asked to replaced it from 6th-10th oct! attachment will finished on the 5th of sept.. then back to school for 2weeks.. therefore, i only got 2weeks holiday!!! really sianz half half! hais.. i am graduating liao still torturing me.. got to go pray and rest and watch tv!:)
tomorrow- will be on afternoon shift...
Monday, July 28, 2008
[ 有你在的地方，我无法呼吸!.... ]
有你在的地方，我无法呼吸!....
morning shift today..woke up at 5am, thanks to Sook Mun and her dad.. if not because her dad is fetching me to work, i wont be able to sleep till 5am then wake up.. didnt sleep well last night too.. work started at 7am.. Mdm Yeo wont be able to join us for this week too.. Doctor say she need to rest at home.. just hope she's resting well at home..
got the chance to work with some staff i never work with before.. SN Leo, SN Ying Hao and SN Ban Khiang, whom i have work with twice.. and AN Alif and HCA Emilio.. actually they are quite NICE.. and really FRIENDLY.. another thing i dont understand is.. how come IMH got so many handsome staff? hahaz! think they really makes the girls so HIGH! our task today was to redecorate the board.. shall post the photo once the board is done.. didnt get the time to play with the patients today..
BUT, i did something i thought i wouldnt have the chance to do it in IMH.. and that's FEEDING patient! i seriously love feeding patients! seeing their happy face after filling their stomach makes me really HAPPY! then, back to domitoary.. nothing much, except chit chatting and slacking before we finish work at 3pm.. some patients are discharged today.. really HAPPY for them! speedy recovery worz!=]
after work, headed to AMK Hub with Puteri and Sook Mun.. ate at Macdonalds and went to shop around.. just some plain window shopping and chit chatting.. saw a blouse that i really like.. shall go see if i can still get it tomorrow after work!=]
will be on morning shift again tomorrow! got to go rest le! *yawn* :)
i didnt know why i must always see people's face and attitude and live.. why cant i also enjoy the life i want? why cant i also show my attitude and be angry and irritated over what has been happening.. you do have the right to browse my blog, but what gives you the right to comment on my blog in your blog? if you want to see, then SHUT UP! if not, please stay away from me cause i dont need a friend like you around.. i can swear to God that i have never done anything that will hurt you.. and has always been around as a listening ear and there to keep your secrets when you share it with me.. BUT, in return, what did i get? NOTHING but your BAD-MOUTHING to other friends of mine! is that what you are taught to treat your friends? who is the one showing sympathy and wants people to pity you? i think it's you ba! if you think you have the right to comment on your blog.. then dont blame me saying you in my blog.. cause, this is call the FREEDOM of SPEECH.. like you did, you didnt mention my name.. BUT, from the look and treatment you gave me, i know you are saying me.. you can say i am guilty conscience, BUT i dont CARE! cause i just know the way you do things too well.. just few more months, and i wont see you anymore once the event ends.. NO MORE! GET A LIFE ba! and stop being such a HYPOCRITE!
morning shift today..woke up at 5am, thanks to Sook Mun and her dad.. if not because her dad is fetching me to work, i wont be able to sleep till 5am then wake up.. didnt sleep well last night too.. work started at 7am.. Mdm Yeo wont be able to join us for this week too.. Doctor say she need to rest at home.. just hope she's resting well at home..
got the chance to work with some staff i never work with before.. SN Leo, SN Ying Hao and SN Ban Khiang, whom i have work with twice.. and AN Alif and HCA Emilio.. actually they are quite NICE.. and really FRIENDLY.. another thing i dont understand is.. how come IMH got so many handsome staff? hahaz! think they really makes the girls so HIGH! our task today was to redecorate the board.. shall post the photo once the board is done.. didnt get the time to play with the patients today..
BUT, i did something i thought i wouldnt have the chance to do it in IMH.. and that's FEEDING patient! i seriously love feeding patients! seeing their happy face after filling their stomach makes me really HAPPY! then, back to domitoary.. nothing much, except chit chatting and slacking before we finish work at 3pm.. some patients are discharged today.. really HAPPY for them! speedy recovery worz!=]
after work, headed to AMK Hub with Puteri and Sook Mun.. ate at Macdonalds and went to shop around.. just some plain window shopping and chit chatting.. saw a blouse that i really like.. shall go see if i can still get it tomorrow after work!=]
will be on morning shift again tomorrow! got to go rest le! *yawn* :)
i didnt know why i must always see people's face and attitude and live.. why cant i also enjoy the life i want? why cant i also show my attitude and be angry and irritated over what has been happening.. you do have the right to browse my blog, but what gives you the right to comment on my blog in your blog? if you want to see, then SHUT UP! if not, please stay away from me cause i dont need a friend like you around.. i can swear to God that i have never done anything that will hurt you.. and has always been around as a listening ear and there to keep your secrets when you share it with me.. BUT, in return, what did i get? NOTHING but your BAD-MOUTHING to other friends of mine! is that what you are taught to treat your friends? who is the one showing sympathy and wants people to pity you? i think it's you ba! if you think you have the right to comment on your blog.. then dont blame me saying you in my blog.. cause, this is call the FREEDOM of SPEECH.. like you did, you didnt mention my name.. BUT, from the look and treatment you gave me, i know you are saying me.. you can say i am guilty conscience, BUT i dont CARE! cause i just know the way you do things too well.. just few more months, and i wont see you anymore once the event ends.. NO MORE! GET A LIFE ba! and stop being such a HYPOCRITE!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
[ 你不想伤害任何人，但却伤害了每一个人... ]
你不想伤害任何人，但却伤害了每一个人...
woke up at 9.45am this morning.. to say in exact.. i like didnt sleep at all.. cause, i have been waking up every one hour.. hais! i also dont know what's wrong with me.. i just cant sleep well this few days! maybe after hearing what a close sister of mine told me last night, it even worsen my condition of insomnia.. was telling mom that i think i should go to the doctor if the condition worsen.. mom was telling me if i am hungry in the middle of the night that's why will be like that, or because i too stress.. i also dont know why.. BUT, i am dying to know why..
woke up, prayed, and showered.. then took a really full breakfast then at about 12pm, i headed off to Clementi for my discussion meeting.. meeting was quite GOOD today.. but a PITY that my YWD members are not present to take the picture to be send to Sensei.. only got Clara and her aunt, Vivian and WCT Zone YWD Chief, Janice..
Janice, Vivian, Clara and me!
woke up at 9.45am this morning.. to say in exact.. i like didnt sleep at all.. cause, i have been waking up every one hour.. hais! i also dont know what's wrong with me.. i just cant sleep well this few days! maybe after hearing what a close sister of mine told me last night, it even worsen my condition of insomnia.. was telling mom that i think i should go to the doctor if the condition worsen.. mom was telling me if i am hungry in the middle of the night that's why will be like that, or because i too stress.. i also dont know why.. BUT, i am dying to know why..
woke up, prayed, and showered.. then took a really full breakfast then at about 12pm, i headed off to Clementi for my discussion meeting.. meeting was quite GOOD today.. but a PITY that my YWD members are not present to take the picture to be send to Sensei.. only got Clara and her aunt, Vivian and WCT Zone YWD Chief, Janice..
Janice, Vivian, Clara and me!had a short review session.. feel so guilty that i didnt manage to do any homevisit this month.. hais! everytime, my attachment start, everything will be in a mess! :( got to chant more and send prayers to my members despite not being able to be there for them.. had a GREAT break through this week.. chanted 5hours this week! will continue to strive harder.. actually, i have target myself to do 1hour per day, still striving to do it..
after meeting, went to meet Mom at her work place.. then waited for her to finish work before we headed to Clementi central for dinner.. had chicken rice for dinner, then headed to Cake shop to get my breakfast for tomorrow.. my head really aches till going to burst! thank god got two panadols with me, if not, i'll be dead! will be on morning shift tomorrow... going to sleep le!:)
Saturday, July 26, 2008
[ That a hero lies in you... ]
That a hero lies in you...
hasnt been blogging much the past few days.. working in IMH is TIRING.. not physically but mentally.. many many things happened but i was just too TIRED working alternate shift everyday.. am getting to know the patients better.. one thing that really make me so HAPPY is i managed to convince a patient to take his medication and is already discharged.. hope you get better..
lolx.. but it's quite SCARY when patients ask you if you are attached or ask for your number.. or compliment that you are pretty or something.. if we dont look at them as psychiatric patients, actually they also very poor thing.. maybe this is call KAMRA ba..
and one thing that makes a lot of my CP mates including myself really HIGH is that - the staffs there some quite HANDSOME! hahaz! even Chinese ones from China.. hahaz! my days at IMH are really much better than in AMK hospital.. i just smile and laugh non-stop! especially when our SSN Zhenyu tease us! hahaz! we are still in the midst of planning the party for this coming friday.. hope that it will be a successful one!!=]
did many meaningful things recently.. went down to donate platelets at SGH on tuesday after my shift work.. hope can save the uncle who is suffering from Leukemia.. and out of blue, Medy sms me and ask what happened to my blog.. lolx.. didnt know he reads my blog.. i think Woanlan also got read.. but they never tag.. so i didnt know if they got read or not.. lolx! scary:X
today, back in school for Nurses' day celebration.. really in HIGH spirit.. enjoyed my LAST Nurses' Day to the fullest! dance, skit, songs, band.. rocks to the fullest.. received invitation card from TTSH to attend Nurses got home and nap awhile.. then Ben Ben called.. he has been missing in action for the past 1 week.. till i told him i knew he is with his girlfriend, therefore i also dont bother to sms him.. i know this makes him feel BAD? kekez.. anyway, at least we will still tried calling me today when he's free.. SORRY if i make you feel bad..
been a bit troubled recently.. i know i wont bother about YOUR existence le.. just be HAPPY yourself and i'll be CONTENTED! i will continue to live my everyday HAPPIER and HAPPIER.. although thinking of YOU makes me cry myself to sleep.. but i know i have no rights to be sad.. cause, we are just pure friends after all.. i think i really one of a kind.. the person like me, but i dont like him.. and the guy i like, just dont have feelings for me.. Mr "F" has been bothering me with his sms recently.. and i just choose to IGNORE.. i know i am being BAD.. but i just dont want you to have any hope.. "NO HOPE NO DISAPPOINTMENT".. sorry if i have hurt you, Mr "F"....
love this song by Mariah Carey - Hero
Hmm
Theres a hero
If you look inside your heart
You dont have to be afraid
Of what you are
Theres an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Its a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But dont let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
Youll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you
Mhhh
That a hero lies in
You
tomorrow- discussion meeting at Angela's place:)
To HER: suddenly.. i felt kind of lost that so many things has been happening to HER.. when i heard what she said, my tears almost flow down because of her.. but.. i just envy her courageous spirit.. if it's me, i will be a total LOST.. some many things happened, and yet, she swallowing all these down on her own.. i really respect your decision to bear the consequence of what you have done and still staying strong.. dont forget that you still have my SUPPORT no matter what.. although i'm much younger than you, and might not experience that much as compared to you, i will be there to lend you a listening ear okie? you must jiayou and protect whoever you need to protect okie? dont forget there's still a SISTER here to support you! jiayou le!!:)
hasnt been blogging much the past few days.. working in IMH is TIRING.. not physically but mentally.. many many things happened but i was just too TIRED working alternate shift everyday.. am getting to know the patients better.. one thing that really make me so HAPPY is i managed to convince a patient to take his medication and is already discharged.. hope you get better..
lolx.. but it's quite SCARY when patients ask you if you are attached or ask for your number.. or compliment that you are pretty or something.. if we dont look at them as psychiatric patients, actually they also very poor thing.. maybe this is call KAMRA ba..
and one thing that makes a lot of my CP mates including myself really HIGH is that - the staffs there some quite HANDSOME! hahaz! even Chinese ones from China.. hahaz! my days at IMH are really much better than in AMK hospital.. i just smile and laugh non-stop! especially when our SSN Zhenyu tease us! hahaz! we are still in the midst of planning the party for this coming friday.. hope that it will be a successful one!!=]
did many meaningful things recently.. went down to donate platelets at SGH on tuesday after my shift work.. hope can save the uncle who is suffering from Leukemia.. and out of blue, Medy sms me and ask what happened to my blog.. lolx.. didnt know he reads my blog.. i think Woanlan also got read.. but they never tag.. so i didnt know if they got read or not.. lolx! scary:X
today, back in school for Nurses' day celebration.. really in HIGH spirit.. enjoyed my LAST Nurses' Day to the fullest! dance, skit, songs, band.. rocks to the fullest.. received invitation card from TTSH to attend Nurses got home and nap awhile.. then Ben Ben called.. he has been missing in action for the past 1 week.. till i told him i knew he is with his girlfriend, therefore i also dont bother to sms him.. i know this makes him feel BAD? kekez.. anyway, at least we will still tried calling me today when he's free.. SORRY if i make you feel bad..
been a bit troubled recently.. i know i wont bother about YOUR existence le.. just be HAPPY yourself and i'll be CONTENTED! i will continue to live my everyday HAPPIER and HAPPIER.. although thinking of YOU makes me cry myself to sleep.. but i know i have no rights to be sad.. cause, we are just pure friends after all.. i think i really one of a kind.. the person like me, but i dont like him.. and the guy i like, just dont have feelings for me.. Mr "F" has been bothering me with his sms recently.. and i just choose to IGNORE.. i know i am being BAD.. but i just dont want you to have any hope.. "NO HOPE NO DISAPPOINTMENT".. sorry if i have hurt you, Mr "F"....
love this song by Mariah Carey - Hero
Hmm
Theres a hero
If you look inside your heart
You dont have to be afraid
Of what you are
Theres an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Its a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But dont let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
Youll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you
Mhhh
That a hero lies in
You
tomorrow- discussion meeting at Angela's place:)
To HER: suddenly.. i felt kind of lost that so many things has been happening to HER.. when i heard what she said, my tears almost flow down because of her.. but.. i just envy her courageous spirit.. if it's me, i will be a total LOST.. some many things happened, and yet, she swallowing all these down on her own.. i really respect your decision to bear the consequence of what you have done and still staying strong.. dont forget that you still have my SUPPORT no matter what.. although i'm much younger than you, and might not experience that much as compared to you, i will be there to lend you a listening ear okie? you must jiayou and protect whoever you need to protect okie? dont forget there's still a SISTER here to support you! jiayou le!!:)
Monday, July 21, 2008
[ 1st day at IMH... ]
1st day at IMH...
first day at IMH today.. thanks to Sook Mun and his dad that's why we do not have to worry finding our way to IMH on the first day of work.. orienatation started at IMH.. we were given some history of IMH and showed around IMH.. lunch break was at 1pm to 2pm.. it's quite scary that when you are eating.. sudden someone will just pop by to say hello to you and ask for your name.. SCARY.. i also saw one of my WD member bringing her daughter there for follow-up.. such a coincidence!
only managed to reach the ward at about 2plus 3.. stepping into the domitory was the scarest thing! all the patients start flopping towards you.. teacher is pregnant so have to also take care her.. nothing much happened today except this.. i just hope that tomorrow will be a better day!:)
will have to learn how to take care of myself and my cp mates as well as Mdm Yeo.. jiayou le everyone!! tomorrow will be on morning shift! gambatte ne!=]
first day at IMH today.. thanks to Sook Mun and his dad that's why we do not have to worry finding our way to IMH on the first day of work.. orienatation started at IMH.. we were given some history of IMH and showed around IMH.. lunch break was at 1pm to 2pm.. it's quite scary that when you are eating.. sudden someone will just pop by to say hello to you and ask for your name.. SCARY.. i also saw one of my WD member bringing her daughter there for follow-up.. such a coincidence!
only managed to reach the ward at about 2plus 3.. stepping into the domitory was the scarest thing! all the patients start flopping towards you.. teacher is pregnant so have to also take care her.. nothing much happened today except this.. i just hope that tomorrow will be a better day!:)
will have to learn how to take care of myself and my cp mates as well as Mdm Yeo.. jiayou le everyone!! tomorrow will be on morning shift! gambatte ne!=]
sook mun and me in the toilet!=]
Sunday, July 20, 2008
[ a revitalising day! ]
a revitalising day!
cant imagine i came home at around 12.30am yesterday and i slept only at 3am.. after i come home last night, didi still havent come home from work.. therefore i on the computer after doing my SUPER LATE evening gongyo.. then went offline after didi come home and Stella called and we chatted on the phone.. cant imagine one night and we make a GREAT STEP in knowing one another..
woke up quite EARLY today.. woke up at 7am to wake Xueyun up.. and went back to sleep for an hour more before i wake up.. was supposed to meet Xueyun at 9.30am and Stella at 10am.. end up, both also late.. worse was Xueyun.. i wake up purposely to wake her up.. end up, she also late.. aiyoyoz.. then took 293 to HQ.. and was so kind of Liyan to buy breakfast for us.. actually no time to eat liao.. cause the meeting is starting at 11am.. we really SWALLOWED everything down.. lolx..
meeting started at 11am.. every single RHQ did their Rara performance.. really exciting.. and NICE.. each RHQ is equally creative.. and the panel sharing.. really GOOD and i really learnt a lot.. like what they say: " we must not leave gakkai because of a bad guy we met..." true enough.. i have met endless good people and bad people in gakkai.. i do have doubts at times but i have never leave this organisation.. cause it is the place i always find myself the HAPPINESS and without any worries..
supposed to accompany Xueyun down to Orchard.. but then.. due to some unspoken reasons, have to dump her and accompany Stella for lunch.. i just feel a little FRUSTRATED over the things that happened.. why must people be like that when the incident dont concern you at all? anyway, it's OVER so i shall not talk about it anymore.. anyway, i'm really HAPPY for you Stella! you can finally put down your burden!!=] had a great time with Zixin today also.. hahaz!
talking to me how nervous i am when i am actually for my IMH posting tomorrow.. *GOSH*! just so NERVOUS! after lunch. supposed to wait for Xueyun.. but she was late.. and saw Naomi.. so i left for HQ without her.. the concert is just SO PACKED! till members and leaders are chased to the basement to watch the concert with the tv screen.. but i still enjoyed myself to the FULLEST!!! :) emcee for the day is Jeff Wong.. i also invited many guests from Mediacorp to join us.. Nick and Jeremy from Superstar, Apple and Jiu jian (our own member).. there's instrumental performance, dance and many more.. there's a little girl at the concert who is quite cute.. took a pic with her:)
after the concert.. we headed to TM mall.. Xueyun say want to get something so went to Isetan.. end up, didnt get an ideal one.. and so we decided to head for dinner.. after much discussion, we headed to Ajisen for dinner.. it's Naomi's, Xueyun and my brother's first time eating Ajisen ramen.. i also got quite sometime never eat ramen le.. had a great time catching up.. especially with Naomi.. been some time i have talk to Naomi and catch up with her.. after which, we left home seperately..
so NERVOUS over my IMH posting.. got to go sleep to prepare for war tomorrow:) 8-4pm tomorrow for orientation!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
[ 我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记.... ]
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记....
slept till quite LATE today.. i'm just too TIRED after yesterday.. though i didnt drink, i was still having HEADACHE.. i think maybe because the weather recently very WEIRD.. one minute rain, one minute sunny.. and that now that i am having attachment.. with alternate shift, i think i am collapsing soon!! stayed home the whole afternoon and was trying my BEST to finish my case-study..
guess Mdm Yeo will be back with us for IMH posting next week, therefore.. she will be asking for our log books and case study to mark.. supposed to meet Stella at 6pm at AMK.. and i totally FORGETTEN.. too CONCENTRATED on my case-study.. it's been some time since i last do case-study.. a bit BLUR now.. but i still managed to finish it in time.. and thank godness Stella smsed me to change venue, if not, i will totally forgetten that i am supposed to meet her at 6 for dinner instead of 7pm..
met her at Toa Poyah instead of AMK.. and pei her go back her house to put her lappy and we went for dinner.. Stella recommended a fish bee hoon at a coffeeshop, so we went there to makan.. and i saw one of my ex, Benjamin (Liao).. and i pretended that i didnt see him.. cause he is with another girl.. Stella kept staring at him.. so FUNNY lohz! =P took bus 88 from Toa Poyah to Hougang.. and drop at Monsfort.. some where near Li Hua jie jie.. suddenly, all my memories came back.. hais..
anyway, we walked from Hougang ave 8 to ave 10 then back to ave 8.. just couldnt find the block.. i also dont know why.. i think me and Stella got at least walked 3km for about an hour.. managed to find it after calling Mrs Tay for SOS.. then reached there, almost 9pm liao.. we have the HEART to go but 老天爷 make fun of us.. we walked from raining to no rain then rain again.. *gosh* me and Stella's legs almost broke! i told Stella.. it was like "前往西天取经的路！" hahaz! am i right?
saw Huixian (qisheng's sister) at the wake too.. and we sat down and have a short catch up.. then at about 10pm, me and Stella left for Hougang interchange.. had Bubble tea despite the super COLD weather and the bus we took, really FREEZE our body and mind.. but me and Stella still enjoyed talking to ourselves.. hahaz.. reached Toa Poyah at about 11pm.. then talked till almost 12am before i left home..
it was a day that me and Stella got to know each other BETTER and understand each other's feelings and things that are happening in our life.. well, thanks girl! thanks for sharing so much with me and listening to my stories too! please JIAYOU in every aspects of your life!! and dont forget you can always turn to me!:)
IRON LADIES rocks!:) MISSES my school clinque too!=]
tomorrow - YWD Formation Day at 11am, YMD Formation Day at 4pm..
Song: 伤心的人更伤心
失去了爱情
拥有了寂寞和无法拒绝伤痛的心
漫漫的长夜感情的缺口
如何去承受
不是没想过
要长久厮守
那一夜却吻别了你
直到我发现就从此分手
才狠狠地哭泣
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记
就能忘记为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
失去了爱情
拥有了寂寞和无法拒绝伤痛的心
漫漫的长夜感情的缺口
如何去承受
不是没想过
要长久厮守
那一夜却吻别了你
直到发现就从此分手
才狠狠地哭泣
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记
就能忘记为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
slept till quite LATE today.. i'm just too TIRED after yesterday.. though i didnt drink, i was still having HEADACHE.. i think maybe because the weather recently very WEIRD.. one minute rain, one minute sunny.. and that now that i am having attachment.. with alternate shift, i think i am collapsing soon!! stayed home the whole afternoon and was trying my BEST to finish my case-study..
guess Mdm Yeo will be back with us for IMH posting next week, therefore.. she will be asking for our log books and case study to mark.. supposed to meet Stella at 6pm at AMK.. and i totally FORGETTEN.. too CONCENTRATED on my case-study.. it's been some time since i last do case-study.. a bit BLUR now.. but i still managed to finish it in time.. and thank godness Stella smsed me to change venue, if not, i will totally forgetten that i am supposed to meet her at 6 for dinner instead of 7pm..
met her at Toa Poyah instead of AMK.. and pei her go back her house to put her lappy and we went for dinner.. Stella recommended a fish bee hoon at a coffeeshop, so we went there to makan.. and i saw one of my ex, Benjamin (Liao).. and i pretended that i didnt see him.. cause he is with another girl.. Stella kept staring at him.. so FUNNY lohz! =P took bus 88 from Toa Poyah to Hougang.. and drop at Monsfort.. some where near Li Hua jie jie.. suddenly, all my memories came back.. hais..
anyway, we walked from Hougang ave 8 to ave 10 then back to ave 8.. just couldnt find the block.. i also dont know why.. i think me and Stella got at least walked 3km for about an hour.. managed to find it after calling Mrs Tay for SOS.. then reached there, almost 9pm liao.. we have the HEART to go but 老天爷 make fun of us.. we walked from raining to no rain then rain again.. *gosh* me and Stella's legs almost broke! i told Stella.. it was like "前往西天取经的路！" hahaz! am i right?
saw Huixian (qisheng's sister) at the wake too.. and we sat down and have a short catch up.. then at about 10pm, me and Stella left for Hougang interchange.. had Bubble tea despite the super COLD weather and the bus we took, really FREEZE our body and mind.. but me and Stella still enjoyed talking to ourselves.. hahaz.. reached Toa Poyah at about 11pm.. then talked till almost 12am before i left home..
it was a day that me and Stella got to know each other BETTER and understand each other's feelings and things that are happening in our life.. well, thanks girl! thanks for sharing so much with me and listening to my stories too! please JIAYOU in every aspects of your life!! and dont forget you can always turn to me!:)
IRON LADIES rocks!:) MISSES my school clinque too!=]
tomorrow - YWD Formation Day at 11am, YMD Formation Day at 4pm..
Song: 伤心的人更伤心
失去了爱情
拥有了寂寞和无法拒绝伤痛的心
漫漫的长夜感情的缺口
如何去承受
不是没想过
要长久厮守
那一夜却吻别了你
直到我发现就从此分手
才狠狠地哭泣
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记
就能忘记为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
失去了爱情
拥有了寂寞和无法拒绝伤痛的心
漫漫的长夜感情的缺口
如何去承受
不是没想过
要长久厮守
那一夜却吻别了你
直到发现就从此分手
才狠狠地哭泣
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记
就能忘记为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
Friday, July 18, 2008
[ i knew i love you before i met you.... ]
i knew i love you before i met you....
home today in the morning.. took approved leave for today as it's Uncle Peter's wedding.. Mom and Dad supposed to go to mama's house for the tea ceremony de.. end up, only Dad went alone.. Mom's knee cap aching like mad, plus she's still unhappy over the issue of notifying us so late about his wedding.. therefore, Mom purposely slept in late and ignored Dad when he tried waking her up..
me and Mom woke up at about 9plus after Dad left home.. then i did my prayers and went downstairs to get some food to eat.. after which, i was watching tv, but my eyes are like CLOSING anytime.. so i decided to go back and nap awhile.. if not, i sure cant tahan till the wedding dinner at night.. slept till about 2.30pm before i wake up to wash up and get ready.. Mom was watching tv on a programme showing Japan.. then it's on the Sanrio Land! oh my GOD! HELLO KITTY!! i really want to save up and go Japan for a tour! GAMABATTE ne!! :)
went to shower and did my evening prayers.. then slack around awhile.. and i went to the salon near my place and give my hair a big change! lolx! i know i look more matured lahz.. but just for few hours.. i just dont want to lose out to "THEM".. dont have to guess who are they.. they are my aunt's children - my cousins.. i'm still with Jian Long.. Jian Ye and Feng Ling, i really cannot communicate much.. especially Feng Ling.. anyway, i just dislike their " HAO LIAN" attitude.. what is it so PROUD to have GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS? it became LOH's FAMILY BIG ISSUE when Aunty Jing said that their children bringing their GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS along to Uncle Peter's Wedding..
well, it's OVER le.. as the wedding has arrived today.. took cab with Mom and met Didi at Park Mall.. and from there, we walked over to Fort Canning " The Legends".. quite NICE the place.. BUT, Uncle Peter's Wedding is in the open space.. therefore a bit WARM! reached there, just NICE - Cocktail session.. had some drinks.. and saw many of my malaysia's relatives!! =] dinner only started at about 9pm.. and Uncle Peter actually hired a band to perform for the dinner.. one of the vocal's voice not bad.. heard many GREAT songs! =] the food itself isnt that nice.. i dont really like it.. even shark's fin also not up to standard.. Zen , my second cousin, performed today with Jian Long's girlfriend.. performance by them quite okie.. helps to lighten the ambience a little..
dinner finished at about 11plus.. really really TIRED.. i didnt even have chance to talk to the bride and groom.. and didnt even take any pictures with them.. so SAD.. anyway, 希望他们早生贵子！:)
me at home getting ready for the dinner=]
see my hair? i love it!:)
at the washroom at Fort Canning Park! *zi lian*
all my pictures of the day! LOVE it! =]
tomorrow - meeting Stella to attend Ms Tay's mom's funeral wake...
home today in the morning.. took approved leave for today as it's Uncle Peter's wedding.. Mom and Dad supposed to go to mama's house for the tea ceremony de.. end up, only Dad went alone.. Mom's knee cap aching like mad, plus she's still unhappy over the issue of notifying us so late about his wedding.. therefore, Mom purposely slept in late and ignored Dad when he tried waking her up..
me and Mom woke up at about 9plus after Dad left home.. then i did my prayers and went downstairs to get some food to eat.. after which, i was watching tv, but my eyes are like CLOSING anytime.. so i decided to go back and nap awhile.. if not, i sure cant tahan till the wedding dinner at night.. slept till about 2.30pm before i wake up to wash up and get ready.. Mom was watching tv on a programme showing Japan.. then it's on the Sanrio Land! oh my GOD! HELLO KITTY!! i really want to save up and go Japan for a tour! GAMABATTE ne!! :)
went to shower and did my evening prayers.. then slack around awhile.. and i went to the salon near my place and give my hair a big change! lolx! i know i look more matured lahz.. but just for few hours.. i just dont want to lose out to "THEM".. dont have to guess who are they.. they are my aunt's children - my cousins.. i'm still with Jian Long.. Jian Ye and Feng Ling, i really cannot communicate much.. especially Feng Ling.. anyway, i just dislike their " HAO LIAN" attitude.. what is it so PROUD to have GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS? it became LOH's FAMILY BIG ISSUE when Aunty Jing said that their children bringing their GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS along to Uncle Peter's Wedding..
well, it's OVER le.. as the wedding has arrived today.. took cab with Mom and met Didi at Park Mall.. and from there, we walked over to Fort Canning " The Legends".. quite NICE the place.. BUT, Uncle Peter's Wedding is in the open space.. therefore a bit WARM! reached there, just NICE - Cocktail session.. had some drinks.. and saw many of my malaysia's relatives!! =] dinner only started at about 9pm.. and Uncle Peter actually hired a band to perform for the dinner.. one of the vocal's voice not bad.. heard many GREAT songs! =] the food itself isnt that nice.. i dont really like it.. even shark's fin also not up to standard.. Zen , my second cousin, performed today with Jian Long's girlfriend.. performance by them quite okie.. helps to lighten the ambience a little..
dinner finished at about 11plus.. really really TIRED.. i didnt even have chance to talk to the bride and groom.. and didnt even take any pictures with them.. so SAD.. anyway, 希望他们早生贵子！:)
me at home getting ready for the dinner=]
see my hair? i love it!:)
at the washroom at Fort Canning Park! *zi lian*
all my pictures of the day! LOVE it! =]
tomorrow - meeting Stella to attend Ms Tay's mom's funeral wake...
Thursday, July 17, 2008
[ *** came for a REASON! ]
*** came for a REASON!
People comes into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships
and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
People comes into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships
and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
on afternoon shift today.. woke up at about 9.30am this morning.. showered, prayered and went to buy breakfast for myself, mom and didi.. then left for work at about 12.05.. hmmm.. think of the words above, these words strike me after the dialogue with Eunice yesterday night.. i think Eunice has really make me understand that *** had came into my life for a reason and made me learnt an important lesson in my life.. guess, i'll be able to MOVE ON now! :)
1-3pm was the briefing by Mdm Chia on our coming IMH posting.. and she did ask us about the feedback regarding working in the ward.. well, i did learnt quite a lot but it isnt a good place to work in.. we shared lots of funny experiences and incidents we encountered with Mdm Chia.. i guess if Mdm Yeo is around, she will laugh till her baby will kick her in the stomach.. lolx..
then back into the ward.. brought my AH MAs out to watch tv.. hahaz.. and i spent about 1 and a half hours with them watching tv! shiok right? who will have such good rights to watch tv with patients during working hours? only students have! and during special posting.. hahaz! cause you will be slacking around and lazying around..
went for first break with Puteri, Carol and Huda.. was FUN and really TIRED.. then after which, we lazy around.. bring few patients to toilet and we did hypocount for each other! lolx! and my hypocount is only 5.8! after dinner somemore.. hais.. the range for fasting glucose is 4-6.. means before meal.. then after meal should increase about 2.2 to 4 like that.. gosh manz! mine quite low.. would means if i never eat, should be below 4 i guess.. means i got hypoglycaemia.. hais.. and i think my HB still low now.. i'm just afraid that if i continue to be like that, i will have disorders of the blood like anaemia or something.. hais!!
mom's telling me again that i should not be donating blood anymore.. and i was still thinking of donating platelets next week.. oh manz! think i have to do it secretly AGAIN! today is my last day in the ward.. i must declare that i am NOT WORKING tomorrow!! YES! cause my paternal uncle is getting married tomorrow!! and i'll be attending:)
TOMORROW - MORNING: going mama's house for the tea ceremony. NIGHT: Uncle Peter's Wedding at Fort Canning Park , The Legends!=]
i guess *** have came into my life for a REASON.. i know your job is DONE and that it's TIME for me to MOVE ON! thanks making me LEARN so MUCH and grow into a STRONGER person.. i hope *** will be HAPPY too! :)
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
[ 你那么好却只能做朋友! ]
你那么好却只能做朋友!
i didnt know why i have chosen this as my title of the day.. well.. i just feel this was something i feel.. Xueyun, Stella, you should know what i mean right? hahaz! AM shift today.. showered many patients today.. and got myself really DRENCHED! everyone is rushing to take shower before eating breakfast in my cubicle.. i really got a bit "DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO" at first.. cause dont know should bring who first.. anyway, still managed to finish bathing them.. and did help Sook Mun as well!:)
wanted to visit the Physio department and take a look.. BUT, that NC (Nurse Clinician) just so PARTICULAR.. till i also give up liao.. if Teacher can be there, it will be GOOD! went for 2nd break with Sook Mun and Puteri.. bought Mee Goreng and a pau.. and bought a packet of fish crackers from the mama shop also.. shared with Sook Mun the fish crackers.. Sister Bee Hoon saw us eating the tibits.. i thought she will scold us say we eat junk food or something.. but luckily she didnt.. LOLX!
had lots of FUN today at work.. with many JOKES by my DEAREST AH MAs! especially one Ah Ma of mine.. had a hard time waking up to have her lunch.. at first the maid so SCARED.. thought she no breath liao.. then i faster feel her carotid pulse.. lolx! still have.. then we tried shaking her.. tickle her.. open her eyes.. then she woke up after we tried for 15minutes.. then she fall asleep while eating AGAIN!! lolx!! FUNNY lohz.. i think she's just TOO TIRED cause she always very ACTIVE in the night.. till she has to sleep at the corridor.. if no nurse is looking after her, she might even fall off from the bed..
finished work at 3pm today.. and went off to TTSH.. and thanks Sook Mun for the ice-cream treat:) took 851 to TTSH.. and mom called to say she paid the bill le.. YES! can start doing my case study le.. went up to the HR department to submit my results plus amanda's.. then call Huiwen.. thank god i got her in time.. if i never call her.. maybe she will leave TTSH le.. we met up outside kopitium and headed to Novena Square.. went to Andersen's Ice-cream.. and we had FONDUE!!!
the COUPLE FONDUE for 2!
(consists of 5 scoops of ice-cream, 2 ice-cream cones, cookies, mashmallow, fruits - kiwi, banana, honeydew and strawberry!)
it's was really NICE.. although my teeth ACHES like MAD because of my wisdom tooth.. shall find time to go and see a dentist le.. think it's getting WORSE.. really serve me right lahz.. is i too LAZY and too SCARED to visit a dentist liao.. the SHORT catch up was GREAT!! really HAPPY to meet up with HUIWEN! and thanks for the FONDUE treat!!! :) we shall meet up SOON again OKIE? =] headed home after that.. reached home at about 5.30pm like that... then showered and went to meet Eunice at Northpoint..
supposed to be visiting a believer.. but she's sick.. so Eunice and me meet up for dialogue and dinner.. had our really fulfilling dinner at Delifrance! and i ate steak with salad, baked potato (my FAVOURITE) and ice lemon tea! Eunice ate seafood baked rice!! :) the catch up was GREAT! and thanks Eunice for the dinner treat and the gifts from Japan!! nice nice! thanks for that again.. if i didnt meet up with Eunice, i wouldnt know that i have grown into a much more COURAGEOUS girl and that i have matured quite a lot as compared to the me during Chingay'07..
i used to be very very very EMOTIONAL.. friends who know for very long will know that i am a WELL-KNOWN CRYBABY! lolx.. i still CRY quite EASILY now.. be it sad or angry or happy.. BUT, i guess i have become STRONGER!! and choose to put my past failures and happiness down and MOVE ON!!! MOVE ON MOVE ON!!!! :)
i will try my BEST to stay HAPPY everyday! =] shall start to challenge myself for the 1 million daimoku!! and finish reading the book!! =] GAMBATTE ne!! :)
the book i am reading NOW! =]
the HAPPINESS book!! it's a 1million daimoku record book that looks like a bank book!! =]
a notepad with the word "Dream and hope"!
tomorrow - AFTERNOON SHIFT! :(
title: 朋友变情人再变朋友
安静的房间还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头
为何分手后回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
爱上你以后愉悦很轻松
现实太残酷梦中你会拥抱我
当爱上以后如今我们分手
我变成情歌手
是唱太多太多bala歌
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能显真格
你和我以前是朋友
心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能写真的
朋友变情人再变朋友
祝我们快乐!!!
i didnt know why i have chosen this as my title of the day.. well.. i just feel this was something i feel.. Xueyun, Stella, you should know what i mean right? hahaz! AM shift today.. showered many patients today.. and got myself really DRENCHED! everyone is rushing to take shower before eating breakfast in my cubicle.. i really got a bit "DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO" at first.. cause dont know should bring who first.. anyway, still managed to finish bathing them.. and did help Sook Mun as well!:)
wanted to visit the Physio department and take a look.. BUT, that NC (Nurse Clinician) just so PARTICULAR.. till i also give up liao.. if Teacher can be there, it will be GOOD! went for 2nd break with Sook Mun and Puteri.. bought Mee Goreng and a pau.. and bought a packet of fish crackers from the mama shop also.. shared with Sook Mun the fish crackers.. Sister Bee Hoon saw us eating the tibits.. i thought she will scold us say we eat junk food or something.. but luckily she didnt.. LOLX!
had lots of FUN today at work.. with many JOKES by my DEAREST AH MAs! especially one Ah Ma of mine.. had a hard time waking up to have her lunch.. at first the maid so SCARED.. thought she no breath liao.. then i faster feel her carotid pulse.. lolx! still have.. then we tried shaking her.. tickle her.. open her eyes.. then she woke up after we tried for 15minutes.. then she fall asleep while eating AGAIN!! lolx!! FUNNY lohz.. i think she's just TOO TIRED cause she always very ACTIVE in the night.. till she has to sleep at the corridor.. if no nurse is looking after her, she might even fall off from the bed..
finished work at 3pm today.. and went off to TTSH.. and thanks Sook Mun for the ice-cream treat:) took 851 to TTSH.. and mom called to say she paid the bill le.. YES! can start doing my case study le.. went up to the HR department to submit my results plus amanda's.. then call Huiwen.. thank god i got her in time.. if i never call her.. maybe she will leave TTSH le.. we met up outside kopitium and headed to Novena Square.. went to Andersen's Ice-cream.. and we had FONDUE!!!
the COUPLE FONDUE for 2!
(consists of 5 scoops of ice-cream, 2 ice-cream cones, cookies, mashmallow, fruits - kiwi, banana, honeydew and strawberry!)
it's was really NICE.. although my teeth ACHES like MAD because of my wisdom tooth.. shall find time to go and see a dentist le.. think it's getting WORSE.. really serve me right lahz.. is i too LAZY and too SCARED to visit a dentist liao.. the SHORT catch up was GREAT!! really HAPPY to meet up with HUIWEN! and thanks for the FONDUE treat!!! :) we shall meet up SOON again OKIE? =] headed home after that.. reached home at about 5.30pm like that... then showered and went to meet Eunice at Northpoint..
supposed to be visiting a believer.. but she's sick.. so Eunice and me meet up for dialogue and dinner.. had our really fulfilling dinner at Delifrance! and i ate steak with salad, baked potato (my FAVOURITE) and ice lemon tea! Eunice ate seafood baked rice!! :) the catch up was GREAT! and thanks Eunice for the dinner treat and the gifts from Japan!! nice nice! thanks for that again.. if i didnt meet up with Eunice, i wouldnt know that i have grown into a much more COURAGEOUS girl and that i have matured quite a lot as compared to the me during Chingay'07..
i used to be very very very EMOTIONAL.. friends who know for very long will know that i am a WELL-KNOWN CRYBABY! lolx.. i still CRY quite EASILY now.. be it sad or angry or happy.. BUT, i guess i have become STRONGER!! and choose to put my past failures and happiness down and MOVE ON!!! MOVE ON MOVE ON!!!! :)
i will try my BEST to stay HAPPY everyday! =] shall start to challenge myself for the 1 million daimoku!! and finish reading the book!! =] GAMBATTE ne!! :)
the book i am reading NOW! =]
the HAPPINESS book!! it's a 1million daimoku record book that looks like a bank book!! =]
a notepad with the word "Dream and hope"!
tomorrow - AFTERNOON SHIFT! :(
title: 朋友变情人再变朋友
安静的房间还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头
为何分手后回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
爱上你以后愉悦很轻松
现实太残酷梦中你会拥抱我
当爱上以后如今我们分手
我变成情歌手
是唱太多太多bala歌
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能显真格
你和我以前是朋友
心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能写真的
朋友变情人再变朋友
祝我们快乐!!!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
[ 你把我的孤单都消灭，全都消灭！]
你把我的孤单都消灭，全都消灭!
am shift today.. FORCED myself to wake up.. cause yesterday on afternoon shift.. and today morning.. quite BUSY today... parameters, shower patients, serve diet etc.. today.. went for 2nd break.. with Puteri, Carol and Huda.. 1st time go eat with Carol and on the same shift as her.. she's kind of FUNNY.. think i get to know her better today:) kind of STONE today.. cause not enough sleep yesterday i guess.. what to do? hais..
have yet to do anything for my case study.. *GOSH* manz.. plus mom can only go pay the bill tomorrow when she's working half a day.. cause she couldnt find the bill.. finished work at 3pm.. then headed home.. and on my work out, bought chocolate chip ice-cream.. think my MOOD is not too good today also.. TTSH called today and ask for my results slip.. so headed home and went to scan my results.. have to go down to TTSH HR tomorrow to submit my results slip.. SGH called today also.. and asked if i can go down to donate my platelets.. think will be going down next week..
then suddenly, i gana FLU and my eyes turned really RED and ITCHY.. supposed to homevisit a SD member with Eunice.. BUT, end up have to fly her aeroplane halfway! i'm SORRY!.. need to makan my dinner and i want to go sleep le!
FLU please go away FASTER!!!!!
Tomorrow - MORNING shift! :)
Title: 哄我入睡
那年深深爱过
也深深痛过
爱完了然后她走了
时间哗啦啦过
泪也刷啦啦流
她忘了把心还我
把心细细上锁
也密密封过
为什么眼泪还在流
爱是笑呵呵的风
然后哎呀呀的痛
直到你出现拯救我
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着我哄我入睡
我的世界每天笑
笑到累累得很满足才甘愿
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着哄我入睡
你的笑容我一定很宝贝
从今天到永远
永远不会疲倦
那天我眼泪偷偷滴在碗中
你做了刀削面给了我
刀削面就像你的深刻温柔
越削薄就越甜越感动
P.S. VICTORY = DETERMINATION x PRAYER x ACTION
am shift today.. FORCED myself to wake up.. cause yesterday on afternoon shift.. and today morning.. quite BUSY today... parameters, shower patients, serve diet etc.. today.. went for 2nd break.. with Puteri, Carol and Huda.. 1st time go eat with Carol and on the same shift as her.. she's kind of FUNNY.. think i get to know her better today:) kind of STONE today.. cause not enough sleep yesterday i guess.. what to do? hais..
have yet to do anything for my case study.. *GOSH* manz.. plus mom can only go pay the bill tomorrow when she's working half a day.. cause she couldnt find the bill.. finished work at 3pm.. then headed home.. and on my work out, bought chocolate chip ice-cream.. think my MOOD is not too good today also.. TTSH called today and ask for my results slip.. so headed home and went to scan my results.. have to go down to TTSH HR tomorrow to submit my results slip.. SGH called today also.. and asked if i can go down to donate my platelets.. think will be going down next week..
then suddenly, i gana FLU and my eyes turned really RED and ITCHY.. supposed to homevisit a SD member with Eunice.. BUT, end up have to fly her aeroplane halfway! i'm SORRY!.. need to makan my dinner and i want to go sleep le!
FLU please go away FASTER!!!!!
Tomorrow - MORNING shift! :)
Title: 哄我入睡
那年深深爱过
也深深痛过
爱完了然后她走了
时间哗啦啦过
泪也刷啦啦流
她忘了把心还我
把心细细上锁
也密密封过
为什么眼泪还在流
爱是笑呵呵的风
然后哎呀呀的痛
直到你出现拯救我
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着我哄我入睡
我的世界每天笑
笑到累累得很满足才甘愿
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着哄我入睡
你的笑容我一定很宝贝
从今天到永远
永远不会疲倦
那天我眼泪偷偷滴在碗中
你做了刀削面给了我
刀削面就像你的深刻温柔
越削薄就越甜越感动
P.S. VICTORY = DETERMINATION x PRAYER x ACTION
Monday, July 14, 2008
[ 面包或爱情？ ]
面包或爱情？
on afternoon shift today.. was HAPPY that i can sleep in a bit later and turn in a bit late yesterday.. BUT, it was NOT really that good to be on afternoon shift on a MONDAY.. cause it's kind of boring.. what is needed to be done will be done on the morning.. like showering and stuff.. and i really HATE afternoon shift in this hospital.. cause of the breaktime i guess..
woke up really early today despite sleeping like about 11plus yesterday.. cause i forgetten that i havent iron my uniform.. so i woke up like 8.45am i guess.. iron my clothes.. showered, prayed and went down to buy my makan.. got home and realised my internet and cable tv is down.. cause Dad was away in Cambodia few days back and didnt pay the bill before setting off.. *diaoz*.. it's common.. Mdm Yeo on hospitalisation leave this week.. i believe we will have a hard time doing the skills.. and everyone will turn a bit out of control.. cause we are really like orphans now..
it's NORMAL that students tends to slack around when the powerful pair of eyes isnt around to stare and look! hahaz.. this is STUDENTS! as usual, we just talked to patients, bring them to toilet and help to serve dinner and stuff.. went for 1st break today.. and when i came back from the break.. took parameters for 2 cubicles.. happy! and think soon my manual BP will be very PPO!:)
an UNHAPPY day today i should say.. hais! i just dont understand why must be do things to make people happy and yet i myself is not happy? i'm really TIRED to be so ANGEL.. i also wish sometimes i can throw tantrum and give people an unhappy face that actually i know how to be angry.. it's not everything i must give in to you.. cause you hold the same status as me as well! GET IT STRAIGHT INTO YOUR BRAIN! ARGH!
hais.. one week only.. and i am TIRED le.. TIRED of being nice..
Title: 疼你的责任
每次你任性时说的一些话
你知道那有多伤人吗
但我顶多只气个三分钟吧
最后依然体贴的送你回家
有时想如果我不是一直让
你也许会懂得学着体谅
但是我完全无法硬着心肠
做得让你有一点难过失望
总觉得有疼你的责任
要你是最快乐最单纯的人
因为你让我的心变得丰盛
原来不奢望的变成可能
总觉得有疼你的责任
让你做最轻松最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一种信任
爱得了解包容
才算爱得完整
tomorrow - Morning shift! :(
answer: 我终究选择了面包..... 或许是我已觉悟了吧！
on afternoon shift today.. was HAPPY that i can sleep in a bit later and turn in a bit late yesterday.. BUT, it was NOT really that good to be on afternoon shift on a MONDAY.. cause it's kind of boring.. what is needed to be done will be done on the morning.. like showering and stuff.. and i really HATE afternoon shift in this hospital.. cause of the breaktime i guess..
woke up really early today despite sleeping like about 11plus yesterday.. cause i forgetten that i havent iron my uniform.. so i woke up like 8.45am i guess.. iron my clothes.. showered, prayed and went down to buy my makan.. got home and realised my internet and cable tv is down.. cause Dad was away in Cambodia few days back and didnt pay the bill before setting off.. *diaoz*.. it's common.. Mdm Yeo on hospitalisation leave this week.. i believe we will have a hard time doing the skills.. and everyone will turn a bit out of control.. cause we are really like orphans now..
it's NORMAL that students tends to slack around when the powerful pair of eyes isnt around to stare and look! hahaz.. this is STUDENTS! as usual, we just talked to patients, bring them to toilet and help to serve dinner and stuff.. went for 1st break today.. and when i came back from the break.. took parameters for 2 cubicles.. happy! and think soon my manual BP will be very PPO!:)
an UNHAPPY day today i should say.. hais! i just dont understand why must be do things to make people happy and yet i myself is not happy? i'm really TIRED to be so ANGEL.. i also wish sometimes i can throw tantrum and give people an unhappy face that actually i know how to be angry.. it's not everything i must give in to you.. cause you hold the same status as me as well! GET IT STRAIGHT INTO YOUR BRAIN! ARGH!
hais.. one week only.. and i am TIRED le.. TIRED of being nice..
Title: 疼你的责任
每次你任性时说的一些话
你知道那有多伤人吗
但我顶多只气个三分钟吧
最后依然体贴的送你回家
有时想如果我不是一直让
你也许会懂得学着体谅
但是我完全无法硬着心肠
做得让你有一点难过失望
总觉得有疼你的责任
要你是最快乐最单纯的人
因为你让我的心变得丰盛
原来不奢望的变成可能
总觉得有疼你的责任
让你做最轻松最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一种信任
爱得了解包容
才算爱得完整
tomorrow - Morning shift! :(
answer: 我终究选择了面包..... 或许是我已觉悟了吧！
Sunday, July 13, 2008
[ happy birthday HARRY LOH!!!:) ]
happy birthday HARRY LOH!!!:)
didnt post yesterday.. cause nothing interesting really happen.. except that i actually stayed home with mom! i also dont know why.. too LAZY.. if mom's not home, maybe i would have went with didi to eat sakura buffet together with his girlfriend.. well, just want to be FILIAL once in a blue moon.. and went Khatib's pasa malam with mom together.. that's all! :)
it's a really SIGNIFICANT day! hahaz! it's my brother's birthday lahz.. nothing BIG DEAL! but it's a time when we can eat out together! =] Dad's back from Cambodia only tonight.. so ya.. he will miss out the FUN! =] dont be JEALOUS! woke up quite early today.. cause have to be at Senja kaikan at 9am although the meeting is at 10am.. supposed to meet one member but in the end, she couldnt make it.. didnt arrange to Ann Nee but still met her at Yishun bus interchange.. took bus 171 to Senja kaikan.. and waited for Wei Zhong to come before we go through one round for the HR sharing..
the sharing was quite interesting.. i felt so HAPPY sharing with them the HR.. it also helps to motivate me to read more!! :) and really learnt a lot today.. after the meeting, rushed home.. Didi was throwing tantrum.. me and mom wanted to bring him to eat Indonesian food but he dont want.. he insisted on eating others.. he said he has sore throat, yet he wants to eat either steamboat or Fish N Co.. RIDICULOUS.. pay money treat him eat still must tolerant his NONSENSE! end up, we decided to eat 鼎太丰 at Tampines Mall..
ate many thing.. fried rice, chicken soup and xiao long bao!!!!! =] love love!! really LOVE it.. then we went to shop around.. and didi saw Pinwen.. i didnt even notice him.. it was Didi who saw him.. lolx.. went to shop around at BHG and Isetan.. and didi wanted to buy a new pair of ear piece.. so went to Best.. and end up, mom got us MP4 players!! actually wanted to buy the Creative Zen 2GB one at $128 de.. cause i intend to buy external memory card.. if buy the 4GB de, the file types they can view only one type.. but end up, i didnt get the Creative one.. and bought the Samsung 2GB mp4 the salesperson recommended..
this is the mp4! model no: YP-S3JAB!! :)
actually got 5 colours - pink, blue, green, white and black.. both didi and me chosen the same colour - BLACK! cause the pink, green and black look so fake.. the salesperson also recommended another model - YP-T10 de.. got Bluetooth function i think.. but, i think i wont need it.. so this one is good enough! *CONTENTED* can play games somemore!!
headed home after that.. cause rushing to watch " 这里发现爱"!! *NICE* as usual.. and make me CRY again lohz! as usual lahz.. i CRYBABY.. and gets EMO easily.. lolx!! then watched one of a show where i saw 品冠's singing.. and recall many songs i have heard before.. *NICE* heard the lyrics of the songs.. really 感同身受 suddenly.. i also dont know.. a song to recommend!=]
title: 无可救药
暗恋是一种礼貌
暗地里盖一座城堡
然后再当你的警卫跑腿和小猫
随时你要我重关电脑
随时你要我随传
随到买面包鸡排和水饺
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ah BOY!:)
P.S It is not things that are difficult the we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that things are difficult.
didnt post yesterday.. cause nothing interesting really happen.. except that i actually stayed home with mom! i also dont know why.. too LAZY.. if mom's not home, maybe i would have went with didi to eat sakura buffet together with his girlfriend.. well, just want to be FILIAL once in a blue moon.. and went Khatib's pasa malam with mom together.. that's all! :)
it's a really SIGNIFICANT day! hahaz! it's my brother's birthday lahz.. nothing BIG DEAL! but it's a time when we can eat out together! =] Dad's back from Cambodia only tonight.. so ya.. he will miss out the FUN! =] dont be JEALOUS! woke up quite early today.. cause have to be at Senja kaikan at 9am although the meeting is at 10am.. supposed to meet one member but in the end, she couldnt make it.. didnt arrange to Ann Nee but still met her at Yishun bus interchange.. took bus 171 to Senja kaikan.. and waited for Wei Zhong to come before we go through one round for the HR sharing..
the sharing was quite interesting.. i felt so HAPPY sharing with them the HR.. it also helps to motivate me to read more!! :) and really learnt a lot today.. after the meeting, rushed home.. Didi was throwing tantrum.. me and mom wanted to bring him to eat Indonesian food but he dont want.. he insisted on eating others.. he said he has sore throat, yet he wants to eat either steamboat or Fish N Co.. RIDICULOUS.. pay money treat him eat still must tolerant his NONSENSE! end up, we decided to eat 鼎太丰 at Tampines Mall..
ate many thing.. fried rice, chicken soup and xiao long bao!!!!! =] love love!! really LOVE it.. then we went to shop around.. and didi saw Pinwen.. i didnt even notice him.. it was Didi who saw him.. lolx.. went to shop around at BHG and Isetan.. and didi wanted to buy a new pair of ear piece.. so went to Best.. and end up, mom got us MP4 players!! actually wanted to buy the Creative Zen 2GB one at $128 de.. cause i intend to buy external memory card.. if buy the 4GB de, the file types they can view only one type.. but end up, i didnt get the Creative one.. and bought the Samsung 2GB mp4 the salesperson recommended..
this is the mp4! model no: YP-S3JAB!! :)actually got 5 colours - pink, blue, green, white and black.. both didi and me chosen the same colour - BLACK! cause the pink, green and black look so fake.. the salesperson also recommended another model - YP-T10 de.. got Bluetooth function i think.. but, i think i wont need it.. so this one is good enough! *CONTENTED* can play games somemore!!
headed home after that.. cause rushing to watch " 这里发现爱"!! *NICE* as usual.. and make me CRY again lohz! as usual lahz.. i CRYBABY.. and gets EMO easily.. lolx!! then watched one of a show where i saw 品冠's singing.. and recall many songs i have heard before.. *NICE* heard the lyrics of the songs.. really 感同身受 suddenly.. i also dont know.. a song to recommend!=]
title: 无可救药
暗恋是一种礼貌
暗地里盖一座城堡
然后再当你的警卫跑腿和小猫
随时你要我重关电脑
随时你要我随传
随到买面包鸡排和水饺
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ah BOY!:)
P.S It is not things that are difficult the we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that things are difficult.
Friday, July 11, 2008
[ 想你是临睡的习惯! ]
想你是临睡的习惯!
was busy on the phone yesterday.. one after another.. first was Ben Ben.. then was Ms Chow.. then was Sakinah.. then Ben Ben again.. really felt so FRUSTRATED over the roster assigned for the NDP First Aid.. well, anyway, it's over liao.. so i shall not talk about it anymore.. slept at 12am this morning and wake up at 9am.. to prepare my dinner.. lolx.. cause will be working afternoon shift today.. and the food selling the canteen really is EXPENSIVE and not nice! if i dont eat well, i wont have the mood to work..
asked mom to cook more rice for me last night.. and i reheated the rice..then steamed some luncheon meat and use the oven to heat the popcorn chicken... that will be my SIMPLE dinner.. BUT, i know i will be happy eating it.. then, i went to shower and prayed.. actually, wanted to go down to buy my breakfast.. BUT, i am just LAZY after waking up so early.. so decided to cook maggi noodles to eat.. and put some mushroom and luncheon meat in!! =P
left work at 12pm.. the SUN is HOT! and i just feel like my skin is BURNING.. Mdm Yeo left early today.. and we are left with no teacher to take care.. must depend on experienced staffs to help us with our skills.. work is quite occupied today.. not really busy but just occupied.. chatting with patients, doing parameters, bringing patients to toilet, changing and turning.. and i did dressings today for one patient! =]
the AH MAs in my cubicle are just CUTE! and two of them are discharging tomorrow! so happy for them!! and today, i discovered a diagnosis that i never thought it will exist.. it's CA appendix, means appendix cancer.. gosh manz! appendix has not use to the body and yet such diagnosis exists.. really SUFFER for nothing.. guess this is call KARMA ba!=X
dinner break was at 6-7pm today.. there is some unhappiness for the breaktime.. everyone is hungry and are rushing to go for first break.. well, people just tends to be selfish at times.. dinner was with Puteri, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. we had a good time gossiping and laughing!! lolx!!! =P was looking through my CP log bok and was trying to write 11/07/08 and i wrote it as 11/09/08.. sept 11 is a day i hate.. cause it reminds me of ***... but i dont know why i will write this also.. had a great with Sook Mun today.. didnt know we got so much things in common!! =P
finished work only 9.20pm.. as Brother called us to his office for some teaching.. and my back just aches like mad! and i'm having a terrible flu.. stupid ben ben was saying me that how can i be a nurse when i am so weak.. thanks lohz.. this kind of BESTIE also have.. hais! misfortunate ar!=P kidding only!!=]
very tired.. got to go and sleep liao!! no plans tomorrow yet!! =P
a old song which i like NOW!
title: 想你是临睡的习惯
寂寞是临睡的习惯
习惯是一个人守着
冰冷的床和烟灰缸
没有你的孤单
想你在这样的夜晚
打开窗吹着冷风
故意把灯关上
试着想像你笑的模样
不懂我的爱在你生命
中占据多少份量
让你哭泣却是我心深处最痛的伤
最残酷的惩罚
i will never try to break your heart
我不愿这样
让爱情不由自主
陷入一场
两败俱伤的战
i will never try to break your heart
我真的不想
再面对没有你的寂寞夜晚
烟雾迷茫的孤单
was busy on the phone yesterday.. one after another.. first was Ben Ben.. then was Ms Chow.. then was Sakinah.. then Ben Ben again.. really felt so FRUSTRATED over the roster assigned for the NDP First Aid.. well, anyway, it's over liao.. so i shall not talk about it anymore.. slept at 12am this morning and wake up at 9am.. to prepare my dinner.. lolx.. cause will be working afternoon shift today.. and the food selling the canteen really is EXPENSIVE and not nice! if i dont eat well, i wont have the mood to work..
asked mom to cook more rice for me last night.. and i reheated the rice..then steamed some luncheon meat and use the oven to heat the popcorn chicken... that will be my SIMPLE dinner.. BUT, i know i will be happy eating it.. then, i went to shower and prayed.. actually, wanted to go down to buy my breakfast.. BUT, i am just LAZY after waking up so early.. so decided to cook maggi noodles to eat.. and put some mushroom and luncheon meat in!! =P
left work at 12pm.. the SUN is HOT! and i just feel like my skin is BURNING.. Mdm Yeo left early today.. and we are left with no teacher to take care.. must depend on experienced staffs to help us with our skills.. work is quite occupied today.. not really busy but just occupied.. chatting with patients, doing parameters, bringing patients to toilet, changing and turning.. and i did dressings today for one patient! =]
the AH MAs in my cubicle are just CUTE! and two of them are discharging tomorrow! so happy for them!! and today, i discovered a diagnosis that i never thought it will exist.. it's CA appendix, means appendix cancer.. gosh manz! appendix has not use to the body and yet such diagnosis exists.. really SUFFER for nothing.. guess this is call KARMA ba!=X
dinner break was at 6-7pm today.. there is some unhappiness for the breaktime.. everyone is hungry and are rushing to go for first break.. well, people just tends to be selfish at times.. dinner was with Puteri, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. we had a good time gossiping and laughing!! lolx!!! =P was looking through my CP log bok and was trying to write 11/07/08 and i wrote it as 11/09/08.. sept 11 is a day i hate.. cause it reminds me of ***... but i dont know why i will write this also.. had a great with Sook Mun today.. didnt know we got so much things in common!! =P
finished work only 9.20pm.. as Brother called us to his office for some teaching.. and my back just aches like mad! and i'm having a terrible flu.. stupid ben ben was saying me that how can i be a nurse when i am so weak.. thanks lohz.. this kind of BESTIE also have.. hais! misfortunate ar!=P kidding only!!=]
very tired.. got to go and sleep liao!! no plans tomorrow yet!! =P
a old song which i like NOW!
title: 想你是临睡的习惯
寂寞是临睡的习惯
习惯是一个人守着
冰冷的床和烟灰缸
没有你的孤单
想你在这样的夜晚
打开窗吹着冷风
故意把灯关上
试着想像你笑的模样
不懂我的爱在你生命
中占据多少份量
让你哭泣却是我心深处最痛的伤
最残酷的惩罚
i will never try to break your heart
我不愿这样
让爱情不由自主
陷入一场
两败俱伤的战
i will never try to break your heart
我真的不想
再面对没有你的寂寞夜晚
烟雾迷茫的孤单
Thursday, July 10, 2008
[ 因为讨厌你所以必须离开你！]
因为讨厌你所以必须离开你！
as usual.. i couldnt wake up today despite sleeping at 10pm last night.. took quite some time to fall asleep.. think i'm still used to sleeping late and waking up late.. woke up at 5.15am this morning and showered.. had bread spread with kaya today for breakfast.. i know i cant leave without eating breakfast.. if not i sure will HYPO later.. headache is getting better today.. BUT still will feel giddy sometimes..
showered a few patients today.. and as usual.. chit chat with patients and change them and bring them to toilet.. and had a great chat with SN Kevin too! =] My patients were really CUTE!! when they see me, they will say: " 小妹来了！" kekez.. they are so CUTE.. and seeing them makes me SMILE from my HEART!! =P but when i see them cry, my HEART feel like crying also.. sobx(T.T)
had my lunch at 11am this morning.. the food at the canteen in the hospital really cannot make it.. it's so EXPENSIVE and yet NOT NICE at all!! hais! got to bring home food tomorrow for afternoon shift.. got to do a few skills today.. although Mdm Yeo is not around to supervise us.. and did blood transfusion too! =] but i am SAD cause patient has to be on blood transfusion.. hais.. and it's so KIND of SSN Devi to allow us to have the opportunity to learn.. thanks so much!=P
felt a bit giddy today.. bend down to take my bag from my locker and i almost FAINTED!!!!! *Gosh* i think my Hb level quite LOW that's why i will feel giddy ba.. finished work at 3pm as usual.. and had yakult and ice-cream again!! hahaz!!!! *NICE NICE*.. took bus home with Puteri and Sook Mun.. had a great time chatting with them.. today my hp like so quiet.. no sms today at all.. Sky (loo) is working as SGH now.. have no idea what job he is working.. but wish him all the best for his work! jiayou!=]
will be going out soon for preparation meeting with Eunice and Wei Zhong!! =P
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift! :)
tot of *** suddenly today.. just felt so angry when i thought of what *** said and what *** did.. it reminds me what i have gone through.. get it erase PLEASE! i just HATE ***!
as usual.. i couldnt wake up today despite sleeping at 10pm last night.. took quite some time to fall asleep.. think i'm still used to sleeping late and waking up late.. woke up at 5.15am this morning and showered.. had bread spread with kaya today for breakfast.. i know i cant leave without eating breakfast.. if not i sure will HYPO later.. headache is getting better today.. BUT still will feel giddy sometimes..
showered a few patients today.. and as usual.. chit chat with patients and change them and bring them to toilet.. and had a great chat with SN Kevin too! =] My patients were really CUTE!! when they see me, they will say: " 小妹来了！" kekez.. they are so CUTE.. and seeing them makes me SMILE from my HEART!! =P but when i see them cry, my HEART feel like crying also.. sobx(T.T)
had my lunch at 11am this morning.. the food at the canteen in the hospital really cannot make it.. it's so EXPENSIVE and yet NOT NICE at all!! hais! got to bring home food tomorrow for afternoon shift.. got to do a few skills today.. although Mdm Yeo is not around to supervise us.. and did blood transfusion too! =] but i am SAD cause patient has to be on blood transfusion.. hais.. and it's so KIND of SSN Devi to allow us to have the opportunity to learn.. thanks so much!=P
felt a bit giddy today.. bend down to take my bag from my locker and i almost FAINTED!!!!! *Gosh* i think my Hb level quite LOW that's why i will feel giddy ba.. finished work at 3pm as usual.. and had yakult and ice-cream again!! hahaz!!!! *NICE NICE*.. took bus home with Puteri and Sook Mun.. had a great time chatting with them.. today my hp like so quiet.. no sms today at all.. Sky (loo) is working as SGH now.. have no idea what job he is working.. but wish him all the best for his work! jiayou!=]
will be going out soon for preparation meeting with Eunice and Wei Zhong!! =P
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift! :)
tot of *** suddenly today.. just felt so angry when i thought of what *** said and what *** did.. it reminds me what i have gone through.. get it erase PLEASE! i just HATE ***!
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
[ 不要去在意你生命里那不完美的一面... ]
不要去在意你生命里那不完美的一面...
was on morning shift today.. supposed to wake up at 5am.. but i couldnt wake up.. managed to climb out of the bed at about 5.15am.. my head just ACHES till today.. took 852 from Yishun.. the stupid bus.. the 门铃 wasnt working.. and the stupid driver didnt even know.. i was supposed to stop at the condominium bus stop.. but end up.. i have to stop at YCK mrt bus stop.. just HATE the feeling of walking a distance into the hospital and sweat like MAD!! and i just HATE sweating cause it SMELLS! *yuck*
work started at 7am.. everyone just looked so TIRED.. bathed two patients today.. and got myself TOTALLY wet! lolx.. but i love the feeling of seeing them clean and smelling NICE!! kekez!! and got a new patient in my cubicle.. had a great chat with the patient's daughter.. and all my AH ma's keep saying i have a GREAT SMILE!! =] kekez! smile more jessica lohz!! MUAHAHAZ!!! ^-^
they just simply brighten my days.. did nothing much.. change patients, bring patients to the toilet etc.. and finally.. i did ONE SKILL today! it's topical application.. i'm so HAPPY cause i at least started to do something for this posting liao.. so STRESSED! i think that's one of the reason why i have terrible headache ba.. i think i will be more stress when i go back to ttsh ba.. and another thing i am stress is over the sk independence camp and the 15th anniversary.. sometimes i just feel like backing out from the iron ladies team.. hais! too many things on hands liao.. please please, my fellow comrades, please continue to encourage me.. cause i want to do my best and exert to the fullest to fulfill my responsibilties..
ben ben smsed me this morning.. he was so NAGGY!! lolx.. just ask me to take good care of myself.. cause i no feeling that well recently.. hahaz! thanks for your concern BESTIE!! =P back home at about 3.30pm.. finally finished the HR script after dragging it for 3days! i am very TIRED!! going to eat dinner now!!
tomorrow - morning shift, meeting Eunice, Bingyuan and Wei Zhong at 7pm at city hall=]
was on morning shift today.. supposed to wake up at 5am.. but i couldnt wake up.. managed to climb out of the bed at about 5.15am.. my head just ACHES till today.. took 852 from Yishun.. the stupid bus.. the 门铃 wasnt working.. and the stupid driver didnt even know.. i was supposed to stop at the condominium bus stop.. but end up.. i have to stop at YCK mrt bus stop.. just HATE the feeling of walking a distance into the hospital and sweat like MAD!! and i just HATE sweating cause it SMELLS! *yuck*
work started at 7am.. everyone just looked so TIRED.. bathed two patients today.. and got myself TOTALLY wet! lolx.. but i love the feeling of seeing them clean and smelling NICE!! kekez!! and got a new patient in my cubicle.. had a great chat with the patient's daughter.. and all my AH ma's keep saying i have a GREAT SMILE!! =] kekez! smile more jessica lohz!! MUAHAHAZ!!! ^-^
they just simply brighten my days.. did nothing much.. change patients, bring patients to the toilet etc.. and finally.. i did ONE SKILL today! it's topical application.. i'm so HAPPY cause i at least started to do something for this posting liao.. so STRESSED! i think that's one of the reason why i have terrible headache ba.. i think i will be more stress when i go back to ttsh ba.. and another thing i am stress is over the sk independence camp and the 15th anniversary.. sometimes i just feel like backing out from the iron ladies team.. hais! too many things on hands liao.. please please, my fellow comrades, please continue to encourage me.. cause i want to do my best and exert to the fullest to fulfill my responsibilties..
ben ben smsed me this morning.. he was so NAGGY!! lolx.. just ask me to take good care of myself.. cause i no feeling that well recently.. hahaz! thanks for your concern BESTIE!! =P back home at about 3.30pm.. finally finished the HR script after dragging it for 3days! i am very TIRED!! going to eat dinner now!!
tomorrow - morning shift, meeting Eunice, Bingyuan and Wei Zhong at 7pm at city hall=]
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
[ it was plain BOREDOM!! ]
it was plain BOREDOM!!
second day at work! and i am on AFTERNOON SHIFT!! woke up at 10am.. actually i wake up at 11am de.. cause AMK hospital is quite NEAR my place.. BUT, i woke up earlier to prepare myself and to have a FULFILLING breakfast so that i wont be hungry!! had zhu chang fen and nasi lemak for breakfast!! hahaz! i just eat like a PIG! =P cant blame me.. cause for afternoon shift, our break time at AMK hospital will be either 6-7pm or 7-8pm.. it is like so LATE lahz.. our afternoon shift itself is from 1-9pm.. 9pm we are knocking off yet our 2nd break finish at 8pm!!
started work at1pm.. was so SCARED.. cause everything to me seems so ALIEN! and worried even if it's bringing the patient to the toilet.. cause a lot of them come from rehab after a orthopadetic surgery.. most of them is neck of femur fracture or knee surgery.. am AFRAID that i will cause them to fall again if i dont know them well enough.. *CHOI* lahz! did nothing much.. except for talking to the patient and bringing them to the toilet.. headache just didnt stop attacking me during my shift.. was Ben Ben was so NICE to send me sms to ask whether i am okie or not.. thanks a lot! thanks for your concern!! it did helps me to feel better!!=]
then at 5.30pm.. i helped to serve diet to the patient then took their parameters after their dinner.. then slack around and talk to my cp group mates and went to break at 7pm.. went to the mama shop.. bought yakult, a bottle drink and some tibits.. then ate my cup noodles.. how i wish mom's home to prepare dinner for me for my afternoon shift.. but so SAD! she cant!! cause she's working..
back to ward to work at 8pm.. then finished work at about 9.05pm and left home.. was really tired.. my HEADACHE just didnt cure at all despite all the panadols and lots of water taken in.. hais.. it's KILLING me manz!!!!!!!! =X going to sleep.. *yawn*
tomorrow - morning shift tml!! *sianx*
second day at work! and i am on AFTERNOON SHIFT!! woke up at 10am.. actually i wake up at 11am de.. cause AMK hospital is quite NEAR my place.. BUT, i woke up earlier to prepare myself and to have a FULFILLING breakfast so that i wont be hungry!! had zhu chang fen and nasi lemak for breakfast!! hahaz! i just eat like a PIG! =P cant blame me.. cause for afternoon shift, our break time at AMK hospital will be either 6-7pm or 7-8pm.. it is like so LATE lahz.. our afternoon shift itself is from 1-9pm.. 9pm we are knocking off yet our 2nd break finish at 8pm!!
started work at1pm.. was so SCARED.. cause everything to me seems so ALIEN! and worried even if it's bringing the patient to the toilet.. cause a lot of them come from rehab after a orthopadetic surgery.. most of them is neck of femur fracture or knee surgery.. am AFRAID that i will cause them to fall again if i dont know them well enough.. *CHOI* lahz! did nothing much.. except for talking to the patient and bringing them to the toilet.. headache just didnt stop attacking me during my shift.. was Ben Ben was so NICE to send me sms to ask whether i am okie or not.. thanks a lot! thanks for your concern!! it did helps me to feel better!!=]
then at 5.30pm.. i helped to serve diet to the patient then took their parameters after their dinner.. then slack around and talk to my cp group mates and went to break at 7pm.. went to the mama shop.. bought yakult, a bottle drink and some tibits.. then ate my cup noodles.. how i wish mom's home to prepare dinner for me for my afternoon shift.. but so SAD! she cant!! cause she's working..
back to ward to work at 8pm.. then finished work at about 9.05pm and left home.. was really tired.. my HEADACHE just didnt cure at all despite all the panadols and lots of water taken in.. hais.. it's KILLING me manz!!!!!!!! =X going to sleep.. *yawn*
tomorrow - morning shift tml!! *sianx*
Monday, July 07, 2008
[ my FIRST day at AMK hospital! ]
my FIRST day at AMK hospital!
it was our FIRST day at AMK hospital today!! Work started only at 8am.. so i dont really have to wake up so early.. woke up at 6am this morning.. had a HARD TIME falling asleep last night.. therefore, i really had no enough sleep today.. arranged to meet up with Harvinder and Sheila at YCK mrt this morning at 7.30am and walked to AMK Hospital from there.. lolx! was so FUNNY.. didnt only bring the two of them there, brought a big bunch of students from NUH there too! lolx..
first was orientation by the Asst Director of Nursing, Sister Ah Chee.. the sharings was quite boring but was some important things we need to know.. then Sister Ah Chee showed us around the hospital and brought us to our respective wards.. our group was pretty lucky to have gotten Ward3.. that ward itself have A,B2,B2+ class beds.. therefore beside the B2(6bedded) ones are non air-con.. the rest of the area are air-conditioned.. so, the ward my group is in is not as warm! =] then we were introduced to ward's nurse clinician, Mr Rohaizad.. we were allowed to go for break and was asked to be back by 12pm..
the whole group of us actually went to the coffeeshop nearby to have our lunch.. i had 油鸡饭and 饺子汤.. the vegeatables in the 饺子汤 tasted so WEIRD! got super strong 药水's taste.. lunch was Amanda, Huda, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. after lunch, we walked back to AMK hospital after eating under the BIG HOT SUN! if i continued to walk like that everyone, i will sure become 小黑again! hahaz!=] bought Yakult from the mama shop in the hospital..
going back to the hospital, we were shown around by the Brother and went into the library for a briefing by him.. suddenly, my MIAGRAINE just attacked me! my head just aches like MAD!! and after eating so FULL, i kept feeling like i want to sleep.. after the one hour plus briefing, we went to take the afternoon report.. then at 3pm, we were given another briefing by Mdm Mayvin.. briefing are briefing.. my brain just cant stop working at all.. my headache just got from BAD to WORSE!!
after the breifing ended at 4pm, i took bus home.. and saw didi with the girlfriend at home.. had a shower and did my evening gongyo and took 855 to Harbourfront.. on my way there.. i was feeling COLD and FEVERISH.. my forehead and neck area was really WARM and my hands were really COLD.. just feel like VOMITING on the bus.. reached Harbourfront and went to Subway to get a sandwich meal.. had Subway club today with chips and snapple.. had to FORCE myself to eat.. cause i know i will feel weaker if i dont eat.. then took 145 to Aunty Helen's place.. did daimoku while waiting for Cliff to come.. then we started our planning meeting.. meeting finished at about 9.30pm..
took 855 home and saw Rui Xin and his mom!! was HAPPY to see him being so ACTIVE in gakkai activities.. and he said this to me: " Please dont be sad if you need any help for SK side!" *GOSH* it really SHOCKED me!! but i am HAPPY for him.. just hope one day Harry can be like that too!!=] ben ben smsed me.. he was still at work when i was on my work home.. my head just aches like MAD.. and i just dont know what's wrong with me!! hais(X.x)
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift!! =P
it was our FIRST day at AMK hospital today!! Work started only at 8am.. so i dont really have to wake up so early.. woke up at 6am this morning.. had a HARD TIME falling asleep last night.. therefore, i really had no enough sleep today.. arranged to meet up with Harvinder and Sheila at YCK mrt this morning at 7.30am and walked to AMK Hospital from there.. lolx! was so FUNNY.. didnt only bring the two of them there, brought a big bunch of students from NUH there too! lolx..
first was orientation by the Asst Director of Nursing, Sister Ah Chee.. the sharings was quite boring but was some important things we need to know.. then Sister Ah Chee showed us around the hospital and brought us to our respective wards.. our group was pretty lucky to have gotten Ward3.. that ward itself have A,B2,B2+ class beds.. therefore beside the B2(6bedded) ones are non air-con.. the rest of the area are air-conditioned.. so, the ward my group is in is not as warm! =] then we were introduced to ward's nurse clinician, Mr Rohaizad.. we were allowed to go for break and was asked to be back by 12pm..
the whole group of us actually went to the coffeeshop nearby to have our lunch.. i had 油鸡饭and 饺子汤.. the vegeatables in the 饺子汤 tasted so WEIRD! got super strong 药水's taste.. lunch was Amanda, Huda, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. after lunch, we walked back to AMK hospital after eating under the BIG HOT SUN! if i continued to walk like that everyone, i will sure become 小黑again! hahaz!=] bought Yakult from the mama shop in the hospital..
going back to the hospital, we were shown around by the Brother and went into the library for a briefing by him.. suddenly, my MIAGRAINE just attacked me! my head just aches like MAD!! and after eating so FULL, i kept feeling like i want to sleep.. after the one hour plus briefing, we went to take the afternoon report.. then at 3pm, we were given another briefing by Mdm Mayvin.. briefing are briefing.. my brain just cant stop working at all.. my headache just got from BAD to WORSE!!
after the breifing ended at 4pm, i took bus home.. and saw didi with the girlfriend at home.. had a shower and did my evening gongyo and took 855 to Harbourfront.. on my way there.. i was feeling COLD and FEVERISH.. my forehead and neck area was really WARM and my hands were really COLD.. just feel like VOMITING on the bus.. reached Harbourfront and went to Subway to get a sandwich meal.. had Subway club today with chips and snapple.. had to FORCE myself to eat.. cause i know i will feel weaker if i dont eat.. then took 145 to Aunty Helen's place.. did daimoku while waiting for Cliff to come.. then we started our planning meeting.. meeting finished at about 9.30pm..
took 855 home and saw Rui Xin and his mom!! was HAPPY to see him being so ACTIVE in gakkai activities.. and he said this to me: " Please dont be sad if you need any help for SK side!" *GOSH* it really SHOCKED me!! but i am HAPPY for him.. just hope one day Harry can be like that too!!=] ben ben smsed me.. he was still at work when i was on my work home.. my head just aches like MAD.. and i just dont know what's wrong with me!! hais(X.x)
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift!! =P
Sunday, July 06, 2008
[ dancing dancing dancing.... ]
dancing dancing dancing....
was talking to Weihan yesterday online.. been a long time never chat up with him.. and must thank him for encouraging and advising me!! thanks thanks!! woke up at 8am this morning.. was really TIRED.. but have no choice.. woke up, showered and prayed.. and went out.. took MRT from Yishun to Bukit Batok.. and took 106 from BB interchange to Aunty Mun Kin's place.. the estate she stayed in was so CONFUSING.. got 3units with No.13 plate.. only managed to find her place at about 10minutes later..
waited for the rest to come and we started to practice the dance.. was SO FUNNY seeing my WD leaders dancing.. lolx! we had a great time learning the line-dance.. spent about 2hours dancing.. hahaz! =P good time shagging off my fats.. then Aunty Mun Kin was so KIND to ask her maid to fry some bee hoon for us.. and we ate cakes, drank tea and ate longans! =P and we had a great time catching up and understand each other.. talked till 2pm and we left home..
took 852 from BB interchange back home.. the weather is so WARM and the bus like never on air-con.. was TIRED and i fell asleep.. came home and wanted to continue to type the HR script.. but somehow, i just always get STUCK while typing.. well well well.. i just CANT concentrate.. thinking about starting attachment tomorrow, i just feel SIANX!! i dont seems to have REST enough this holiday.. attachment havent start and i am hoping that the next holiday can come faster!! lolx!=]
will have to pack my stuff for my attachment tomorrow! have to re-adapt to a new group and going to AMK hospital.. somewhere i am unfamiliar well except that Ah ma stayed there for one month before.. just hope i can do well this attachment and score DISTINCTION again! =] was talking to Xueyun just now.. thanks girl! thanks for being there for me! l♥ve you lots!! ♥muacks!
got to go off! want to pack my stuff!! =]
tomorrow
- starting CP at AMK hospital from 8-4pm
- planning at Aunty Helen's place @ 7.30pm
to Close FRIEND: sorry for being so bad-tempered recently.. and thanks for tolerating my nonsense.. i will chant hard and get this issue solved.. if not, i think i will continue to be like that forever.. hais! i just hate the me now! but anyway, thanks! love you lots!♥
was talking to Weihan yesterday online.. been a long time never chat up with him.. and must thank him for encouraging and advising me!! thanks thanks!! woke up at 8am this morning.. was really TIRED.. but have no choice.. woke up, showered and prayed.. and went out.. took MRT from Yishun to Bukit Batok.. and took 106 from BB interchange to Aunty Mun Kin's place.. the estate she stayed in was so CONFUSING.. got 3units with No.13 plate.. only managed to find her place at about 10minutes later..
waited for the rest to come and we started to practice the dance.. was SO FUNNY seeing my WD leaders dancing.. lolx! we had a great time learning the line-dance.. spent about 2hours dancing.. hahaz! =P good time shagging off my fats.. then Aunty Mun Kin was so KIND to ask her maid to fry some bee hoon for us.. and we ate cakes, drank tea and ate longans! =P and we had a great time catching up and understand each other.. talked till 2pm and we left home..
took 852 from BB interchange back home.. the weather is so WARM and the bus like never on air-con.. was TIRED and i fell asleep.. came home and wanted to continue to type the HR script.. but somehow, i just always get STUCK while typing.. well well well.. i just CANT concentrate.. thinking about starting attachment tomorrow, i just feel SIANX!! i dont seems to have REST enough this holiday.. attachment havent start and i am hoping that the next holiday can come faster!! lolx!=]
will have to pack my stuff for my attachment tomorrow! have to re-adapt to a new group and going to AMK hospital.. somewhere i am unfamiliar well except that Ah ma stayed there for one month before.. just hope i can do well this attachment and score DISTINCTION again! =] was talking to Xueyun just now.. thanks girl! thanks for being there for me! l♥ve you lots!! ♥muacks!
got to go off! want to pack my stuff!! =]
tomorrow
- starting CP at AMK hospital from 8-4pm
- planning at Aunty Helen's place @ 7.30pm
to Close FRIEND: sorry for being so bad-tempered recently.. and thanks for tolerating my nonsense.. i will chant hard and get this issue solved.. if not, i think i will continue to be like that forever.. hais! i just hate the me now! but anyway, thanks! love you lots!♥
Saturday, July 05, 2008
[ 往往有缘没有份.. ]
往往有缘没有份....
dragged myself out of bed today.. BLAME MYSELF.. cause i chatted with Chong till 1am plus this morning.. was talking about relationship stuff.. and thanks for your advice Chong! i know it's NO LONGER POSSIBLE.. so, i shall not think too much.. if not, it will sadden me FURTHER! set my alarm clock to 10am.. BUT, i dont seems to sleep enough! and thinking of waking up at 6 on monday makes me even more SIANZ! thank god my first 2weeks at AMK hospital, still quite near to my place.. and plus first day at work is at 8am for orientation.. so ya.. wont be that tough i guess..
woke up, showered and prayed.. then sat down at the sofa and watched tv before it was time for me to set off to SYC.. and i just feel like SLEEPING when i sat at the sofa.. left home at about 11am.. took 855 to Harbourfront.. then went to Vivo.. got myself a sausage to eat and went into Giant.. hoping to get my pen torch.. didnt get to see it selling there.. so i went off to SYC.. when i was about to alight from the bus.. it RAINS! gosh manz! i didnt had an umbrella with me.. luckily the rain isnt that heavy..
sms Eunice and ask her where is she.. as usual..LATE.. cause they havent have lunch yet.. so i went up to the meeting room.. and realised that it's not open yet.. so i went down again to get the staff on duty to open the door for me.. and i went in alone to chant.. and more and more YWDs came in.. even YWD Chief was there.. i was suddenly made the DOSHI.. and have to maintain kneeling on the knees.. and my ankle hurts.. cause of my old wound... stop chanting at about 2pm and went downstairs to continue to read the HR.. actually i finished reading it le.. just want to read it AGAIN hoping to learn new things..
left SYC with Eunice and Sin Bei (Adeline).. and we headed to Harbourfront MRT.. we saw the MRT at the platform.. and when we are about to go in, the door CLOSES on us.. only Sin Bei managed to get in.. Eunice almost become ROTI PRATA! luckily, i pull her out! SCARE me! we went to Outram and headed to City Hall to meet WeiZhong.. and he was EARLY.. didnt know where should we settle ourselves at.. and so we headed to Raffles City Shopping Centre..
and finally.. after searching.. we decided to settle at the Streets Cafe Restaurant.. it's a bit like Wang Jiao Cha Can Ting like that.. a bit Hongkong style.. and before we start our discussion, we ordered our food.. i had Ham and Cheese Toasted Sandwich with a cup of iced milk tea.. Eunice had Thick Toast with pork floss and butter, and a cup of iced milk tea.. Wei Zhong had a cup of Ju Hua cha and a thick toast with honey and butter.. and Wei Zhong is the FIRST guy i know will take picture of the food like GIRLS do before tasting the food.. LOLX! so FUNNY!=P
The THICK TOAST! really THICK right? like BEANCURD! *dots*
the ICED MILK TEA! i love the CUP!
my HAM and CHEESE TOASTED SANDWICH!
the prices are quite REASONABLE too! and thanks EUNICE and WEI ZHONG for the treat.. after the food came, we continue with our discussion.. well, this HR sharing is really giving me a HEADACHE! cause i really want to do it to the BEST! and that's why i am so AFRAID i dont have enough time to prepare cause attachment is starting on MONDAY! and not knowing my work schedule makes me UNABLE to plan my gakkai activities! *ARGH* we left Raffles at about 5.40pm.. and passed by Swiss Hotel and saw the label "Equinox".. and it reminds me eating there during one of my birthday celebration.. cant remember how old was i then.. but it also reminds me of what Ben Ben told me.. $317 hor! Eunice took the same train to me as she's heading to Toa Poyah.. and on the train, she ask me about my ex boyfriend..
hmmm.. and she asked how come we will break up and stuff.. she said the same thing Stella and Xueyun told me.. maybe it's Gohonzon's arrangement that things happened like that.. and i told her i always meet with this kind of guys or very possessive kind ones.. and she said out what i feel.. it's my KARMA in relationship.. i guess i need to chant really MORE! i decided to drop off at AMK after Eunice dropped off at Toa Poyah.. decided to go to AMK Hub's Fairprice Xtra to try my luck and see if i can get my pen torch.. and indeed, i got IT! i guess my daimoku today POWER! hahaz! got the wisdom!=]
this is the pen torch that got me CRAZY!
i really SEARCH up and down for this BLOODY thing! oops! sound vulgar! hahaz! and i took out my handphone.. and saw Ben Ben's missed call to me.. was just thinking dont know whether he finish his camp or not then he called liao.. tried calling him but he never pick up.. then when i was on my way home from AMK he called.. talked to him awhile and told about the pen torch searching incident.. and he say i STUPID.. why never thought of asking him to get for me from AH.. hais! how i know ar?! just never thought of you..
he's at Suntec.. and just now i was at City Hall.. hmmm.. NO fate.. never knock into each other.. just a short 10minutes chat.. and he hang up my phone TWICE! you GOOD lohz! do this to me! =P headed home.. on the computer.. actually, i should be typing the HR script.. not updating my blog.. BUT, i just feel SIANZ lahz! can my HOLIDAYS extend ONE more MONTH!? DREAM ON! hais! face the FACT that attachment is starting on MONDAY! saw Rosaline jie's blog entry.. CONGRATS on promoting to NURSE MANAGER! i'm so HAPPY for you!!=] 3meals are all BREADS and SANDWICHES today! i just feel that i dont have a PROPER meal today! stomach PROTESTING!
got to go type the script liao!! =]
tomorrow - going to Aunty Mun Kin's place to teach dance! =]
an OLD song to INTRO..
title: 忘忧草
让软弱的我们懂得残忍
狠狠面对人生每次寒冷
依依不舍的爱过的人
往往有缘没有份
谁把谁真的当真
谁为谁心疼
谁是唯一谁的人
伤痕累累的天真的灵魂
早已不承认还有什么神
美丽的人生
善良的人
心痛心酸心事太微不足道
来来往往的你我遇到
相识不如相望淡淡一笑
忘忧草忘了就好
梦里知多
少某天涯海角
某个小岛
某年某月某日某一次拥抱
轻轻河畔草
静静等天荒地老
just take it as 有缘无份吧！i can only blame myself! hais! :(
dragged myself out of bed today.. BLAME MYSELF.. cause i chatted with Chong till 1am plus this morning.. was talking about relationship stuff.. and thanks for your advice Chong! i know it's NO LONGER POSSIBLE.. so, i shall not think too much.. if not, it will sadden me FURTHER! set my alarm clock to 10am.. BUT, i dont seems to sleep enough! and thinking of waking up at 6 on monday makes me even more SIANZ! thank god my first 2weeks at AMK hospital, still quite near to my place.. and plus first day at work is at 8am for orientation.. so ya.. wont be that tough i guess..
woke up, showered and prayed.. then sat down at the sofa and watched tv before it was time for me to set off to SYC.. and i just feel like SLEEPING when i sat at the sofa.. left home at about 11am.. took 855 to Harbourfront.. then went to Vivo.. got myself a sausage to eat and went into Giant.. hoping to get my pen torch.. didnt get to see it selling there.. so i went off to SYC.. when i was about to alight from the bus.. it RAINS! gosh manz! i didnt had an umbrella with me.. luckily the rain isnt that heavy..
sms Eunice and ask her where is she.. as usual..LATE.. cause they havent have lunch yet.. so i went up to the meeting room.. and realised that it's not open yet.. so i went down again to get the staff on duty to open the door for me.. and i went in alone to chant.. and more and more YWDs came in.. even YWD Chief was there.. i was suddenly made the DOSHI.. and have to maintain kneeling on the knees.. and my ankle hurts.. cause of my old wound... stop chanting at about 2pm and went downstairs to continue to read the HR.. actually i finished reading it le.. just want to read it AGAIN hoping to learn new things..
left SYC with Eunice and Sin Bei (Adeline).. and we headed to Harbourfront MRT.. we saw the MRT at the platform.. and when we are about to go in, the door CLOSES on us.. only Sin Bei managed to get in.. Eunice almost become ROTI PRATA! luckily, i pull her out! SCARE me! we went to Outram and headed to City Hall to meet WeiZhong.. and he was EARLY.. didnt know where should we settle ourselves at.. and so we headed to Raffles City Shopping Centre..
and finally.. after searching.. we decided to settle at the Streets Cafe Restaurant.. it's a bit like Wang Jiao Cha Can Ting like that.. a bit Hongkong style.. and before we start our discussion, we ordered our food.. i had Ham and Cheese Toasted Sandwich with a cup of iced milk tea.. Eunice had Thick Toast with pork floss and butter, and a cup of iced milk tea.. Wei Zhong had a cup of Ju Hua cha and a thick toast with honey and butter.. and Wei Zhong is the FIRST guy i know will take picture of the food like GIRLS do before tasting the food.. LOLX! so FUNNY!=P
The THICK TOAST! really THICK right? like BEANCURD! *dots*
the ICED MILK TEA! i love the CUP!
my HAM and CHEESE TOASTED SANDWICH!
the prices are quite REASONABLE too! and thanks EUNICE and WEI ZHONG for the treat.. after the food came, we continue with our discussion.. well, this HR sharing is really giving me a HEADACHE! cause i really want to do it to the BEST! and that's why i am so AFRAID i dont have enough time to prepare cause attachment is starting on MONDAY! and not knowing my work schedule makes me UNABLE to plan my gakkai activities! *ARGH* we left Raffles at about 5.40pm.. and passed by Swiss Hotel and saw the label "Equinox".. and it reminds me eating there during one of my birthday celebration.. cant remember how old was i then.. but it also reminds me of what Ben Ben told me.. $317 hor! Eunice took the same train to me as she's heading to Toa Poyah.. and on the train, she ask me about my ex boyfriend..
hmmm.. and she asked how come we will break up and stuff.. she said the same thing Stella and Xueyun told me.. maybe it's Gohonzon's arrangement that things happened like that.. and i told her i always meet with this kind of guys or very possessive kind ones.. and she said out what i feel.. it's my KARMA in relationship.. i guess i need to chant really MORE! i decided to drop off at AMK after Eunice dropped off at Toa Poyah.. decided to go to AMK Hub's Fairprice Xtra to try my luck and see if i can get my pen torch.. and indeed, i got IT! i guess my daimoku today POWER! hahaz! got the wisdom!=]
this is the pen torch that got me CRAZY!
i really SEARCH up and down for this BLOODY thing! oops! sound vulgar! hahaz! and i took out my handphone.. and saw Ben Ben's missed call to me.. was just thinking dont know whether he finish his camp or not then he called liao.. tried calling him but he never pick up.. then when i was on my way home from AMK he called.. talked to him awhile and told about the pen torch searching incident.. and he say i STUPID.. why never thought of asking him to get for me from AH.. hais! how i know ar?! just never thought of you..
he's at Suntec.. and just now i was at City Hall.. hmmm.. NO fate.. never knock into each other.. just a short 10minutes chat.. and he hang up my phone TWICE! you GOOD lohz! do this to me! =P headed home.. on the computer.. actually, i should be typing the HR script.. not updating my blog.. BUT, i just feel SIANZ lahz! can my HOLIDAYS extend ONE more MONTH!? DREAM ON! hais! face the FACT that attachment is starting on MONDAY! saw Rosaline jie's blog entry.. CONGRATS on promoting to NURSE MANAGER! i'm so HAPPY for you!!=] 3meals are all BREADS and SANDWICHES today! i just feel that i dont have a PROPER meal today! stomach PROTESTING!
got to go type the script liao!! =]
tomorrow - going to Aunty Mun Kin's place to teach dance! =]
an OLD song to INTRO..
title: 忘忧草
让软弱的我们懂得残忍
狠狠面对人生每次寒冷
依依不舍的爱过的人
往往有缘没有份
谁把谁真的当真
谁为谁心疼
谁是唯一谁的人
伤痕累累的天真的灵魂
早已不承认还有什么神
美丽的人生
善良的人
心痛心酸心事太微不足道
来来往往的你我遇到
相识不如相望淡淡一笑
忘忧草忘了就好
梦里知多
少某天涯海角
某个小岛
某年某月某日某一次拥抱
轻轻河畔草
静静等天荒地老
just take it as 有缘无份吧！i can only blame myself! hais! :(
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