[ as expected.... ]

as expected....

woke up at 8plus today.. went out at about 9plus.. meet Chern Fern at yishun platform.. then Phuong Minh smsed and saw she overslept.. LOLX.. no choice, me and Chern Fern went to Viriya on our own.. today kind of special.. meet up not only with Chris but also with his lady boss.. Chern Fern looked super distracted today.. like stoning all the way in the midst of the discussion.. But then, still managed to convey our thinking to them and listen to what they have to say..

hais.. kind of headache after meeting them.. many things to negoitate and discuss with HQ.. really problematic.. how can they not think of the beneficiaries? hais! super not sincere lohz.. hais.. went to have lunch at Novena.. had KFC.. Chern Fern super frustrated today.. kind scolding and complaining.. hais.. i can understand how she feels.. having so many things to cover..

after eating.. headed down to Dhoby.. sat down at Mac.. send some emails and settle some issues.. went to meet Jordan with Ade and Chern Fern.. then after that meet up with Kwang Keat.. thank god he's willing to commit to the VIP thing and provide transportation.. if not, i dont know how it would be like for the 600over beneficiaries.. poor them..

after meeting with KK, settled with Jordan the PO issue.. sit till in HQ till 5plus.. my gastric pain came.. thank god Jordan gave us some tibits to eat.. as expected, i already told Chern Fern, if we were to meet Viriya, i am sure i have to go down to HQ to settle the VIP issue and everything.. went for dinner with Chern Fern after that.. ate Yoshi with her.. then went to meet Michael to take the plastic cups and went back to HQ again to put the cups..

headed home after that.. on the way home, was helping Chern fern to collate the list of things she need to complete.. went home.. just managed to settle what kwang kent tasked me to do.. hope tomorrow, would be able to stay home and rest.. tired..

[ 谁能把爱从新洗牌？]

谁能把爱从新洗牌？

It was probably the one of my toughest time few days back.. just remember on christmas eve, it was the Ops plan deadline for the Zone directors.. had a christmas lunch with Stella, Qisheng, Mr Tay and Mrs Tay..

and after the lunch, we decided to find a place in City hall to sit down and relax.. then after which, i headed home and gotten dinner for didi and myself.. wasnt feeling that well after the lunch le.. but till night time when i was doing the ops plan, suddenly, my head like bursting! then i feel uncomfortable and throw out at least 10times! hais! Chern Fern told me to go rest but then i just insist to finish the Ops plan.. cause just have the feeling that i might be hospitalised seeing my situation like that..

hais.. so bad luck.. couldnt even enjoy a good christmas.. this few days.. been quite sick.. BUT, thank god the Ops plan is done.. just need to do some changes.. therefore i can at least get some rest..

meeting was fine yesterday.. started at 12pm.. with two bosses sitting in and the meeting finish 30mins before the expected time.. and we still continue to sit inside the room and finish some works and stuff.. had lunch together at 5pm.. sound more like dinner.. then headed home after that.. really tired.. but still quite some things to settle..

the VIP issue, the transportation issue for the rice.. hais.. will be making a trip to Viriya on monday..

kind of reluatant to wake up today.. slept at 2am this morning and have to drag myself out of bed at 10am.. have to wake up to prepare the paper for the members to write their 2009 resolutions.. hais.. meeting was okie today too.. but am sad that not many wrote down their resolution... kind of feel that my efforts have go to drain.. went to mama's house after the meeting..

then after which, went to meet Mom.. bought some bread home for breakfast tomorrow.. had dinner with mom and didi at the coffeeshop.. had my favourite chicken rice and oyster egg! :D kind of long that i didnt sit down with mom and didi to have dinner together.. am really too busy with project rice that i always eat out with friends.. hais.. after project rice finishes, it would be VB'09 le..

kind of hope that i can graduate faster.. then wont be too busy and involved in RC till i neglected many friends of mine and always MIA from gatherings.. but then, this time round, i super dont feel like going for attachment.. really hope that holiday can be extended!! ha!

got to go sleep le.. tomorrow, will be meeting Viriya..

[ my frustration..... ]

MY FRUSTRATION!!!!!!!!!

i'm seriously not the type who will deploy others a task or a job... cause i would feel insecure and feels that it would be safer to do it myself.. To gain my trust on your capability is not an easy task.. And my first impression of a person usually determines a death sentence or send you to heaven.. And we all know for a person that has been sentenced to death sentence to receive special 赦免 is so TOUGH..

This shows how impossible it would be for me to change my impression of you once the first impression you is set!... I'm a person who is afraid of making mistakes.. Cause sometimes once things are done, it cannot be undone.. From the past experiences i had, i learnt to think twice or thrice before making a decision.. Cause some decision made would simply ruin or take away your entire life.. And i must declare that i hate friends who lie to me.. cause this shows that you dont treat me as your friends or you dont trust me at all..

If I'm your friend, then i'm sure that things can be settled peacefully without having a need to create a lie.. cause once a lie is said, it also means that more lies need to be created to cover the first one you said.. it's going to be a endless chain of lies!!! if you want to stop, in other words, you have to own up and confess that you have been lying.. and which means, i'm sure i wont trust you anymore..

i seriously dont see a harm in speaking the truth.. By doing so, at least i would understand the reason and your difficulties.. and do as much to help you! You would gain my trust and allow me to be frank to you too.. DONT give me any chance to give you death sentence by starting a lie.. cause i can assure you that death sentence set by me is irreversible!

it's hard for me to trust a person to do something or change my impression.. BUT, there's always exception.. I do trust people around me.. it all just depends on your luck and your fate with me.. Try harder as the word IMPOSSIBLE can be written and read as I-M-POSSIBLE too! Like what others said: "When there's a will, there's a way!"

just have too many frustration recently.. if i dont let out, i'll be probably be like a FAT BALLOON in months to come!! someone please save me from this misery!!!! i need to ease my pain!!!!

[ Happy engagement Firin! ]

Happy engagement Firin!

Was really really tired today.. Nad called me like 9plus.. hais.. Was kind of relutant to attend Firin's engagement as i arent feeling that well actually.. But, i still went.. cause Firin did bother to remember my birthday.. Thanks Firin.. didnt expect that you will actually remember.. A supposed not very close friend bothered to reply, but what about those close friends?

hais.. so many disappointment yesterday.. went to meet Nad and the rest at Bedok mrt control and headed to Firin's place.. she's really so PRETTY.. shall wait till Aini send me the pics! hahaz! FIRST time attending malay friend's engagement.. havent attend any kind of malay wedding or engagement before.. it's my FIRST time! :D

went home at about 4plus.. didnt feel that well after i get home.. hais.. just feel that my whole body is aching very very BADLY! i need a rest badly! Chern Fern smsed and say that she wont be joining us tomorrow in the visit to Viriya.. Oh Man! i just hope i can handle it well...

to Firin: Wish you will be happy from today onwards till the very end worz! *blessed*

tomorrow, will be visiting Viriya with Phuong Minh, Ming Jun and Ka Man.. hope everything turns out good..

[ HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME! ]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME!! :)

yesterday.. did the recce trip with Chern Fern, Syed and Ka Man.. we covered the Tampines area while the rest cover simei.. LOLX! Michael last min PS us.. too tired and sick le so overslept.. Thanks lohz.. Thanks for PS-ing us.. But then okie lahz.. i know you also helped east zone a lot..

when clock hits 12, i received many blessings of love to me! ya, i am 20 already! and offically 20!! hahaz! first of all, let's start thanking people.... be it through msn, facebook, friendster or sms....

Family - Mom, Dad, Didi and Doris
SK peeps - Weihan, Willie, Stephanie lam, Stella, Elvin poh, Carys & Qi sheng
Soka peeps - darren, Yue chang, Shirley poh, Stephanie goh, Catherine, Cliff & Juay kai
ITESD peeps - Eunice & Victor chia
Yep Family - Carolyn, Wui Hou, Amalina, Sam
the nurses - Nad, Shiffa, Hazel, Hazwan, Buvi & Firin
Red cross peeps - Chern Fern, Adeline, Michael, Shu ting, Phuong minh, Ben ben, Woanlan, Ferry, Medy, Hanxi, Denise, Li zhuang, Edbert, Yu hang, Daniel & Wei ran
Outside friends, - Li ming, Daryl, Yanya, Eng wah, Zzhi hao, Zhi wen, Benjamin liao, Samuel kitehpar, Andy lim & Jeslyn

This year's birthday.. many unexpected people wishes me and remembered my birthday.. but of cause, there are many people whom i expect will remember didnt remember.. to a certain extent, i am really disappoint with those people.. and some of them are close friends.. hais!

attended Proj RICE meeting.. hahaz.. and another surprise.. Ben Ben came for the meeting unexpectedly! Phuong Minh smsed me and said she arent sure of the way to get to SMU Settlers cafe.. and say she wants to meet me.. thought Ben Ben will not come.. BUT he came.. thanks friend, thanks for that shocking appearance! ha!

had our meeting at settlers and then was cut cake! and we had a mini gift exchange session. Ha! thanks for all your gifts! went to meet Stella at PS after the meeting.. had our dinner at Ichiban Sushi.. then grab a drink at Mac while we sit down awhile and chit chat:)


pictures time! :D

the birthday girl! :)


Stella, my best best sister :P


US at Mac:D

my dinner set at ichiban sushi

my birthday gifts:P


the necklace and ear rings from Chern Fern=]

the bookmark & card from Stella:)

the gift from mom:)

the unexpected gift from Mom :D

the gift from Woanlan, Medy, Ben Ben, Phuong Minh & Ferry

From Guess:)

the wallet!


the EMO birthday gift from Michael


the christmas gift exchange gift:)

thanks for all your gifts! though i didnt really celebrate, but still quite happy that i got to eat birthday cake and a meal with my best best friend! :D thanks all for your love!!! :)

[ headache after headache... ]

headache after headache...

woke up early.. went to have lunch with Michael and Chern Fern.. then.. we went to meet NECDC to settle the money that they are sponsoring us.. thought that after meeting NECDC, many things will be settled.. BUT who knows.. more and more things popped out..

We were given the bene list and was asked to contact the bene on our own... sound so ridiculous! hais.. because of that, head down to HQ to meet Jordan.. then Kwan Kent and Mdm Tan were also there..

aiyoz.. thank god Mdm Tan was around, if not, cant pretend what time the meeting will finished! lolx! went to Just Asia for dinner with Ade and Chern Fern.. then went to SMU to continue doing our stuff.. got so many undone things but too little time!! hais! really feel frustrated about it.. hais.

wanted to shop for christmas gift exchange present.. but somehow, just couldnt find one ideal one.. headed home after the failed attempt to get a gift.. am really tired.. but, i just cant sleep well cause there's so many things that i need to do!

will be doing recce tomorrow. i hope it will ease my worries.

[ social evening'08 ]

Social Evening'08


me and Nad



Me and Mr Tay



Ramlan and me! =]


me and Daphne :)

me and shiffa :P

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!! :D

the EARLY BIRDS!

US again @ Tampines:D

ramlan, me and farhan! => BLACKs & WHITEs

Farhan and me=]

ramlan and me!

PEACE:P

me and shiffa! :D

*HUGs*

woke up early today and went to meet to CARE organisation.. the talk with the in-charge was quite good.. but then, the school CARE will tab in will be in the north, therefore, there's a BIG BIG problem now.. VRN cannot provide manpower, CARE like also cannot make it for East Zone.. HOW HOW HOW?

really super fan because of the volunteers issue.. didnt wanted to go for social evening..But Nad called me.. didnt want to disappoint her therefore i went.. social evening quite okie.. am happy that we had quite a lot of fun.. went for dinner after the social evening.. had KFC despite that i am having sore throat..

went home after the kfc meal.. continue to project rice lohz.. what to do? i really very headache ar!!!

tomorrow - will be meeting NECDC.

[ 你是自由的， 我是透明的..... ]

你是自由的， 我是透明的.....

Monday, also stayed home till evening time.. woke up feeling really TIRED and a bit sick.. nose keep sneezing and body aching.. am so scared as these are the symptoms that indicates that i am falling sick.. and indeed, i really fall sick..

went for discussion meeting planning yesterday and i sneezed all the way! and forget to bring this, forget to bring that.. hais! too sick liao.. slept at 1plus yesterday.. was awaken by Mom's and Chern Fern's phone calls.. and i shall declare, i am REALLY SICK le.. running a temperature in the morning and NOW also..

fever has subsided in the afternoon and it came back again.. went to sit in to South Zone's meeting today.. really hope that our presence can help Edbert to get his stuff going.. and really hope our suggestion can help him lessen his load.. even by a little will be good enough.. PM back today, means Ben Ben wont be attending with me anymore.. sianz.. but at least okie.. still got Chern Fern and Michael..

they really helped me a lot through this entire project.. and i shall not deny that i am too stressed that's why i fall sick.. hais! i cant always fall sick man! aiyoyoz! i need more Vitamin C!! hahaz.. but didnt seems to help..my immune system always protests when i worked too much and exert myself.. they just will SHUT DOWN on its own.. i want to get well, dont want this yucky voice and irritating nose..

will be meeting CARE organisation tomorrow morning and attend social event in school in the afternoon.. dress pretty pretty! :D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE ER JIE!! muacks!

[ my SWEET HISTORY....]

my SWEET HISTORY......

was at home TODAY... doing Project R.I.C.E and stuff.. and feel a little TIRED.. so nap and rest at home.. posted all my pictures that i have in facebook.. suddenly misses Yep Family A LOT! maybe because my grandma's anniversary round the corner and my birthday is coming.. that's why i miss them SO MUCH? hahaz! last year around this time, my grandma left me.. i remember attending only 2 hours of the Y-camp and i was called home because grandma is critically ill.. and MOST of them attend my grandma's wake one day after they finished their Y-camp.. am so TOUCHED cause they are really tired..

then i remember how Yep family tried to cheer me up by organising a trip to Escape theme park during my birthday.. i couldnt celebrate my birthday was my grandma was cremated one day before my birthday.. and they cheered me up by planning the trip.. my dream.. cause i have never been to Escape theme park though it existed for quite some time.. i always didnt make it when my other friends organised a trip there.. and to cheer me up, Yep family organised a trip there.. though it rains (and kind of spoilt everyone's mood) but we indeed have fun.. what i feel sad about is Amalina being angry cause we insisted on leaving the park after it started pouring..

and they surprised me with a gift too.. it was also the LAST trip i seen him.. there after, the cold shoulder increases and we said BYE.. actually, i know it would be the ending way before we started.. this is something i didnt tell anyone.. even my bestie Stella.. i just dont want to surrender and wont wish to believe it so i still gave it a try.. and i know i have tried my best and have no regrets.. i must be thankful cause he made me grown a lot in many ways.. now, i have learnt to be stronger and can differentiate right and wrong better.. Zaki posted a comment on a picture of me and him saying that it's sweet history.. it was indeed once sweet.....

like i said to many, i dont see a need why must i forget about him.. cause he is part of my memories.. be it sweet or bitter, i cherish it.. and wont forget it.. unless i knock my hair and 失意！hahaz! then that one cant help lahz..

to all those who are suffering a failed realtionship: what had happened, HAD HAPPENED.. even how hard you try to forget, you wont forget even if you want to.. just take it as a lesson taught.. it is not EASY to walk out of a 感情的创伤.. BUT.. it all boils down to your OWN DETERMINATION.. whether you want to keep dwelling into it or whether you want to learn a happy life.. it all can be determined by YOU and this decision is in your OWN hands..

it took me HALF A YEAR to GET OVER it... i can be very frank.. i can seems that i have walked out of it immediately, right after it happened.. but not many knows that i suffered quietly for half a year.. HALF A YEAR... i did cried, i did cursed, i did blamed myself.. BUT, did it helps to lessen my heartache? IT DIDNT, to be frank.. it added on to my heartache cause i kept dwelling into that.. NO ONE should be blame for that failure caused.. it's God's will, it's your destiny.. it might be a good fortune that you guys have been seperated.. maybe you wont see it now, but you will know it one day..

i know it seems easy to say.. BUT i have been through it myself.. i know it well.. it's easy said than done.. put some DETERMINATION in, add som COURAGE in.. and you will make it.. be it HALF A YEAR, ONE YEAR, take all the time you have to walk out of it.. and you know once you walked out of it, you will feel really relieved.. and also relieved that you wont blame him or either yourself anymore.. on the other hand, you will thank him.. stop grumbling and dwelling, it wont help.. jiayou le, for those who are trying to walk out of the failed relationship.. GAMBATTE! you have all my support! :D

hahaz, didnt know how come i will side track so much from Yep family to failed relationship.. BUT anyway, i want to thank Yep family for giving me so much wonderful memories.. and HIM for allowing me to grow.. Yep family, let's MEET UP! :D

let's make a promise to go back to watch the stars AGAIN! and bring honey stars this time too!:P

[ sometimes it takes someone to lose some things in order to know what you have. ]

sometimes it takes someone to lose some things in order to know what you have...

slept at almost 2am this morning.. and woke up at around 9 today to prepare myself for the meeting.. showered, did my morning prayers and then left for Dhoby.. went to HQ to collect my First aid and BCLS cert.. hahaz.. been rotting at HQ for the past half a year.. LOLX.. the picture i got.. super ugly.. LOLX.. but never mind lahz.. it's the SKILLS that are important..

went to PS and walk walk awhile then got some food from Mos Burger.. Ben Ben called and said will be late.. so i went to meet his sub-com first.. quite a nice girl called Ming Jun.. headed down to SMU for the meeting..

told chern fern that i thought this meeting will be quite a relieve for me cause most of the things all settled.. BUT then, end up.. more and more things need to settle! the poster design not approved.. need to rechange again.. then all logistics need to be rent or buy in bulk.. hais.. budget must be transparent and stuff.. hais.. am so TIRED..

headed home after the meeting with Ben Ben.. that stupid guy.. take my hp away and play game.. then so cranky because he's hungry.. LOLX! i dont know why.. feel so TIRED, my shoulders, back and neck stiffness getting worse.. somemore will ache.. i seriously need a doctor i guess.. i can hear my bones cracking when i move my body.. hais!

reached home.. supposed to sleep first and gain back some energy.. but end up.. still decided to switch on the computer and do project rice.. like if cannot settle i cannot sleep well.. hais! terrible feeling.. just feeling terrible.. deadline to rush for tomorrow.. and i managed to settle it TODAY!! hahaz! and thanks to help Chern Fern's help and also not forgetting Adeline and Michael that i can last till TODAY.. if not, i might have gave up long long ago..... hahaz.. THANKS A LOT PEOPLE!! :D

will be staying home to rest tomorrow.. today, mood not good after attending the meeting.. but this baby boy of my staff nurse cheered me up! saw his CUTE CUTE pic on facebook.. and i just BRIGHTEN UP!:P


see what see? hahaz!

which baby will do tis? hahaz! so CUTEE!!!

[ Life is not a coincidence, it's the MIRROR of your own doings.. ]

Life is not a coincidence, it's the MIRROR of your own doings..

went to chalet yesterday actually.. early morning.. woke up, packed my bag.. and was late.. cab down to Stella's place and put my barang there.. then went to Toa Poyah Entertainment to eat.. after which accompany Stella to Safra to collect some stuff.. then headed to Daphne's place.. while waiting for the bus, saw May.. hahaz! long time no see:P

went to Daphne's place.. that girl, too tired.. still lazying on the bed when i reach her place.. Nad, Han and Daphne went for SGH's interview, hope they can get it! :D

cab down from daphne's place after she finished her lunch.. have to carry all the things all the way from the entrance to the chalet which is a distance away.. looking at my injuried back.. i really scared one day my stiff neck and shoulders will get WORSE.. cause it's already getting quite BAD liao.. hais!

some uphappiness at the chalet.. like nobody wants to help with bbq-ing, nobody to defroze the food the stuff.. and people bringing friends down DESPITE that we already stated clearly CANNOT BRING FRIENDS.. hais.. i enjoyed myself quite a lot.. although not the best.. but i enjoyed it.. but i seriously very TIRED.. so i didnt take much pictures.. because i was too tired.. got diahorrea in the morning and auntie also come.. hais..

but before i leave to meet Stella.. i mopped the floor! for 3 times!! hahaz! like what stephanie (lee) says.. i got 洁癖 also.. like clean clean neat neat.. hahaz! left at about 9.30pm with Joyce.. headed to Stella's place and Joyce headed home.. am HAPPY that Joyce and Sufiyah can join us for the chalet! :D

went to stella's place.. showered then head for Supper with stella and got to to know a new friend, Yiheng.. i also dont know why me and Stella didnt take any pictures at all! :D hahaz.. head back to her home after supper.. got Nacho chips and drinks from Cheers and some Otah.. which stella think not nice.. watched "What happened in Vegas" till almost 4am then we sleep..

9am only.. Ben Ben smsed, Mom called then Daphne.. my sleep was totally DISTURBED.. aiyoyoz.. slept till almost 12pm.. woke up.. showered then went for lunch at Mos Burger.. then headed down to Lorong 8.. went to Ben Ben's mom's salon and got my hair CUT! DAMN SHORT.. you will be shocked to see me!! hahaz! wait and see...

headed home after the hair-cut.. raining cats and dogs.. had a shower and head down to West Coast to collect my specs.. went to look for mom after that.. tomorrow, will be having meeting with my com members.. need to go chiong posters design now and agar the t-shirt sizes!! *gosh* :(

hahaz.. i MUST be PROUD to declare that i DONT look like her anymore after the hairstyle.. i get really UPSET after See Leng jie and Stella say i look like her.. OMG! i dont want to be the same as her OKIE! hahaz! :D


time for some pics! :P


Ramlan, Daphne, Joyce and me:P


Daphne, Mdm Heng, me, Mrs Tang and Nad


Mrs Tang, Nabilah, me, Rajes, Priya, Fara and Mdm Heng.



Nabilah, me, Rajes, Fara and Priya


the December babies's cakes:D

[ Life gives you what you gave out. ]

Life gives you what you gave out....

Busy running here and there today.. first was meeting Daphne to get the stuff for BBQ.. timing change time and again cause she needs to go pay respect to her grandpa after his 14th days of passing.. met up with like about 3plus.. Daphne very tired, somemore lazy around when i reach her place..

went to the Sheng siong nearby her house to get the stuff.. somemore drag a market trolley there.. like so WEIRD but very FUN! hahaz! bought quite a lot of things.. the cultery, the drinks, chili sause, mayo etc.. the FUNNIEST is the chili sauce.. saw this Kimball chili in milo big tin size! that STUPID Hazwan say buy that.. WAH LAO.. sound as though we selling Zhu Chang Fen!! lolx!! it's really so FUNNY till we keep laughing.. and laughing so LAUGH in Sheng Siong.. then went to get Mayo..then saw the BIG BIG one also.. then Daphne say want to buy that.. lolx! think i send sandwichs ar!LOLX

so funny manz.. it was so FUN shopping for groceries! then went back to her place.. eat maggi then drink coke.. so warm manz the weather.. supposed to leave her place at about 6pm.. but daphne sleeping.. end up.. late liao.. took 159 to AMK then from there took MRT.. intend to take it to Boon Lay.. but then i am REALLY LATE le.. 7.20pm still at Yishun.. so i get down at Yishun to rush a cab there.. oh man! the cab cost me a BOMB.. 20plus to reach Boon Lay Jalan Bahar..

thank god.. not late for meeting.. did some daimoku and evening gongyo before starting the meeting.. really got a lot to update for today's meeting.. thank god today i insist of going down despite that i am SO SO SO TIRED.. saw Xiao Ling too.. am HAPPY to see that she's now a asst. district leader:D

took 172 with Dad to CCk after the meeting.. and took MRt from there.. really TIRED lohz.. tomorrow, will be going for chalet:D i'll be away! =]

[ i realised.... ]

i realised...

this few days.. i have been thinking a lot.. do i really need YOU to be happy? i realised that for the past weeks that i was left alone to face lots of my problems.. though it seems tough, though i feel a little hopeless.. but i still managed to get through it.. To a certain extent, your existence has been a headache to me.. it has added to the headaches i have.. i started to realise that i dont know how to face you anymore.. Am i really truely happy when i am with you? should i be depending on you to be happy? i also dont know..

back to Project Rice, just finished adjusting the budget plan for the logistics and the publicity material.. and send a SUPER LONG email to my main com.. Actually, still got a lot more things to do and we still have only one month towards the project.. hais.. i just feel that people who need to gambatte really need to gambatte..

very sleepy today.. maybe because it's raining the whole day? hahaz! i wanted to take afternoon nap end up Hazel called me to ask about the chalet on wed so no choice have to sacrifice my sleep.. HAIS! i am so TIRED.. i need a BREAK and stay myself out of RED CROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

didnt play any games today.. NOT in the MOOD.. i also dont know why but just a bit SIANZ..

this week
- tomorrow will be meeting Daphne to get the stuff we need for bbq, night time got West Coast zone meeting.
- Wed and thurs will be at chalet
- thurs evening or friday evening will be East Zone Main com meeting.
- sat is exco meeting

hais.. my 1 week seems to be gone! :(

i realised i do not need YOU to be happines. From today, i will pursue my own happiness.

(that YOU is not my EX okie! hahaz! must claify if not people will anyone think.. hahaz! )



our Project RICE cups designs! :D nice right?

[ back to warfront... ]

i'm back to the warfront...

stayed home yesterday the whole day to game.. so nothing much to update actually.. BUT, today.. woke up early cause have to attend Rice Project meeting..

woke up at 10.15pm.. showered, did my morning prayers and went to get myself some food.. hmm.. then went out about 12.30pm.. supposed to meet Ben Ben at 1.30pm but he was LATE.. went to shop shop and got myself a braclet:D love it!=] then went back to Dhoby red line control station to wait for him.. then after meeting up with him, walk towards SMU.. we had our meeting today at Settlers cafe..

think the meeting today really quite pathetic.. cause very few people attend.. East Zone director, which is me, North Zone Michael, NTU West Representative Ben Ben, Central Zone Simin, Chern Fern, Adeline, Shu ting, Stella and another girl.. i cant remember her name.. 9people only.. hais! so pathetic.. but the meeting was good.. not really stress and every single detail was brought across..

a bit worried for South Zone cause not much progress from their side.. only one month away from the Project Rice excution only.. hais.. Thanks to Michael, our funds needed for our logistics has been fully sponsored by NECDC.. and think the ops timeline can be settled.. it's the recce and the volunteer recruitment that i need to settle.. hais! JESSICA GAMBATTE le! you can make it de!!! :D

went to have lunch cum dinner after the meeting.. had Astons's beef steak with Ben ben.. yum yum! really NICE manz! then took 857 home.. tired.. tomorrow will be staying home cause tues got to go get the miscellaous with Daphne for the class chalet on wed! :D


Friend, get that thing settle fast. you know what i mean de:D jiayou le! :D

[ DONT DEPRIVE me of HOPE, it might be all that i have.... ]

DONT DEPRIVE me of HOPE, it might be all that i have....

slept till 10 plus this morning and woke up because Mom dragged me out of bed!! aiyoz! it's SCHOOL HOLIDAY lehz.. why must i be tortured? sobx sobx (T.T). then woke up, and went to do my morning prayers.. went down with mom to the market and get some veges and kampong chicken.. Mom's cooking chicken rice TONIGHT when i complain few days again that she havent been cooking chicken rice for a LONG time!

BUT, at the whole timing.. cause i'll not be home for dinner... will be going down to RC HQ for the International Volunteer Day Celebration Dinner.. was at home playing computer the whole day till i feel a bit bored so i went to ask Sakinah if she want to meet me early..

supposed to meet her at 4.30pm at CCK mrt.. end up, i was LATE.. so, she came down to meet me at Yishun instead.. we drove to Kovan and return her rented car and from Kovan, we took Dhoby to meet the rest.. then headed to RC HQ for dinner.. OH TIAN! the dinner was quite pathetic.. was held in the Haw Par Memorial Hall, can you imagine the dinner was organised and everyone is made to stand all the way? aiyoyoz.. so PATHETIC manz..

got band performance, got video screening.. but then, we stand all the way through.. till about 8pm.. dinner time! and stand to eat AGAIN.. but the food quite okie.. got penang laksa, satay, mee soto, spagetti, swiss roll, mashed potato etc... very very tired.. cause wearing heels then sit all the way.. haiyoz! left early with Ntu peeps.. when we are at the entrance of the HQ, then we realised that it's pouring.. end up, no choice still have to walk out cause we also dont know wait the rain will stop..

took 171 home with Ben Ben.. dropped at his place and took 852 home.. very tired! cause no seats then am on heels.. haiyoz.. poor legs of mine.. hais! stand till reach thomson road then got seat.. haiyoz! went home and mom heated up dinner for me.. she purposely save some for me after i begged her too! hahaz! thanks mommy.. i just love it! :D

tomorrow, will be home playing game! :D it's PHOTOS time!! =]

syed, damien, sakinah and johnson:D

sakinah and me! =]


damien, sakinah, me and damien! :)

[ 自己的幸福要自己掌握， 不要依赖任何人来给。]

自己的幸福要自己掌握， 不要依赖任何人来给。

FIRST day of my holiday.. OFFICALLY i mean.. hahaz.. BUT guess what i did? i stayed at home TODAY the whole day.. woke up quite early then as usual.. got myself hooked on the computer.. hahaz.. as usual lohz.. dying for holiday to come.. but when it comes, i really feel like going to school and then feel like doing homework.. LOLX!!

today have chosen to stay home in the morning cause need to go do my spectacles later and go for meeting with the NTU peeps for the preparation of next year's Vibrant Blood.. left home at about 3plus.. Daphne called me.. hmmm, i think everyone starts growing BORED when it's only the FIRST day of the holiday! saw Fatin while i was on the mrt to Clementi.. LOLX.. went to West Coast to repair my specs.. thank god they are willing to compensate me cause i just made the specs not long and that the lens just cracked!

then went to walk around at the newly opened West Coast plaza.. and.. to sayang me a bit more.. i went to do pedicure and manicure! :D kekez! just love it!=] then went to look for Grandma.. like what mom say, it's been a LONG time since i last visit them.. so went to look for them awhile.. til about 6.15pm, i set off to meet Yanan and Weiran at JP.. sat down at Mac and had our dinner and discussed some matters.. well, everything okie.. next meeting would be i guess after JJ comes back from malaysia? yeah..

then i took 174 from JP to Bukit Batok and changed to 852 home.. tomorrow.. will be staying home till evening time.. will be going down to RC HQ for a dinner.. just hope i wont see that Calvan there! *scary*

[ time to say goodbye... ]

time to say goodbye...

Today marks the LAST day of our incampus and exams.. I dont know what's wrong with me this sem.. I always walk out of the hall with lots of confidence that i will definitely score an A.. BUT, this time, i'm in the gang who complains that the PAPER is SO TOUGH!? did we just slack too much because it's the LAST term or is it because luck is not on our side? or because the setter for the paper is simply a NO BRAINER?

cannot ask straight forward questions but questions that makes everyone start pulling their own hair! hais.. i am really disappoint with myself.. In course assessment marks for PCB was a average B, cause i didnt do well for BCLS practical, and for BH is just nice an A - 80marks.. my concentration on this term was most on PROJECTS.. and many a times, i have to finish it up with minimal help from the rest.. just like the CDP project, who has NOT MUCH contribution, you should know it well yourself.. i wont have to spell it out..

BUT, well, like i said, it's the END of the TERM.. i wont want to care whether i like you or you like me anymore.. we wont see each other.. maybe just for class chalet and social night, and then maybe so unlucky during sim training and then will be graduation day.. and Grad Day, parents will be around with us to collect the cert.. so ya, would maybe be just a Hi and Bye situation.. if this is the case, WHY SHOULD i bother? hahaz! i just feel happy that i still have my clinque - Nad, Shiffa, Daphne, Ramlan and Farhan.. i am already very CONTENTED about it..

and the problem with Fara and Hazel has been resolved.. we can talk NICELY to each other now.. so why BOTHER? i DO NOT CARE whether who is happy or not.. i just CARE whether i am HAPPY or not.. and whether my clinque is HAPPY or not.. HAHAZ..

after the paper, we had our CP briefing.. hmm.. this term, got some weird teacher by the name of Ms Lydia Poh.. she just look a bit blur.. lolx! But, i hope she can be a GOOD teacher.. Sad.. Mdm Yeo will be taking TTSH group4.. hais! sianz..how i wish she can take our group again.. sianz.. just hope that TTSH group 4 wont bully her..

went to meet Mrs Tang after the attachment briefing.. settled some graduation photos stuff and went to Level 6 with her to settle the locker matter and the CP logbook.. then accompany Daphne to meet Mr Tay.. then after that, went with clinque to eat KFC.. had buddy meal with Daphne.. Farhan left halfway through.. hais.. i also dont know what's wrong with him.. but just emo lahz.. hais.. Sufiyan came to join us for dinner.. am HAPPY to see him after so long! just hopes he get well soon..

today so UNLUCKY.. got scare by some psycho person on the bus and saw him again when we are going home.. OH my TIAN! so SCARY manz! Shiffa was laughing at me saying that how did i managed to survive at IMH posting? hahaz! well, i am well taken care of lahz during my IMH posting by my Staff Nurses lahz.. LOLX! kekez..

Zhen yu smsed me yesterday.. am happy to hear from him after a long time!! :D sad, i arent going back to IMH for anymore posting.. going to KKH.. will be going to Ward 5B for medical posting, then Ward 10C for surgical posting.. SAD! i want to go back to 12C or 12D! miss the staff there! :(

will be going down to West coast plaza to make my specs tomorrow.. visit grandma if i have the time.. and meet Weiran and Yanan for NTU VB'09 meeting..

our graduation album deco! :D

representing to you..... JR0704C! =]

[ i am just being BORED.... ]

i am just being BORED....

Your True Birth Month Is December

Logical Patriotic Ambitious Not egoistic Loves praise Loves to joke Fun to be with Not pretending Loves attention Short tempered Hates restrictions Loves to socialize Loves to be loved Loyal and generous Impatient and hasty Changing personality Good sense of humor Honest and trustworthy Influential in organizations Takes high pride in oneself Active in games and interactions

What's" Your True Birth Month?

it speaks exactly in the month i am being born....

Your Birthdate: December 20

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move. It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone. Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

i feel that the part saying about if anyone tries to rush me will be in for some heartache.. i guess it's quite true.. and among the day that they say that those people are compatible with me.. all i can remember the clearest is that my last boyfriend is born on the 11th.. BUT, not say compatible lehz.. if compatible then wont break up liao.. LOLX!

[ spring cleaning..... ]

Spring Cleaning...


JR0704C with Mdm Tan.....


JR0704C with Mrs Tang, our DEAREST CA


me and Mdm Tan, my BH1 and Onco lecturer...


Shiffa, Mdm Tan and Nad..


Nad with the baby...


me with the baby...

spring cleaning one of our nursing lab that we often use.. and we took photos! i just remember it when i get home.. if we were to self declare friday is our official study day then today would be the LAST day having lesson in the nursing lab.. oh HOW SAD! after exams, it will be worse, cause, we will be on holidays then out for attachment in January and there it goes.. we'll be graduating!!! .....

after the spring cleaning, had some peace out talk.. i shall not elaborate cause i dont wish that to be part of my blog's memory.. i can just say.. coming to that issue - I WONT FORGIVE and WONT FORGET.. No negiotation for that.. i'm SORRY.. anyway, it's coming to the END of the TERM and end of the COURSE.. i WONT SEE you ANYMORE, and WONT WANT to see you ANYMORE.. so ya.. from the beginning, it's just project mate-ship and classmate-ship.. NEVER a friendship..

so ya, i dont see a point being affected by you.. cause this term, i had ENOUGH of you! and had ENOUGH of crying and being affected.. i just want to cherish the time with my clinque.. and THAT'S ALL.. STAY AWAY from ME! cause YOU just POLLUATE the AIR!

saw this on my cousin's blog.. quite interesting..and i feel that it's kind of TRUE.. hahaz! i always get affected easily by troubles because of me being too EMOTIONAL.. and i think my friends will get scared of me if i turned quiet.. hahaz! cause it means something is WRONG.. cause i am always a cheerful, talkative and easy-go-lucky person.. hahaz!

Your Birthdate: December 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride. Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing. When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it. It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious. Your strength: Your warm heart Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions Your power color: Black Your power symbol: Musical note Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?