OH YES!!!

[ OH YES!!!!! ]

oh yes.. finally i left e state of hell.. i mean my old department wif 2 brain sick pple.. now i'm adaptin wif in e new department wif e help of my new senior Co Co.. well.. though i still need 2 help out in qa.. but old man.. i no longer under ur control.. yes.. thankie 4 freein mi gohonzon.. realli thankie uncle roger ( my boss ) 4 switchin department 4 mi.. i'm realli grateful 4 tis arrangement.. though i noe other conflict mite arise sooner or later.. but i promise.. now.. my whole heart will onli b devoted 2 work.. i wun care wat's happenin ard mi in e company.. now tat i hav a carefree life again.. i'll cherish tis opportunity tat had been given 2 mi.. i noe tis opportunity dun cum easy..

last fri.. when my boss told mi tat he wanna switch mi 2 design n ask 4 my view.. i agreed wifout givin it a 2nd tot.. cos i noe.. tat will definitely b a brighter future 4 mi.. 1 n a half yrs in e qa deparment.. all i did everydae is takin cutters, clean it n pack it.. then do sum admin stuff like filin work orders.. orderin rose plastics n plastic bags 4 e packin.. jus like a coolie like tat.. now.. i'm a designer.. oh yes.. designer okie.. though still veri junior lahz.. but i feel is a gd start.. lolx.. nv noe Co Co oso hate old man so much.. i noe dad will let u die a slow death.. so i hav no worries.. muahahaz.... 2gether wif ur "beloved ger".. cause n effect.. u shall bear e consequences 4 wat u hav done.. create e CAUSE n bear e EFFECT.. stop shitting ard in e company.. it's makin pple ard stinkin..

startin 2 draw sum simple cutters alread.. alread 3 types of cutters le.. still copin well.. 2dae alread start drawin le.. cos sum of e cutters dun hav drawin avaliable.. jus sum simple ones.. but i enjoy.. n i feel proud seein my name on e drawin itself.. old man.. watch out 4 my name.. i'm not jus jessica loh onli.. i'll make my name proud.. n step u on2 e ground.. i'll prove u wrong n proud those who look down on mi n my name.. so dun under estimate my ability.. i'm capable of doin big thingys.. will onli b departin 4 germany when i get familiar wif e designin part.. so wun b leavin soon le.. my trip will b delay.. no worries.. i'm happi in e state i am now.. dad is rite.. movin hse can make lotsa thingy change.. my life jus turn 360degrees wif in few daes time..

hav been tokin 2 my senior abt his love life.. lolx.. jus feelin empty all a sudden.. but i noe i'm tired of tokin abt relation now.. i jus wan 2 live peacefully....... as 4 relation, i shall leave it 2 fate.. i jus hav enough of sufferings.. i wanna enjoy 2 more yrs of teenage life peacefully.. so jus leave mi alone.. all i need is frenz, family n my work.. n tat's all.. guess my wish is simple enough ba??

[ a new place, a new start ]

[ a new place, a new start ]

everythingy gonna b a new start 4 mi.. i hav jus shifted from Clementi's 3-rm flat (my old hse) to my new 4-rm flat in Yishun.. a new place, a new start.. everythingy gonna start afresh.. i cant realli slp.. mayb bcos i'm slpin on my new bed.. no lahz.. onli new matress.. smell diff.. plus.. it's a 4-rm flat.. so i'm hav my own rm.. my own space.. a bit not used 2 it lahz.. lyin on my bed every nitez.. i tot of e past.. tot of my sch daes.. tot of e dae wif him ard.. my tears drop.. drop automatically..

last fri on vesak dae.. while pple r usin it as a shoppin or restin dae.. my whole family went 2 our new flat 2 do sum last min clearin up 4 our flat.. tian ming ( my dad n my collengue) actuall help mi n my family a lot.. i'm realli grateful abt it.. dunoe how 2 thankie him oso.. he actuall sacrified his time 4 movie 2 drive my dad back 2 my old flat 2 move sum electrical appliances 2 our new flat.. uncle lim gave my dad a fish tank wif a rack.. guess wat.. my dad didnt realised tat i was tat strong.. until he saw mi helpin him 2 move e fish rack.. lolx.. back at our old flat at nitez.. was packin my stuff n helpin my mom n dad.. n guess wat.. i slept at 2am in e mornin.. cos of my useless brother.. cos of e dust.. he kept sneezin.. n he went 2 slp.. pple busyin.. he went 2 buy supper eat.. after eatin he went 2 slp.. realli make mi angry..

woke up at 5.50am 4 work.. actuall i suppose 2 take leave on sat de.. but.. wat 2 do.. i cant take so mani daes.. plus vesak dae jus over onli.. haiz.. wat is tat man?? got annual leave oso cannot take.. haiz.. a bit upset over tat.. on sat.. i took time-off.. n bcos of tat 1 ½ hrs time-off.. i lost my 30bucks allowance.. if i take leave or mc.. cos i hav alread hav medical leave n annual leave.. they wun cut my 30bucks allowance.. but once i take time-off.. tat's e end of it.. haiz.. sianz..

i left e company at 11am on sat (14/05).. n took a cab back wif my dad.. then we again.. started 2 throw our unwanted stuff.. n pack my wanted stuff.. till abt 1.30 lyk tat.. e pple came.. they started 2 move out out stuff.. till abt 5pm.. then we r able 2 clear our stuff 2 e void deck 1st.. plus e lorry 4 hse removal spoilt.. so we actuall waited unpatiently 4 it 2 cum.. mi n my mom took a cab up there 1st.. cos we hav 2 clear e space 4 them.. when they arrive at yishun.. it's alread 7plus.. oh gosh.. end up.. my dad, bro n mi oso lend our hand 2 move e boxes n furniture.. till abt 9plus.. everythingy is move in2 e rm.. now our flat is in a mess..

we went 2 bed at ard 2 am again.. again okie.. oh no.. yester i slp onli abt 4hrs.. yet.. i not mentally tired.. jus physically tired.. hav cramp n aches all over.. but onli managed 2 slp at 5am in e mornin.. haiz.. n woke up at 9plus in e mornin 2 hav breakfast n buy so stuff we need.. another dae of onli 4hrs slp.. haiyo.. i'm havin dark eye rings now.. we went 2 chong pang 4 breakfast.. n buy sum extra bright bulbs 4 our hse.. n back at hm.. we started packin again.. i started hangin my own clothes.. n all a sudden.. i jus bcame e in charge 4 clothes.. i helped mom hang hers oso.. oh gosh.. her clothes realli alot.. double tat of mine.. double worz.. then i started cleanin my study table n e cabinets 4 my books.. n start 2 unpack my stuff.. it's unpacked, unpacked, n unpacked again.. onli mananged 2 hav my lunch at almost 6pm le.. tat oso bcame my dinner..

after dad left hm 4 e wake.. my mom, my didi n i went 2 central.. 2 withdraw money n we went 2 e fairprice at yishun mrt oso.. bought sum milo n stuff back oso.. back at hm.. i sweep e floor n mop it oso.. my mom sae.. 1st time c mi sweepin n moppin e floor everydae.. ever since i start 2 clean up tis floor.. i'm alwaz e one sweepin n moppin e floor.. cleanin e windows as well.. i jus suddenly bcum so motivated 4 household chores.. lolx(=.=!!).. after doin e household chores.. i help 2 unpack my didi n my mom's clothes again.. we actuall went 2 bed at almost 12am le.. i jus cant slp.. till abt 2am.. then i managed 2 fall asleep.. n woke up at 9plus.. i'll b back at e old flat later 2 retrieve sum of out stuff again.. gtg le.. i'm tired~


"It is an illusion to think that we can find happiness by going to some other place, far away from our present reality. Our happiness is determined by our mindset. If we resolve that the place where we are right now is the perfect place for carrying out our Buddhist practice, and if we challenge ourselves there, then that place will become the "Capital of Eternally Tranquil Light". It will shine as a bright citadel of happiness"

=> above is a guidance i read in daily sensei guidance.. it's veri meanin..

i'm runnin away from u........

[ i'm runnin away frm u.... ]

i'm runnin away.. yes.. i'm runnin away from u.. no actuall lahz.. i'm jus shiftin hm le.. when i was young.. i'm stayin at bukit batok.. jus opp stephanie's place.. under my block there's a police post.. at e age of 5 (yr 1993).. i moved 2 clementi.. my current venue.. under my block, there's oso a police post.. in e yr 1998.. which is after 5 yrs, my dad sold e clementi flat 2 my uncle.. but we been stayin here till now.. cos he is alwaz overseas workin.. therefore.. we didnt move out.. plus last time my dad's workplace is near my hse.. n mi n my didi is schooling here..

now.. pple is back.. we jus hav 2 move out no matter wat.. i hav been stayin near 4 13yrs.. but.. i still e flat in bukit batok.. e livin rm damn big.. though now i movin in2 a 4-rm flat as well.. but e livin rm seems smaller than e 4-rm flat in bukit batok.. mayb when i'm young, things look bigger.. lolx(=.=!!).. tml.. yes tml.. which is e 13th of may.. i movin 2 yishun le.. is our flat bought 8yrs again.. but i hav nv stayed in there b4.. n under e block dun hav police post oso.. feel so weird.. haiz.. plus.. from yishun mrt station.. i hav 2 walk hm.. yes.. walk hm.. summore it takes mi abt 10mins lohz.. oh gosh.. i jus cant imagine when i'm so tired.. i still hav 2 walk..

mom is a bit worried 4 mi.. cos when i go 4 soka activties.. none of centres r near my place.. in other words.. i'll b returnin hm late after meeting.. she worried tat i hav 2 walk hm alone.. quite quiet.. but got coffeeshops.. i'm jus afraid 2 meet drunk drinkers onli.. alamak.. if i noe i'm goin hm late.. i wun dare 2 wear skirts tat dae.. lolx.. a bit worried.. everything gonna b a mess 4 mi.. haiz(@.@)..

actuall my intent is 2 take 3.5 daes leave.. startin from tml half dae 2 next wed.. but my idiotic manager dare not approve my leave.. cos he sae it's too mani daes.. so he went 2 speak 2 my director.. even uncle jonathan ( my director) oso sidin him.. haiz.. no choice lohz.. i'm FORCED.. i repeat.. FORCED 2 cut down e no of daes of my leave.. in e end.. i decided 2 work tml.. n take 1 hr time off.. n take 2 daes leave.. which is mondae n tuesdae.. 2 unpacked all my stuffs.. yes.. unpack unpack n unpack.. oh no.. where got enough time?? haiz.. it's not tat i dun hav annual leave... y cant i take?? last yr.. after i bcame a full-time staff in april.. they owe mi 5 daes leave.. n tis yr till end of e yr.. i got 7daes leave.. so in total i got 12 daes annual leave.. if i take 3.5daes.. i'm onli clearin my last yr leave..

if i dun take it tis time round.. guess i dun hav a chance 2 le ba.. tink prob, my manager will take in june 4 a holidae.. n my god-sis will take leave in aug n dec definitely.. n my fren, anna, she will take leave durin lunar 9th month 4 at least 3 weeks.. till she even use no pay leave.. halo.. pple take leave take till no pay leave oso can.. y cant i ?? do i hav 2 wait till i worked till 10yrs later then i can clear my leave at once.. every yr our leave accumulate 4 1 more dae.. in other words, 1st yr is 7 daes.. 2nd yr is 8daes .. then on e 8th yr u will hav 14th daes.. then 9th yr onwards, it will b 14daes every yr.. so after 10yrs.. i will hav 117daes leave.. so in other words, i can take 3months ++ leave rite??

it realli makes my blood boils talkin abt tis.. anw... e next time u will c mi updatin.. tink it will b 2weeks later ba.. cos hav 2 install e scv cable point at my new place 1st.. 2dae not gonna b a restin dae 4 mi.. i gtg le.. hav 2 go my new place n do sum cleanin up 1st.. take care guys~

[ i'm stuck at home wif u ]

[ i'm stuck at home wif u ]

oh no.. i'm stuck at hm wif u.. not wif sum1.. but wif e flu i got.. i jus cant go anywhere.. cos i'm havin mc.. n tat i'm takin medication.. i jus cant get out of bed.. e medi jus make mi drowzy ar.. haiyo.. wat 2 do.. stay hm lohz..hmmm.. actuall.. i went 2 c e doc on wed.. after workin abt 2hrs.. i jus cant stand it anymore.. so i went 2 c my company doc.. i tot he wun give mi mc.. but he did.. so i headed back hm 2 rest lohz.. i hav 2 call back office 2 tell tat bloody manager.. but.. he isnt ard.. so tat freakin kampong mei pick up e call.. n give tat kinda of xialan attitude.. wat u did 2dae, u will bear e consequence.. ni hui chi kui de.. wait n c ba guys.. u will die a natural death..

but.. after e medication given by my company doc, my flu doesnt seems 2 improved a lot.. so yesterdae, i went 2 e poly clinic again.. oh gosh.. i jus hate poly clinic doc.. but my dad ask mi go there c.. at least is gov doc.. they will hav nth 2 sae.. hahaz.. but guess wat.. e doc so nice.. he gave mi 2 more daes mc.. so i'm oso hm 2dae.. tml havin voting 4 election.. so dun hav 2 work oso lahz.. heez.. so tis whole wk.. i onli work 1 dae.. plus another 2hrs++.. heez... realli like holidae.. but i goin 2 rot le lahz.. cant meet yun oso.. cos i havin flu ma.. then she busi workin after finish busyin wif her cousin's weddin.. hmmm.. u realli tired rite, yun??

i jus spend 3 daes.. slpin slpin n still slpin.. cos of e medication.. it isnt my fault actuall.. so dun blame mi 4 not bloggin yun.. haiz.. i jus tired.. i jus wanna get back 2 sch.. i wanna hav a taste of havin unfinished hmwk.. haiz.. how i wish.. i movin hse le.. will b quite busi actuall.. but guess next 2 weeks i hav lesser time 2 blog.. sorrie 4 frenz.. my hm add n hm no will change.. but hp no n e-mail add wont change.. so u guys still can contact mi thru my hp n e-mail add.. dun worry.. heez.. will get back 2 u guys soon after i move hse de.. (>.<).. i'm jus tired.. when can get a chance 2 lean on ur shoulders?? when can i tok 2 u freely?? when can my dreamz b fulfilled?? i'm jus tired of tinkin these questions.. i jus wan a simple life.. jian dan jiu shi mei...

[ alignment tool(s) 21st anniversary dinner ]

[ alignment tool(s) 21st anniversary dinner ]

2dae is 1st of may... but plz allow mi 2 tok abt yester's big event 1st..

• 30th april

yester is my company 21st anniversary dinner & dance.. hmm.. 2 mani.. is a veri big event.. but 2 mi.. it's nothin much lahz.. so.. i nv realli cares lahz.. jus bought a little jacket n a handbag.. e dress n heels is old de.. but hardly wear lahz.. nv realli go make-up.. jus put mascara n lip stick lohz.. hair oso nv style lahz.. so troublesome n waste money.. went 2 meet yun at tiong.. n saw jacqueline at tiong mac.. n hav our lunch settled at e food court there.. yun ate chicken rice n i ate pig stomach soup.. wah diaoz.. e ajinomoto realli a lot ar.. make so thirsty.. instead of gettin a drink.. we had ice-cream.. 3 flavours comprising of yogurt,chocolate n cookies n cream.. yum yum.. so long nv hav ice-cream le.. cos so called havin diet lahz.. cos i scare i cannot fit in2 e dress lahz.. lolx(=.=!!).. went 2 search 4 a block 2 do my manicure lohz.. yun volunteer 2 do it 4 mi de.. lolx.. oh gosh.. guess wat.. e mosquito there simply lurve us too much.. they jus keep kissin us.. oh gosh..

due 2 my work, i hav 2 get in contact wif chemical every single dae.. n tis makes my hands n my nails realli weak.. e skin jus peels off easily.. while buffin my nails, e skin tears, n blood came gashin out.. i tink it realli scares ah yun.. lolx.. it's pretti okie lahz.. jus not in e best or shld sae ideal place 4 manicure.. but still wanna thankie u ah yun.. thankie 4 helpin mi do manicure.. lolx.. after we had everythingy done, we headed back 2 tiong at buy bubble tea at tiong sweettalk.. wat e hell.. e girl serving us is jus too freakin rude.. cant stand tis kinda of pple.. service line.. i repeat it's service line lehz.. wif such attitude.. how 2 work in service line.. hmmmm... calm down!!!!

after which, we sat at e umbrella table outside old chang kee.. we chat till around 5pm b4 i send yun 2 take bus at e opp bus-stop.. her bus came quite fast.. after she boarded e bus, i crossed e rd 2 take bus16 2 orchard.. e bus is jus realli slow.. bcos of tat, i saw 2 person i hasnt seen 4 long.. it's huiqing n tiensoon.. but luckily they didnt c mi.. not bcos i'm in a sorrie state.. but jus tat i jus dunoe how 2 react if they realli c mi.. i'm oso afraid tat huiqing will diao mi.. jus dunoe how is he living now.. as 4 tiensoon, still as xia lan lahz.. jus bwg abt him..

i'm slightly late.. cos of e bus lahz.. my dinner is held at chengdu restuarant in hotel grand central (it's jus behind meredien hotel).. all e 4 qc gers r arranged 2 b e recieptists.. sound so funny.. y not e admin gers?? bcos they dun look presentable?? lolx.. hahaz.. my leader.. as usual lahz.. my manager drove her there.. tat kampong ger.. veri shan ding de.. country bumpkin type.. even specialist shoppin centre oso dunoe.. hopeless.. aiyoz.. y?? y tong ren bu tong ming?? i jus cant stand her.. my pinky dress is bought last yr.. but i onli wear twice.. it costs mi 50over bucks.. i bought a pink little jacket too.. 4 14bucks at far east.. a pair of heels bought at bata.. n a handbag from og.. but guess wat.. my leader bought her clothes at this fashion.. alamak!!! so cheap.. summore xue pple wear low cut blouse.. oso dunoe wat she wanna show.. yuck!!!

did quite a no of thingy.. run here n there n carry this carry tat.. finall.. i can get back 2 do recieptist.. oh no.. i jus cant stand her poor english.. english worse than mine.. my parents were late.. cos my mom hav 2 rush hm 2 pom pom from work n rush cab down.. e 1st thingy my mom saw my leader.. she sae.. alamak.. wear till so ugly.. so low class.. lolx.. though she got style her hair, she got make-up.. but e feedback abt her is jus bad.. oops.. my boss kept teasin mi in front of my parents.. sae i look great in my wearin.. olx.. it's jus simply 2 mi lahz.. our host 4 2dae is MC King.. he's realli cute.. lolx(>.<).. it's realli filled wif excitement.. my dad win a total of 250bucks voucher 4 bein e male champion 4 e best dress contest.. lolx.. gana sabotage oso can win.. lolx.. e food.. i dun realli like it lahz..

i jus dun hav e appetite 2 eat.. mayb bcos e muslim table r opp ours.. n tat kannan kept lookin over.. i hav a rumour wif him.. i jus dunoe who e hell create it.. if is my kor.. i sure chop him off.. lolx.. e whole dinner is filled wif laughter.. i enjoyed it a lot.. but i didnt take pics.. even wif da jie n kor..haiz.. wat a pity.. 1st prize is lcd tv.. guess who won it? not 8838 (my lucky draw no).. is 8828..it's jenny.. from admin.. hmmm.. an enjoyable but tirin dae..

• 1st may

hmmm.. after cumin hm late yester.. 2dae.. i suppose it's a holidae.. it's holidae.. shld relax.. actuall wanna go kbox de.. but au ben dan.. call him he not hm.. end up.. i caught a flu so is yun.. so we stayed hm.. i movin hse liao le ma.. so i'm hm packin all my stuff.. pack pack n pack.. after everythingy is shifted 2 my new flat.. is unpack, unpacked n unpacked.. oh gosh.. sick man.. so ma fan.. but i gonna hav my own room.. yeah!!!!~ my own space.. lookin 4ward 2 tat.. yes!!!!