yester.. i took leave 2 rest n 4 a veri impt reason.. n tat's 2 attend e nrpsd graduation at e botanic garden.. it's been super long since i last step foot in2 botanic garden.. now.. e botanic garden veri nice.. after all e renovation.. 2 seniors graduating yester.. they r sharon n elaine.. pretti happi durin e events yester.. but.. as wat xueyun sae.. i mus b veri upset he's not there.. anw.. no worries.. i nv give myself hope tat he's gonna b there actuall lahz.. i noe though he veri active in gakkai activities, he hardly attend sd stuffs.. summore yester is e ndp preview.. so is expected he wun b there lahz.. quite fun yester.. n we were given 5 questions 2 reflect yester..
=> 7mths has passes, wat's ur greatest achievement?
=> wat's e greatest regrets u hav?
=> wat's ur happiest moments ?
=>wat's ur saddest moments?
=> n e last question, wat's ur goals 2wards e end of yr 2006?
i wrote quite a lot but didnt manage 2 finish all e questions actuall.. tis yr has been a veri challengin yr wif lotsa suprises.. in jan.. i took up basic german language course as i will b goin 2 germany 4 training..n tis started e dispute n unhappiness of my manager 2wards mi.. he kept findin faults wif mi when i didnt even do anythingy wrong..2 him, wat i do is wrong, onli he's rite.. bull-shit!! n struggled thru e 2 n a half mths time 2 cope wif my work n my part time studies.. startin work everydae 2 mi is like goin back 2 hell.. n tat veri moment, i was selected 2 b in e byakuren renaissance course.. in my heart, i noe i gonna face lotsa sansho shima.. anna left my district tis yr oso.. leavin mi wif no ywd district leader 2 take care mi..
then in may.. i moved hse.. moved back 2 our own flat in yishun.. n tis started e dispute of mi n my paternal relatives.. includin my blood-related uncles n aunts, as well as my grandparents.. after one week stayin in yishun, one fine fridae afternoon, boss talked 2 mi wif e presence of my director.. he asked mi if i wan 2 transfer 2 e design department n b a designer.. without even givin a second tot, i agreed.. oh no.. hahaz.. but.. in my new workin environment, everythingy seems 2 b veri gd.. but.. in e hidden part.. is another hell.. mani pple dun recognise my capability.. cos i'm young n e youngest in e whole company.. n they feel tat i'm given favourism from my boss cos he's my dad's best fren.. my dad is oso one of e manager in e company n boss trusted him e most.. but tat's not true.. pple jus love comparin mi wif my dad.. haiz.. so.. sumtimes.. it isnt too gd workin in e same company wif ur own parents or relatives..
workin under my director.. he's quite nice.. but i nv seems 2 learn lotsa thingy from him.. cos in my company, there's a trend.. seniors r afraid tat their status will b replaced.. so cumin 2 teachin juniors.. they teach half then keep half 4 themselves so as 2 protect their ricebowl.. wat e hell rite?? pple wif capability n qualities dun hav 2 worry their ricebowl.. dong jia bu da, da xi jia lohz.. wat 2 worry.. haiz.. i oso faced sum dispute in my district.. n it realli makes mi learn lotsa experiences.. i'll b appointed as district leader tis cumin fri.. those pple who r fang bian should alwaz try 2 give in 2 those not veri fang bian de.. rite?? isnt tat b e way 2 work well wif no politics??
now.. i'm became one of e main commitee in e yr-end-skalumni-concert.. my job is a co-ordinator.. but there seems 2 b no unity in e grp mbers..without unity, there wont b strength and joy.. n sumtimes pple jus dun tink b4 2 sae.. sorrie 2 sae tat.. but we mus b realistic when we works.. n musnt b selfish.. quite disappointed when i heard my frenz sayin tat we should not give in 2 guys so much when i tried 2 persuade them 2 accomodate wif one of e grp mate.. when cumin 2 kosen-rufu spirit, it's no matter of gender.. we shld accomodate wif those who r not so fang bian de.. practicin nichiren daishonin's buddhism as his disciple, we shld noe how 2 practice not onli 4 oneself but 4 others.. if u're so selfish in ur tinkin, then all i can sae tat ur ichinen is wrong n u're on e wrong track of ur life.. i jus hopin tat everyone can work n bearing in mind e spirit of "many in body, one in mind".... tink is gonna b a great challenge 2 fight 4 e unity of all our commitee mbers.. *upset*
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask 4 from u..
