我的心太乱

for the past one month.. many things have happened.. i really dont know how to handle it.. i dont want things to be like that.. but.... i know.. i want to be with you.. i also hope this love can just be between us.. but.. it's impossible..

and your words really sadden me.. how could you said i changed? did i really changed? or is it you? the jessica you want is the one who listen to you obediently and dont even fight back? is this the jessica you want? i'm sorry, compared to 2years back and now, there is a difference.. i have more things to worry.. i have more things that needs my presence.. i have more things to be responsible for.. if you really love me, you would know..

why must be the one always giving in? you said gave in alot.. from the past till now, you know how much i suffered ma? if there's a choice, i would not choose you and would not choose my mom.. then it will be fair for both parties.. as for me, i will leave both of you.. please do not be sad...